Today.. i went to Korean school.  My pretend boyfriend gave me cookies... Isn't it sweet?  This afternoon I watched the Lead first live tour.. .I must say that it scared me like heck.  LOL!  Their clothes are way too ugly.  Oh well, Hiroki was there to cover the ugliness of those clothes.  I don't know what kind of diet i should go to.  I'm still not loosing weight.. I'm still 94 - 96 lbs.  I saw my twin sister and her stomach got skinnier.  I got a little jealous but I'll get over it.  I'm so FAT!!! I feel so bad whenever I see sweets and good food.  And.. Sometimes I'm tired of doing those stupid excercises. 

anyways,  my lead forum is back again ^___^ .. LOL, I lost my password for the previous one so i made a new one.

http://s4.invisionfree.com/LEAD_FOREVER/index.php

after starving myself..

i suddenly went crazy... i kept on eating and eating..

not so good.. i'm going to get fat..

Halloween is over.. well, don't really care because i didn't go trick or treating.. cause CANDY is FATTENING!!!!!  As usual, I'm concern about my weight.   I'm around 94 lbs right now.  I'm trying to reach 90 lbs.   SIGH!!!!  I am too weak to do the hand stand.  I work out everyday!!! I'm so tired of working out, and i am not even close!!!!! THIS IS PISSING ME OFF~!!!!  Hehe.. Anyways, I shouldn't bug about that.   I should be happy that I can do the splits...

I'm beggining to think that I have some sort of eating disorder.  I don't want to admit that but the things i say shows it already.  I don't think i'm anorexic but I think that I'm going to be.  Sometimes, i eat once a day (purposely).  And when I eat, I try to excercise to loose the fatz!!!  I get dizzy most of the time, so I sleep on it.  I do eat fattening foods but i only eat when I go crazy.. cause sometimes i have a breakdown when i force myself on not eating... Sigh!!  I want to get out of it but there's a big part of me who really want to be skinny.  I know that this is risking my life.  I know that I might die one day b/c of this situation.  I know that I'm going to kill lots of my brain cells.. but i still do it.  I can't stop... I'm actually thinking of going back to a theraphist but i dont want to worry my mom.

Well, thanks to P-chan!!! LOVE YOU! The tenohirawo taiyou ni single rocks my socks!!!! Anyways, I'm buying an Akira "brand new era" poster!! Isn't it cool!!!!! Also, I'm buying the get a wild life single ^__^!!! So happy!  I think my mom is going to let me use her credit card b/c i cleaned the house... ahahhaaahaa!  My twin sister was shocked and said "I didn't know that you know how to clean".  Oh and I might get boutashi!! Yehay!  I'm trading with this girl, I hope to have a good trade.  Anyways, I started trading again.  I'm trading with Missy again.. LOL! i know she'd be really slow,  but i still continue.  She's the only trader that can do that to me.. <_<!!!  Haha... If other traders do that, I would to kick their asses ^__^!  I'm getting Kindaichi Jikembo whatever.... I don't really know the name and I don't want to look it up.  I want it b/c Matsumoto Jun is there.  I like him as an actor.  I love KIMI WA PETTO!  It's almost over!!! I'm going to cry!!!!!  Hahaa.. I keep realizing that I'm talking like a dumb-ass!!!! My grammar in Journal entries are the worst!!! Well, when I write essays the English is alright.  SO, don't think that I hella suck ^_^!  Haha... Off the topic again. 

i cried while watching the last episode of sailor moon... man

it's over.. i didn't really get it b/c there r no subs.. i couldn't find one.. oh well.. i'll wait for the subs later... Anyways, how am i going to see SHIBUE AGAIN! Bastards... cute guys are my only entertainment since i'm suffering over studying SATs and working out.. and stuff like that.. .. AHwwhw.. . what am i going to do? .. sigh... i hope there's a next season but i doubt it..

i watched kimi wa petto episode 4.. it was good !  SIGH... need to find more entertainment for myself...