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Almost done!

Wed, 07 May 2008 00:43:55 GMT

One more final and I'm done for the semseter! I'm kind of surprised I've survived; this has probably been my hardest semester yet. And the last few weeks have been completely out of control (i.e. I was definitely up until 5:30 am last night/morning working on a final that was due today). But I am so glad to be done!
This summer looks like it will be really awesome. The only possible drawback could be how expensive gas is getting because that could severely cut into my traveling experiences. But there's not much I can do about that. Lots of fun things are going on - Emily's prom and graduation, lots of grad parties for probably the last of my friends that are still in high school, and lots of weddings! Actually, only 2 or 3 weddings, but that's the most exciting part.
I'm in denial about the necessity of packing up my room right now. I really need to get it done, but it's just so overwhelming that I choose not to think about it. I think I'll go out instead...

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 20:33:29 GMT

And the weather forecast is...

5 DAYS OF SUNSHINEY WARMNESS IN A ROW!! Who could ask for anything better than that?!

My life is out of control, but I can see the calmness ahead. I just have to hold on through a couple more weeks...

Happy Spring

winter blahs

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 03:37:20 GMT

This weather sucks. It's even worse because it was SO nice out yesterday and this morning and then it steadily got colder and colder and colder and rainier and rainier and rainier. Blech.

Only FOUR more days until I will be lounging on the beach in 75° weather. I can't waaaait.

This week leading up to break is going to be a tough one, though. I mean, I have two essay exams in two of my hardest classes on Friday morning. That sucks! When I am a teacher, I will never ever do those awful kinds of things to my students. I swear.

I thought of two really good titles for novels today:
1. Remnants of Yesterday's Road Trip
2. Wash Your Jeans With Rain Water

I'm not quite sure what either of them mean (particularly the second one), but I still think they would make good book titles. Maybe I should just be the editor that titles the novels instead of the author. But I am going to write a novel someday. Someday.

OK, time for reading, and sleeping, and dreaming. Of the beach.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 05:12:23 GMT

The beginning of today wasn't that great (I slept through chapel and class and I was feeling pretty useless), but it got better. I think I realized that I'm just having an off week and it happens to everyone. And if certain people can't deal with that in me, then they aren't really my friends. (I credit the comment Julie left me with this realization, thanks Jules ) Those that really care about me love me everyday; no matter what kind of mood I'm in and whether I am the most fun or the most boring person in the world.

I also think that I need to remind myself often that I am not the only one to blame when I don't get to spend time with friends. It works both ways and just because I don't have the time one week to call or spend time with people, doesn't mean it's all my fault and that I am a bad friend. This happens to me a lot. I am actually pretty bad at keeping in touch with people. But it's not because I forget about people or love that person any less - it's just something that happens. And I feel bad about it ALL the time and I don't really think that's necessary. The friends that really truly love me for me don't mind if I go a few months without talking to them on the phone, they still want to hang out when I am around or talk to me when I do call them. And I really appreciate those friends. They are what make my life.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 05:51:42 GMT

Life is feeling so weird right now. I think it's a combination of the sucky weather, being sick, stress, and pmsy hormones.

I feel very socially awkward, like I don't know how to talk to people like I used to be able to. I'm never in the mood to really do anything; I have no motivation at all. I think this makes me feel like a bad friend when I am supposed to hang out or am hanging out with friends and I'm no fun at all and don't really feel like doing anything at all. I just look at myself and think, I wouldn't want to be friends with me, why would anyone else want to be friends with me.

I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself or get sympathy either. I just really feel this way. I don't know why. And that's the most frustrating part about it. I feel like I just need some time to relax, collect my life together again, and then I will be able to go on as normal. But I just don't have the time to do that at all. If I'm not in class, I'm at work or studying, or just sitting with absolutely no motivation to do anything at all except sleep.

I never used to be like this - what is wrong with me?

