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I go on my way

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 09:26:03 GMT

LTNS, xanga

Life is complicated

How difficult for me to go on my way - the correct way persistently.

Congradulations to Daniel.

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Wed, 19 Dec 2007 13:21:57 GMT

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Alleluia - The Lord will take care.

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 23:39:51 GMT

Jesus your light, is shinning within us, let not my doubt and my darkness speaks to me.

Jesus your light, is shinning within us, let my heart always welcome Your love.

Alleluia! The Lord indeed takes care of everything...

When I arrived at the Cathedral yesterday at 10:50 (late due to traffic congestion..) to participate the Solemn Mass celebrated by the Cardinal,

I found the church quite full...I hoped to find a seat near the main aisle...but i couldn't.

So quite dissapointed, i said, quite carelessly, "Lord, Find one seat for me, please..."

Then IMMEDIATELY came one voice, "MR. LO!!"

I turned and noticed a parent of one student - and she showed me one seat she reserved (for whom? I don't know...anyway he / she never showed up!)

Oh I really never understand how God uses His power! Alleluia!

After this incident..I realzied one thing: if God even took care of such small matters (really.."sesame" and "green beans")..why should we worry for even more important earthy matters like food or money?

" For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? ..."

"Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' "For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." (Matthew 6)

Relief and stupidity

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 13:05:04 GMT

I did something VERY STUPID ytd.

But it did relieve me from my pain,

After all these years, finally things came to an end.

But ..i could have done better.

why should i approach someone whom I have not yet forgotten....

it only made us impossible to frds again...

yet i did finally reveal my emotions all these years...

no!

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 13:38:30 GMT

I must NOT allow myself to fall as a victim.

I must NOT allow myself to lay hopeless and undefended.

I must be STRONG

and must cheer and gear myself up!

I must solve my negative emotions.

Someone asked, "Do you hate the person who brought you in this state?"

Oh no i don't...i don;'t think so.

I can't even feel my anger

What I only have is endless pain and sadness....it's well bryond words.

I feel so weak

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 10:08:03 GMT

So frustrated

So hurt

So tired

So hopeless............

中，大，人

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:32:06 GMT

昨天，我終於乘學校運動會之便，往中大補領新學生證。

我一直認為，中大早已不屬於我了。但想不到，當我再踏入圖書館後，不少舊時記憶還是湧回來，歷歷在目。 (順帶一提，我是眾目睽睽下，從「烽火台」下走過的。哈哈)

在女工小食部買腸粉，在泳池旁邊坐邊吃，不論口中，心中也在咀嚼。

看來，我和中大雖不是連體嬰，也是剪不斷，理還亂呢。

Imagination and reality

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 08:35:01 GMT

A few days ago I was planning to receive the sacrament of reconciliation in the Cathedral..

but i chickened out...as i was afraid of the priest (who scolded me when i had my last confession.)

As i was leaving the cathedral..i was "imagining" my conservation with our Lord:

Jesus: "You know I love you...i am willing to forgive you [through this sacrament]......Why are you rejecting my mercy?"

I: But Jesus...I AM AFRAID.... I don't want to be scolded...

Jesus: But even though if I scolded you...it is my mercy......why do you reject my mercy?

I was very afraid upon hearing these voices...and tried to get myself diverted from this.

Upon discernemnt by a very special spiritual friend....she reminded me that messages from God should not lead to fear...rather, it would lead to peace/

Therefore, i conclude that such message (the "dialogue" ) should not come from God....

Love and Sin

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 10:56:31 GMT

Recently I discovered the relationship between sin and love.

The Catholic Church states very clearly that to sin (a major sin) is to reject God's love....

This only happens when there is too much "Self" in one's heart.

No wonder selfish / self-centred. people (like me) usually sin more...for one focuses on himself, and thus ignoring others' needs, or, at least, putting himself in front of others or even God.

Only love can conquer sin, and the love, thirst of God - the willingness to BE WITH HIM SHALL drive away the darkness, the "self" ikn one's heart......

A good book...

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 21:20:27 GMT

What a good book....