| hm..i havent written in ages. something kinda random, but not..it's really weird that there is someone out there, that has no clue that she is such an inspiration to me. okay..not a stalker, i've met her like once or twice really briefly and she probably doesnt remember at all. knowing what shes been through has made me see things in a new light and makes me feel that everything that i consider as problems are nothing like what she is going through everyday. i guess i was affected even more with her story because of this long distance relationship i'm in. san diego doesnt seem so far until someone so important in your life is there. petty fights and times when you dont say i love you because you got into a fight seem so stupid now because you never know if you can tell them tomorrow. hm..i'm disappointed in myself for having such petty problems and thinking that my life sucks. well, i do have legit problems, but everything else that i worry about that doesnt matter..how retarded of me! so let me take the time to show appreciation to everyone that i may take for granted, but you guys are definitely in my heart!
first and foremost, i love you family from mommy, second mommy (auntie susan), daddy, wilson, and jocelyn to aileen- gimme some more hours at your store..it was super fun working with you even at 4am. dont worry..you'll have you dream job soon enough even if you dont even know what it may be, jessica and jarvis. (fearsome 4 for life! haha too many good times as kids!) of course my other cousins as well..denise, doris, andrea, brandon, tracy, and krista, and uncle eddy & auntie emmy and auntie annie & uncle tyler. i'm super greatful that we are such a close family and i wouldnt give up those family dinners for anything and i hope we continue it when we're older and bring our own kids. we should do the whole family trip thing again..disneyworld was way too long ago!
moving on, my kimmy! i love you so much and i cant wait to spend more time together. you are my everything and i know we're going through tough times being so far apart, but i'm going to appreciate what we have and what we will have. thank you for sticking with me for so long..but it's only been a short time compared to the forever we will have..HAHA dont be scared! *around!* we'll go through it together and i'm glad to know you'll be there with me, hand in hand 
annie, you MFing sav..haha. you're basically a part of my family, sleeping over at my house during highschool and the good ol' days of taking the bus together, basically having the same schedule sophomore year. you taught me a few things and i hope i have done the same for you. i'm always here for you girrrl! haha
amber, too many of the same problems before and even now. so much fun senior year becoming closer, and even though you dont want to stay in sf, i hope you do so you me and annie can hang out more and catch up to keep the mean girls going!
tony, thanks so much for all the rides and everything in high school..haha. congratulations for all your accomplishments, but be careful about how your present yourself. street smarts..haha i'm sure i'll be teaching you things throughout the years. thank you for your hospitality whenever i go to san diego and all the time in general. i know that if i ever have a problem i can talk to you and you'll atleast listen even up to the wee hours of the morning. thanks! make sure to keep in touch when youre at UCSF.
chris (cheng), you were such a good influence throughout senior year. you are such a good person and you make everyone a better person by just being there. you were always so cheerful and sincere. it was such an honor going to prom with you and i hope you had half as much fun as i did. thanks for everything and always being there!
alex, you were always trying to be tough on me, but i know you always had my back for anything. youre super caring even though you were mean to me..haha. it was really nice having 6, 7, 8 off with you during senior year. thank you for also being there for me and that one time when i had a little break down, you took me out of that. haha probably more than one, but thank you so much and i hope you know i'm still only a block away, so come over! haha..i hope youre still using your nalgene bottle!
travis, whitey! no thats not me..haha. you and amber are made for eachother and it has been fun being the third wheel, but never feeling like one..okay maybe sometimes. go a&f-ers haha..maybe i'll work with you again. but i hope you think of me as a friend and not just amber's friend. we should double date again and watch some lovely movies like endless sunshine of something or other..haha
lowell volleyball team:
mel/michelle, haha i remember people always swiching our names, but definitely not because i was as good as you. you have to be one of the cooler underclassmen i have known. haha even though i'm only 2 month older than you. you made practice that much better and i'm glad to have gotten to play with you..oh yeah..winterball! haha that was fun(ny) too.
