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| The long awaited entry lol....since my last entry........my broken heart. Yea well I did get my heart broken then crushed and stomped on and then picked up and put back together by the same person Dillon. Dillon was and still the only person I said I love you to, Dillon was the best kiss I ever had, Dillon made me learn and listen to lots of things I wouldnt not have before. Dillon was my whole world, but we had problems. Dillon couldnt be Dillon around me. Dillon was the first person to crush my heart. Dillon made me have the worst 2-3 months of my life this past summer. Then Dillon found out that hating Dillon would not make things easy for me. So all the hurtful things and lies that were said Dillon said sorry for. I guess I am got some closure?Maybe? Well this past weds. Dillon calls me (meanwhile this week I have had some trouble with my mouth) wants me to call off work so we can hang out. Of course I am going to say yes (plus my mouth was killing me and i needed time to rest). I hung out with Dillon my ex............my friends want to kill me. LOL they are like WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and you guys I kno....but just listen. after hanging out at the X and doing kareoke (however you spell that damn word) and then eating. Dillon and I had more fun as friends then being together. But then it made me miss Dillon. Then Listening to Dillon talk about this other girl I wanted to cry my eyes. For the final words for the feelings of Dillon Collins and....................I love you and it wont ever stop.
------Now for my mouth I have Trench mouth......yea dont ask................I got meds. and pain killers for it......so I will be better soon......
LOVE YAS,
Michelle!!!!!!! | | |
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| - Beautiful Disaster Again its been awhile, I am never on the net but I seem it always get on & dated on my xanga gossip lol!Alot things are happening and I dont know if I can handle them. I am on a rocky road right now. I think I need to spend time alone and see where it leads me. I am trying to be strong but damn I dont know. I have never done this before, what happenin is something very new to me. And I dont know if I like it or dont like. So many great times and so many bad times. This is the rocky road. I guess I will make do. I am gonna try very hard to keep my sanity. Well I am gonna clean house then read my book in the sun. I love you all!!
I love you Dillon!!!! I hope we can make it thru!!! I have hope and hope u do to!!!
Mishy! | | |
| Life as I know it taking a turn in a directions I never thought it would be taking. As I sit here in this room, a room in about 4 months I will never again see, I think to myself, where has the last 6 years gone? When I first was in this room when I was 12. As I sit here 6 years later, I ask myself am I ready to step out of this place? Am I ready to leave this place I love dearly? Wait do I really even love this place? Or do I love the people who take away from this place, and this place I only come back to sleep and eat. I think this summer I will stepping out of my zone and I am sure I will be ready! And I think things will be so much fun, I have new partner in my life and I am making so many new friends.
I leave everyone with this.......
~Get to know a person before you say I love you, and actully love a person before you have sex. ~
Sorry but sleeping around is getting old and I think its time to settle down with or with out someone. Its time to get ur shit together!!!
Mmmmichelleeee | | |
| Last night was am amazing night, omg I think I was waiting for that night my whole life. Nothing could bring down from this high (not chemical) I have right now. So for what reason this is happening to me I dont know, I am thankful for what is happenin to me. I hope it is something that lasts for awhile.
~ But I am scared for what is taking place is to good to be true. I dont have much luck, but I hope it is starting now. I wish that every person sometime or another has or will have what happened to me, happen to them.
"the baby"  | | |
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