Halloween is over.. well, don't really care because i didn't go trick or treating.. cause CANDY is FATTENING!!!!!  As usual, I'm concern about my weight.   I'm around 94 lbs right now.  I'm trying to reach 90 lbs.   SIGH!!!!  I am too weak to do the hand stand.  I work out everyday!!! I'm so tired of working out, and i am not even close!!!!! THIS IS PISSING ME OFF~!!!!  Hehe.. Anyways, I shouldn't bug about that.   I should be happy that I can do the splits...

I'm beggining to think that I have some sort of eating disorder.  I don't want to admit that but the things i say shows it already.  I don't think i'm anorexic but I think that I'm going to be.  Sometimes, i eat once a day (purposely).  And when I eat, I try to excercise to loose the fatz!!!  I get dizzy most of the time, so I sleep on it.  I do eat fattening foods but i only eat when I go crazy.. cause sometimes i have a breakdown when i force myself on not eating... Sigh!!  I want to get out of it but there's a big part of me who really want to be skinny.  I know that this is risking my life.  I know that I might die one day b/c of this situation.  I know that I'm going to kill lots of my brain cells.. but i still do it.  I can't stop... I'm actually thinking of going back to a theraphist but i dont want to worry my mom.

Well, thanks to P-chan!!! LOVE YOU! The tenohirawo taiyou ni single rocks my socks!!!! Anyways, I'm buying an Akira "brand new era" poster!! Isn't it cool!!!!! Also, I'm buying the get a wild life single ^__^!!! So happy!  I think my mom is going to let me use her credit card b/c i cleaned the house... ahahhaaahaa!  My twin sister was shocked and said "I didn't know that you know how to clean".  Oh and I might get boutashi!! Yehay!  I'm trading with this girl, I hope to have a good trade.  Anyways, I started trading again.  I'm trading with Missy again.. LOL! i know she'd be really slow,  but i still continue.  She's the only trader that can do that to me.. <_<!!!  Haha... If other traders do that, I would to kick their asses ^__^!  I'm getting Kindaichi Jikembo whatever.... I don't really know the name and I don't want to look it up.  I want it b/c Matsumoto Jun is there.  I like him as an actor.  I love KIMI WA PETTO!  It's almost over!!! I'm going to cry!!!!!  Hahaa.. I keep realizing that I'm talking like a dumb-ass!!!! My grammar in Journal entries are the worst!!! Well, when I write essays the English is alright.  SO, don't think that I hella suck ^_^!  Haha... Off the topic again.