tiff young, youre a crazy ass girl. please dont be so hard on yourself. you're such a great person with a great personality! we definitely should play a grass doubles tournament together, but uh friendship league..haha cuz i'm SO out of shape! love you, dont be so mean to yourself!
nikki, oh goodness. you are one straight up, no shit person..haha YOURE IT! YOURE THE ULTIMATE!! that was freaking sweet during my senior year. take care of your jaw..i think i'm developing TMJ too damn it, so youre gonna have to teach me about what youve been doing. too bad you dont work for starbucks you traitor haha..peets..OH MY! lol..miss you! oh by the way, holy goodness you got a tongue ring and tattoo..i will talk to you about that later! haha
marissa, i'm always here for you and i hope you know that. you have a bit of distorted view on who's pretty..haha (not me). do you still have that picture of finding nemo we made with goldfish crackers? haha..i hope you choose theright backpack, but you cant go wrong with either of them! dont hestitate to talk to me if you have a problem
and all the rest of you volleyballers (harvey- youre such a great person and a gentleman..glad to have know you better through kim, david shen-winterball '02 backup date and big bro!, thomas lee, mellie, jia, ruby, mike tom, randall, nick li, thomas ta, tran, derrick, jen chow, matt ji, eve-sorry about your senior year..i just want you to know that i really looked up to you, carrie-best friend from kindergarten, traci, wayne, laura ng..ahh cant think this late!!)..you have all made a difference in my life. thank you mikey for everything and i'm sorry that things turned out the way they did. thank you coach pete for everything..such an inspiration hitting a one footer and being a lawyer..my dreams!
team 5992, haha..well mostly mopes, lancey pants, lina, frances..etc etc..you guys are always helping me whenever you can..especially you mabel! i'm definitely dressing you up and taking you out clubbing one day! haha..and nancy..join the gym so we can go together! i'm glad you and danny are happy together. (no longer a part of 5992) stan..thanks, youre like a big bro to me
then to the others because my butt is numb..sarah kwan, cindy, leo, steph, jenn cheung, danny, derek, kevin (mak) haha your goofiness brings up my spirits especially when i'm alone in your guys' apartment, eugene for being caring, esther, bo, tania, joanie, kim hayashi, kim lui, jess wilson, mike ng, jess lee, nicole, jordan, peter, monica louie, justin, kristen jue, and if i forgot anyone, because i probably have being that it's 2am, when i remember i'll add you to thank you..you have all affected me in one way or another. thank you all!
and thank you God. |
oh well..anywhoo i just wanted to share my experience at the dentist. so yesterday i went to the dentist for some teeth cleaning goodness..or so i thought. i got there a little early and my appointment was at 5:30. i ended up waiting until 6:08 to get into the chair. i was pretty annoyed since no one said that i would have to wait and the receptionist person seemed like nothing was wrong. i asked her if i was gonna start anytime soon since my appointment was for 5:30 and it had already become 6:00. she said that the dentist was almost done and asked me if i had anywhere to go. is it just me or was i suppose to be happy about waiting for a half an hour? i dunno..i was pretty annoyed. but yeah..you now how the usual procedure is to use a drilly thing, then this metal hook-ma-bob, then flossing, and lastly the polishing gadget. so she goes on with the drilling..not so much pain, but she gets my gums a few times. so then she starts to use the metal hook-ma-bob and shes HOOKING INTO MY GUMS!! i can feel my tissue ripping and bleeding. then she wedges them in between my teeth and makes little gaps in between my teeth. then she starts to floss my teeth and forces the floss down into my gums super hard which,again, makes my gums bleed like crazy. everytime that she flossed between a couple teeth, she would have to spray some water because i was bleeding so much. i mean i'm not a dentist or even close, but doesnt that mean something when you see more blood from a cleaning that you would with, let's say, surgery?? well yeah, so blood gushing from my mouth and my gums swelled up. i couldnt eat that night because my mouth was in so much pain. gaHhhh...what a horrible experience! okay thats all..haha
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