| bit·ter·sweet | 1. | both bitter and sweet to the taste: bittersweet chocolate. |
| 2. | both pleasant and painful or regretful: a bittersweet memory. |
Every few years, a word seems to just hot me a certain way. This one is one that seems to always hot me just "there". Rarely does a word mean two opposing emotions - completely antithetical directions - and yet still make so much sense.
Only in this backwards world, a place where we can all be so messed up as people - and experience such high and lows in of emotions, could such a concept exist.
Over 4 years ago - I used this word to described how I felt about a long time ago. I guess I hoped it was just going to be a phase - a period of time that would eventually pass.
Today I realized that though there were slight detours and breaks in the action - this phase was ongoing.
Today, I am "that guy".
But tomorrow, I don't want to be "that guy".
Let's see what happens.
Things have got to change.
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| Things are a changingOne step at a time.
Shift_Perspective.
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| Why I Love MoviesI was just watching the movie Knocked Up today, if you
haven't seen it yet, I encourage you to. Its funny, and in my opinion,
so true in some ways.
I know its not the most "clean" movie.
Here are some lines from the script.
Guys and Movie Quotes - And why girls just don't get it.
I've noticed that a lot of guys in general really gravitate to movie
quotes to express certain emotions. Maybe its because we aren't
original enough to come up with our our allegories or anecdotes. I'd
like to think its just because some fancy writers just said it better.
PETE
Isn't it weird, though, when you have a kid and all your dreams and hopes go right out the window.
DEBBIE
What changed for you? What went out the window? You do everything exactly the same.
PETE
No, I love what I'm doing. But say before you're married with children you want to live in India for a year. You can do it.
DEBBIE
You want to go to India? Go to India!
Seriously.
PETE
Do you want to go to India?
DEBBIE
No. You can go.
BEN
I get what he means. Honestly, when I found out about...
Ben motions towards Alison.
BEN
...I
had this flash of me in a white Ford Bronco hauling ass for Canada. The
chopper's taping it, and I bust through the border and I'm free! I kept
thinking that. Alison stares at Ben.
BEN (cont'd)
It was a flash!
ALISON
What do you mean?
BEN
Don't
look at me. We can talk about our fears here. If Doc Brown screeched up
to you in the DeLorean and said, "Alison, I got the car here. What do
you want to do?" No part of you would think, "Maybe I'll go back to
that night and put a condom on Ben's dick?" You never got that flash?
ALISON
No. What are you talking about?
PETE
"Where we're going, we don't need roads."
BEN
You wouldn't do that?
ALISON
I don't know who Doc Brown is. What are you talking about?
BEN
Doc Brown is Christopher Lloyd. He invented the DeLorean time machine.
PETE
Everyone has a time machine image.
DEBBIE
I have a really good idea. Why don't you two get in your time machine, go back in time and fuck each other?
PETE
Who needs a time machine?
The joy of children
This reminds me of what Sang told me about the joys of childhood.
Things were definitely a lot simpler back then. I guess the next time
to experience it is when we have kids of our own.
EXT. PLAYGROUND - DAY
Ben and Pete sit while Charlotte and Sadie blow bubbles.
BEN
They seem to love bubbles.
PETE
They go ape-shit over bubbles.
BEN
They're really going ape-shit.
PETE
That's an incredible thing about a child. What's so great about bubbles?
BEN
They float. You can pop them. I mean, I get it. I get it.
PETE
I wish I liked anything as much as my kids like bubbles.
BEN
That's sad.
PETE
It's totally sad. Their smiling faces just point out your inability to enjoy anything.
Love people for who they are, or who you think they should be? I know people who think like this too. Its very pragmatic, but are things like this ever pragmatic?
INT. DEBBIE AND PETE'S HOUSE, BEDROOM - NIGHT
Debbie and Alison eat ice cream in bed and watch TV.
ALISON
Ben
proposed to me. He did. It was really sweet. I feel a little bad. He
was wearing this great button-down. He tucked it in. He got down on one
knee.
He didn't have an actual ring, though, just an empty box but he had
this whole spiel about when he has the money, he'll buy me the ring I
deserve.
DEBBIE
The box was empty?
ALISON
He can't afford a ring.
DEBBIE
So he got down on one knee and gave you an empty box?
ALISON
Yes.
DEBBIE
I'm sorry.
ALISON
Get over it. If you'd been there, you would have cried.
DEBBIE
You need to train him. Oprah said that when two people meet they should point out each other's differences and flaws.
ALISON
I thought you should love people for who they are.
DEBBIE
You criticize them a lot, so they get so down on themselves they have to change.
ALISON
You don't think that's naggy?
DEBBIE
In the end, they thank you for it.
Marriage isn't all that sometimes. I don't think its
all pessimistic, but its interesting to see a reverse view of marriage
than all the romantic comedies out there.
PETE
Marriage is
like that show "Everybody Loves Raymond," but it's not funny. All the
problems are the same, but it's... Instead of all the funny,
pithy dialogue, everybody's just really pissed off and tense. Marriage
is like an unfunny, tense version of "Everybody Loves Raymond," but it
doesn't last twenty-two minutes. It lasts forever. Oh, man!
Someone who likes me? Haha, I sometimes feel like this too.
Are you ever amazed that someone can like you sometimes? I am, and I thought it was just me.
BEN
Think they'll take us back?
PETE
Yes. But I don't know why. Do you ever wonder how somebody could even like you?
BEN
All the time, man. Like every day. I wonder how you like me.
PETE
How
can Debbie like me? She likes me. I mean, she loves me. The biggest
problem in our marriage is that she wants me around. She loves me so
much
that she wants me around all the time. That's our biggest problem. And I can't even accept that? Uh, like that upsets me?! |
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