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Name: iferrrr
Interests: ifer. 17 as of 0728. houston. class of '07 @ memorial. servant of God. chinese. my life would be meaningless without music, family, close friends, the smell of hollister, jay chou, jamba juice, l'occitane products, guys who play guitar, Jesus, lame and stupid jokes, and fobs. complete photo whore. smiles really do make my days brighter. apparently i can't sleep at normal times of the day. i'm destined for california. i like hugs and holding hands. floor pictures are the best. i could live off of boba from star snow or life plaza. rb is my other half. and if there was one other thing you'd learn about me, it'd be that i love life, and i intend to live it to the fullest.
Expertise: yeah okay.. that doesnt even really matter anymore, so dont bother to ask. i promise you though i'm ONLY an undercover slut.. haha jk jk (:
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Member Since:
5/30/2003
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I hope that God forgive us, all of us sinners
Turn us back into beginners, put us up where the winners go
Holy apartments in the gardens in which the rivers flow
Thank You for all your blessings and all of Your miracles
lupe fiasco ft. matthew santos -- fighters
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| another absolutely random, pointless blog. i think i was suppose to sleep 3 hours ago.
but i was talking to mona tonight, and she pointed out some of my old posts.
was i really that lame? and no one ever told me!? thanks, guys. really.
oh but some things never change -- guys really need to cut the bullshit and man up. yup.
hahahaha, i still can't believe i was so annoying back in high school.. oh sigh.
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| daphne loves derby- cue the sun
If I find my way through the darkest of days,
Will I laugh about the things that kept me awake?
But if my greatest fear paints itself so crystal clear,
Will I run away or will I hide?
And if I don't come home tonight,
Just know I tried my best to fight.
Please don't think I plan to lose to the night.
And curse the moon so dull and bright,
My heavy soul can't stand the light.
It burns me straight to the bones, my bones
In the desert sun I watched my nerves come undone.
One by one my strings they tangled into knots.
And ever since that day, deep in Santa Fe.
I've learned to hate myself for giving everything away.
And if I don't come home tonight,
Just know I tried my best to fight.
Please don't think I plan to lose to the night.
And curse the moon so dull and bright,
My heavy soul can't stand the light.
It burns me straight to the bones, my bones
And if I don't come home tonight,
Just know I tried my best to fight.
Please don't think I plan to lose to the night.
And curse the moon so dull and bright,
My heavy soul can't stand the light.
It burns me straight to the bones, my bones
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| because we have nothing better to do at 2:50amokay so vince and i were talking about writing xanga entries.. and how we used to write them. sooooo. i shall write an 8th-grade-like entry. because i can. with bold words and all. oh yes.
so today i had school. on mondays,wednesdays, and fridays i have chinese 1024 from 10-1050am and psychology 1013 from 11-1150am. but since i slept at 4am last night doing absolutely nothing but watching gabe bondoc and passion videos, i overslept and woke up at 1130am missing chinese and half of psychology. but since i can't miss psychology on wednesdays and fridays anymore because she takes attendance, i woke up to go to the alternative 1pm psychology class. so i went to psychology at 1pm, and after class, i went home with an and didn't take the shuttle because she drove to school. when i got home, i watched tv and ate the pasta from last night that an made. i watched some random shows on MTV which really sucked, and then i went onto facebook. then i went to school for a psychology experiment that was a pilot for another experiment. after that, luigi picked me up from school and we went back to broadstone to drop me off as well as have him try to print raffle tickets for an AMA fundraiser, but the printer wasn't working. then i went back to the apartment and watched an entire disc of friends season 4. then i fell asleep and then went to the rec center with gilbert to work out for an hour. i did my spanish homework and worked on gilbert's 10 page paper for writing comp. now i'm writing this and about to go to sleep. until thennn..
omg. that was the most painful entry to write. ever. NEVER AGAIN.
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| what has been driving me crazy for a good 3 yearsi was studying for sociology yesterday and this is what i scribbled out while taking a very much NOT needed break. heh. i usually don't like to express myself this much anymore [go back to entries 4 years ago, and wow.. i was so lame with all those stupid minute details and unnecessary bitching about why i'm emo], but this is something that i feel like needed to be let out. but since i don't like getting much attention from my useless rants, i figured xanga would be a good place to read it so nobody really goes here anymore, yet it's still in public. does that make sense? perhaps not. ohhhhhhh well. i really don't expect anyone to read this, and i DEFINITELY don't expect anyone to read the entire thing. but if you happen to do so.. have a rice krispy treat. which btw, are SO good when they're fresh off the pan.
so i'm reading for sociology, and it's talking about divorce and social stratification. statistics say that 50% of married couples end up in divorce in the U.S. FIFTY percent? are you kidding me? and then imagine what it's like for the kids that have to go through their parents' divorce. whatever happened to happy marriages that lasted? i think nowadays people throw around the concept of marriage too carelessly. they get too caught up in the thrill of attraction within the first couple of years (possibly even just mere months), feel like they've found "the one" and imagine the rest of their lives with each other without being REALISTIC. i mean, i consider myself a hopeless romantic but at the same time, if i'm looking for a husband, i have to at least have some guarantee that we can live a stable life and raise a family without letting money and other aspects interfere with our LOVE and COMMITMENT to one another. also, i feel like the reason as to why relationships fail is because there's a lack of communication. not just good communication, but communication altogether. as much as i have incorporated technology in my life, i think it can be a real barrier to people associating with each other. communicating through email, text messages, etc. nothing is ever really face to fae anymore. how are you suppose to see what is genuinely being expressed? as much as the media gives us endless possibilities to "keep in touch" with everybody in our lives, these complex and high tech ways to communicate really mess up the simplicity of meeting up with someone just to enjoy each other's company. without this foundation, people have a hard time with confrontation face to face which leads to the build up of conflict. and in terms of a marriage, can easily lead to divorce. i feel like marriage has now been coined as another form of dating -- only difference is that it's just a lot more expensive. i think people also forget that in marriage, they can't be selfish. they have to SUBMIT to one another. they have to compromise. as much as i like the idea that the woman is always right, i don't know if i could uphold that saying because under God, i have to let my husband carry me through. that is, if he's a man of GOOD strength, widom and compassion. but of course, every man will have their flaw -- so women should learn their flaws and either learn how to adapt to it or help them control/grow out of it. imagine learning about their flaws that drive you insane after you get married. you either have to suck it up for the rest of your life.. or they take the "easy" way out and divorce. okay, i know what i just said seems borderline absurd about the flaws and what not. i think i mean something else, but i can't express it in a better way at the moment. ummm.. anyway. i'm not saying flaws won't develop after marraige, but just the generality of it.
sometimes i wish i was living in another time other than now. a time where the definition of TRUE, PURE love existed more than it does now. sure, i may not have the access to as many cool, up to date material possessions that the present holds but that can be a really good thing cuz i feel that with all these materialistic things tat we can attain, it makes us forget that these are only forms of short term happiness and that we've lost the key to REAL, lasting happiness -- our family. our friends. but especially our family, probably the biggest thing taken for granted in our lives - or at least in the American society it is. it's so easy to indulge ourselves in useless crap like tabloid magazines [admitted guilty pleasure of mine], meaningless sex, high couture [another guilty pleasure], expensive cars. whatever happened to just being happy because you have a family - the one and only thing that's suppose to stick with you from the beginning to end. and being happy with the simple things in life.. having food on the table, a house to shelter you, good health.
it's sad how our world can be so sick.
i hope that we can save ourselves from it.
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