saying of the day: my ulcers!!!!!!!!

ok, so i spent a long time writing what's happened over the month so now i'm summarizing...

xmas wasn't as grand as i hoped...

got a dog that is COOOL

gave marissa a holiday bundle pack of....GAMECUBE

stomach REALLLLLy hurts over 4 day period...scared to death

o yea! beat de la salle

GAME TIME baby...on friday at home at 4 against newark memorial

night night

saying of the day:

so yea...iono what to say cuz i dont wantt to...yea.. "the greatest hate, comes from the one's you love the most" 

.. happy TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY for marissa! i'm glad she's ben there for me.

through happiness and sorrow, an angel has bestowed love

through joy and pain, an angel guided me to fortune

how i received this, i do not no

trying to hold on to what i wont let go

but she's got to spread her beauty and fly

i must do what the angel has done to me

guide her, be there, and bestowe my everything-

to the person that is my everything

Saying of the day: bleh 

well i did make the bball time and we've had two scrimmages and our first game today. in our scrimmages we did ok and today we won, my xanga and mind is fucked up so i'ma leave anyone here with two songs that'll bore the shit out of u. thanx for coming

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untruths and lies you told me before
nothing you say could ever end this war,
the hurting never stops you look in my eyes
and promised me true,
nothing you say ever comes through

Chorus:
but you know that I could be someone who could never leave
cause being free Its just not meant for me
someday I will come to see all of this reality
its just not meant its just not meant for me

if you knew just how I feel,
then maybe you can start acting more for real
some things never change
all these thoughts just run right through
girl I just don't know what do

but you know that I could be someone who could never leave
cause being free Its just not meant for me
someday I will come to see all of this reality
its just not meant its just not meant for me

well if you knew just how I feel
please understand that it's for real
then maybe you could tell me why I need you so
but you know that everything I did was out of love for you
I cant hold on for too long

but you know that I could be someone who could never leave
cause being free Its just not meant for me
someday I will come to see all of this reality
its just not meant its just not meant for me (X2)

~  *  ~
 
I'm getting sick of this 
This fighting's killing me 
There was a time when I gladly 
Would take this crap from you 
Yeah you were worth the pain 
But now it's just a twisted game 

Someday, someway, I'll say, no way 
To you, what else can I do 
This war, I swore, meant more, before 
You see, when you meant everything to me 

You used to yell at me 
It used to turn me on 
But suddenly that feeling's gone 
Now I just see your mouth 
And all the words get lost 
And it can't help but turn me off 

Someday, someway, I'll say, no way 
To you, what else can I do 
This war, I swore, meant more, before 
You see, when you meant everything to me 

Times up, I've had, enough of you 
Times up, I've had, enough of you 

There was a time and place
(Times up, I've had, enough of you) 
You smack me in the face, the face
(Times up, I've had, enough of you) 
And that would be ok 
(Times up, I've had, enough of you) 
It's not ok today, today, no way 
(Times up, I've had, enough)

Would take this crap from you 
Yeah you were worth the pain 
But now its just a twisted game 

Someday, someway, I'll say, no way 
To you, what else can I do 
This war, I swore, meant more, before 
You see, when you meant everything to me

saying of the day:  omg....mt sac is soooo tiring...(and i'm jus walkin it)

so i can't talk about everything that has happened...buh i will say i thought garin would be hardest course ever bestowed on me...buh i was wrong.  the last half day fantasy four and a couple varsity ppl went to l.a. and we ran thee hardest course in our nation ("where the worlds greatest athletes compete" it says, and it's true....tim montgomery and maurice(?) greene(?) have ran there) buh yea...i was part of the 65 race that day or something...there was a race every 6 minutes....there was over 20,000 runners there too....and the main thing is i didn't place last...buh i'm sure u heard alla bout it on nix xanga. buh yea...so our next few league meets were aiite....logan varsity team ended up being undefeated during season....and SO DID FRESHMEN courtesy too fantasty "five" (michael cheng).  buh yea, last meet, beside the contraversy ( i don't no whether to blame course map...the course markings, myself....or coach) buh we won...buh that was last thursday. as it got closer to race time it got cloudy....buh we moved on. i told my team, pain is temporary pride is forever...lets clinch this undefeated season....so my mom and dad came and like a minute later it started to rain (when us freshmen were going to starting line) it was FREEUHEZZZING! buh yea...we started running and after like 100 meters fantasy 4, wha we say "i dont no what i've ben told! cross country sure has made me mighty bold, it's a way of life and i believe! sure gunna miss it when i leave!" and as we said that the separation grew. that was great...buh yea, it was raining when we was running, kyna cool buh no...my hands were numb and my lips. buh yea, main thing is that after-- i think clinching co-champions after that victory. buh yea now coyote hills, is when we are undefeated freshmen m.v.a.l. champions. coach says first time for that tooo (and we already won a plaque, first time for fresh.) O YA...buh yup...so sad, i no i used this sport for training for bball, buh i'ma miss it....buh yea, gots to get ready for bball....AND my audition! for ...grrrrrrrrrrrrr8 america!...this sunday, the 14 (23 months) i hafta audition for gr8 amurica and if i get accepted, chingity ching, gimme da bling....and i'll finally be able to get clothes..that i want...cuz i'm lonely....in dis world by myself....or so it seems at times...well me go cuz i'm getting bored,...iono what my next entry will be about nor when....so and update from the future....clinched championship...and made bball team ^_~ k....by

