i havent written in forever. school is over. went to hawaii. fun times. but not doing much of anything anymore so yeah

sooo were possibly moving to boerne like...during the summer. so thats cool i guess im excited to get out of the valley but....im gonna miss all my little mexicans. hah.

oh yeah so i have my car. and its pimp so you should probably be getting jealous right about now... anyways so this summer is consisting of lots of sitting and swimming and eating and chillin with big mack...except that she recently got a job so its more like chillin with my parents. oh baby. i have little desire to do anything though so its really not that bad. i am lethargic.

so here are some pictures

me and mack in hawaii..yay!!

still in hawaii!!! yipppee!!

steel train show!!! rocked my face off!!!

i dont wanna do anymore so bye!!!

emily

oh lord did i need to update!!

wow ok so i am no longer liking track, in fact i flipping hate it. my coach is a racist i swear to you. he hates me and makes fun of me and one day i will kick his skinny arse back to mexico. no offense to all mexicans that i like. um ...........the variety show wow that was so long ago it went pretty sweet and was fun and yeah that has come and gone...

im still thinking about the whole friends thing and i guess its better...i still pretty much feel like im losing my genuinity sometimes but i dont know... ive decided im going to stop over-analyzing things soo much and just let people be and i will be very genuine in that sense that i accept all people even if they are annoying or dumb or maybe not as artistic as others....but dont get me wrong...i am not trying to say i am becomine one of those freaking stupid people that are like " lets love everyone and just let them be happy..peace on earth and lets hit up the crack." no no...i do not accept gay people and i dont like them...i wish i could help them and i try but its just freaking annoying after a while... so yeah...now that i have been intellectual for today...

I am getting a MINI COOPER!!! oh jesus they are possibly the most adorable things i have laid my eyes on in quite a while...electric blue to add to your jealousy..

and uh yeah...its spring break in a week or soo and i dont know if i will be doing anythign cuz my parents dont seem to like me much these days

just kidding except that they do not exactly trust me anymore which sucks..but i am working on that... anyways but i am not gonna write about it anymore cuz...well i have basically just become really paranoid so yeah...

umm...im in love w/ head automatica. i wanna make out with this music....

and um i have now updated like the xanga nerd that i am so enjoy!

i love you big mack! Be my sweetheart??

                                             emily

yay!!  the variety show is on thursday and friday and i get to perform in front of a bunch of people who are exempting their exams!!! which MEANS that i obviously am not taking my exams either....at that time. SOO!!! i have to take them 2 days EARLY!!! which is not cool... and i'm not okay with this... but i am not really acting upset... but YEAH so anyways its okay i guess because i get out of class and i get to perform BEAT IT!!!! like omg....how much more awesome can i get?? not much....i think. i am actually excited about it..and i am not being sarcastic. and MORE YAY b/c after my exams school is OVER and christmas break is here and i will be muy muy happy!! i dont have to see my yucky english teacher anymore...cuz she is mean to me...

i am being a boring person right now...

i am no longer in soccer and am now in track which makes me happy.....

i made JV!  (for soccer) yay for me...cuz i am a freshman so back off... but yeah i quit that day so it doesnt matter...but i like track a lot more so i am happy... yippee!

UGHHH!! ok i am done...

i wish i would be more insightful...on my xanga..and in my life....i always write about stupid crap because i am lazy or my mind is just dead because i have become like..brainwashed....

i am never interesting or philosophical or creative or curious anymore it seems.... and this is a sad thing.

i am constantly berated with normalness...that i have like lost my uniqueness.....and i am sad about this.....cuz hey, i mean, im a pretty unique person!! HAH. ok but yeah seriously the people i hang out with are causing me to change and become boring and dull and stupid and shallow and childish and i hate it. but i am just a hypocrite....so what can i do??

hmm...i know what i can do....but in retrospect...i do not think i will do it...

what is RETROSPECT?? see...i am so stupid my vocabulary is even diminishing....is that the right word to use?? ..... anyways is retrospect like if i was in the future and i looked back and saw my life.... wait no that is just how i picture it in my mind....like my as a space cadet girl rocketing through a big swirly tunnel and then looking back and seeing my life and being like " nope...i didn't ever do that thing i should have done"....but its REALLY like looking into the FUTURE right?? i think....ugh i feel like someone is shooting my brain cells....but they are being shot so rapidly that i no longer have the ....?? stamina?? to continue this post and explain my self...

in short, i am SO awesome...but i am really soo not....at all.

                        emily

ugh i am bored i want to go to that show tonighttt......chihuahuas...

    but i am trapped at home....

grrr..

oh well....there's always FCA!!!! yay!!!! go GOD!!

dumb post...

emily

OMG. i have not written in like totally forever and i am so sorry.

no i'm not. because no one CARES!!!!

mmmm...i really do not have anything to tell you though so i dont know why i update...

school is fun...i am gonna be in a talent show cause im sooo TALENTED! duh..

we are doing this super rad dance to "beat it" and like doing our own little rendition of the video..with like gangs and fighting and EVERYTHING...omg its gonna be soo pimp.

mmm...mackenzie came down last weekend and we hung but we didn't do very cool things...but that's ok because i love her and she is cute and we can chill like penguins and its fun...

but still, next time she comes down i am going to have a variety of super awesome things to do....

WHOOP!! halloween is coming up!! oh yeah. i want to go to a scary haunted house or like a big party and dress up or a carnival!! mm and go on rides and  eat candy apples!! aww and it would be all cold and like you could see your breath and your cheeks and nose would be all cute and pink...mm how cute.. i love carnivals!! hmm  but i dont think we will be having any and i DEFINITELY dont think it will be cold because um its like the end of october and it is sooo effing hot i swear i almost like pass out when i go from class to class...ugh!! <hah this is me "wtf?"

hmm... ok well i am done. so stick a fork in me son...

...that was dumb...

love, emily