saying of the day: guys....mission san jose

Soooo...there was a meet on thurs against washington and kennedy cept kennedy didn't show...so yea when our race started we had like 14 and wash had like 5..buh yup after about 100 meters into the 3200 meters of the race, ther was only andy hector nick and two wash. dudes ahead of me... somewhere near the mile mark hector caught the first place wash dude and andy...i had caught one wash dude by mile point (6:09) and yea, after awhile the course got different than what we did afore...buh i still followed, so yea, after a while i had to go down on this one thing and i thought i could catch the first place wash person buh i couldn't...my back was causing too much pain (which it has ben doing since castro vally invit...5 days afore) buh yea...as we got near a part that got us close to finish point there was about 800 meters left..fans (ppl from my school) and my dad and coaches said catch that dude..when my "fans" cheered i was like, ok i'll just try to catch up to him a lil bit to make u guys happy...and i did...and then i was like shit....breath breath gaaasp...lol naw...buh then i said, got to get in his head....so i matched his pace and then quickened it, was right behind him and then got right in front of him just to say...hey i'ma take u over...and then after that i was like a lil downhill he's gunna try to catch up a bit...PICK IT UP and i did...crushed him...and then there was like 600 meters left, i wanted to slow down buh i couldn't i felt he was right behind me...last 300 meters i just kept running faster and faster....finished fourth wit the rest of the  "fantasy four" (nick andy and hector) ahead of me.. i got a 12 27 i think...

this sat i had the garin park invitational one...the one i have ben scared about, excited about...wanting to get it over with...got there and it was COLD...buh yea that race was verrrry disappointing..uh..well when we started out i was in the 2nd row abotu 10 meters back of startin line...BANG we started and i was wayyyyy in the back...at least 100 ppl ahead of me, i said take it slow just get up the hill...so about 1000 meters later we got to hill and i was slowly pickin off ppl and i said save energy catch em on the roller coaster (hill that goes up and down up and down..) once as i got there i was liek FUCK at least 60 ppl ahead of me, how the fuck am i gunna place? so yea i kept slowly picking off ppl and saw the rest of the "fantasy four" ahead of me all together, i felt ashamed..buh yea coming down the hilll i was pickin up speed...and after that i had to go around the pond and i saw this one red dude in front of me tying his shoes i was like whatever, ok so theres a race between me and a tennyson person....after about 20 meters i was like GASP so he beat me and then all of a sudden i'm like SHIT that red person caught up!? so then he was beating me to!!!! and i was like fuck that...i was like no mo..energy and i thought about alllll those times we came there and trained how much i didn't train enuf...buh i still ran and then there was like 400 meters left and i was like c'mon shaun, ppl are cheering the ppl around u on, FEED OFF OF THAT...so i started catching up and i was like ooo fuck i still have to turn that cone and ihave hellla left and then yea...i was like catch up to him! so i sprinted as fast as i could and then i was like shit i hope he doesn't catch up...he wont, this is just like it usuallly is when u think they catchin up buh they dont "chaaaAAA!!!!!!" (huh, the crowd seems to cherring about something, someone is catching up on someone) *$#@$ *  how the fuck did he catch up! aint no way in hellllllll he's gunna beat me...so i somehow sprinted....even though i had no more energy and quickly the crowd got silent and was like dang and i beat em!...buh i got 66th in the race...our team got 8th...

more importantly our rival mission san jose was in this race...one of them beat us by a shit load, another one barely lost to nick and another one barely lost to hector, this thursday is gunna be one of helll of a grudge match and my mind is gunna be on that allll this week..its at our school plllz help cheer on, it's right after school.....