The season finale of Grey's Anatomy was unsatisfying

Fri, 18 May 2007 02:36:59 GMT

I know I'm borderline obsession here, but I just can't help it. Nothing went how I wanted it to go - which I know never happens anyway. But nothing with it even makes sense anymore. I am confused.

Real life has been good lately though. My two classes are going well. Living in the apartment is great. I don't really know how I feel about moving back home. I heart being around my family, but really all I have to look forward to is Kohls. I know I should be thankful that I have a job and a family to go home to, but you know.

I'm bored now.
I might go rent the fourth disc of the 2nd season of Grey's.
I know I'm obsessed, but give me a break. I'm pmsing.

All alone in an empty empty room

Sat, 05 May 2007 16:23:00 GMT

My roommates moved out yesterday. Our room is SO empty. I took a lot of my stuff home already too - so I don't have as much to move into the apartments - so there is just like nothing in here. It makes me kind of sad that this year is over. Both of my roommates are taking summer classes, too though, so it's not like I won't be seeing them over the next month. I like them.

Finals went okay. The two that I thought were going to kill me, were pretty hard. I got four of my final grades back already though and they're not too bad. [three a-'s and a b] After finals were over I packed up A TON of crap and went home on Wednesday. Home was goood. I rented the first season of Grey's Anatomy and watched the whole thing. [dont' worry it's only 9 episodes] I spent a lot of time with my Mom and I her. I came back yesterday and helped my roommates move out. And then slept in this creepily empty and sad room last night. I didn't really like it. I have to work @ 2 today and then tonight I don't know what's going on. I don't get to move into the apartments until Monday, so until then I don't really have anything to do. Most of my stuff is already packed - what's left that is. Not much.

I'm kind of bored.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 16:50:46 GMT

I haven't updated this in a long time.
School's almost over. Four more days of classes, five finals, and I'm done. Woot!
I'm taking a summer class though, so I don't get to go home right away. But I'm okay with that. Otherwise I wouldn't be taking a summer class probably. I'm actually kind of excited for it. I get to move into the apartments and everything.
The weather has been phenomenal. Saturday it was like 80 degrees and absolutely perfect for going to Notre Dame to see the Blue & Gold game. That was so much fun. Sunday was also like 80 degrees (at least I think so) and was perfect for lounging in the sunshine, which I did plenty of. And even got a bit of a tan.
Homework is eating my soul, but after I turn in the paper I have due tomorrow, I should be good. Then I have to start studying my butt off for finals. I have two finals that are probably going to eat me alive, but other than that it'll be okay.
I'm pretty sure that's all I have. I'm gonna go outside now.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 14:47:35 GMT

I haven't updated in a long time. And I like to procrastinate. So since I should be writing a paper write now that is due in three hours, I decided I should update my xanga. I like the way I think.

Anyways, life has been good. Spring was here for a little while and then it left over Easter. But it's coming back slowly. Today it's raining and I don't really love it, but it's okay. Easter was good. It was really good to be home. I read a ton. I finished the book I'd been reading since Christmas break. Then started and finished another book. And then started another book. It was wonderful. I also went shopping with my mom and my sisters, which I love. And spent a whole day in my pajamas. And went to church, and ate lots of delicious homemade meals, and slept in every day. I am refreshed.

And there are only three weeks left until finals. Which is nuts. I can't believe this semester is over already. I'm kind of torn. Part of me is so happy summer is here. I think this summer will be better even than last summer. But the other part of me likes being at school. I'm taking a summer class, though, until May 25th, so I'll be on campus for a while. It'll be good.

I suppose I should get back to writing my paper on friendship discovered in young adult literature. It's really not a bad paper, I just don't feel like doing anything. These next two weeks are a little crazy with all the papers and tests and stuff. I had a test this morning in grammar and then I have a paper due this afternoon and a paper due tomorrow. And next week I have a presentation, a novel, and two papers due. Not writing a novel, reading a novel.

Okay, I'm really going to work on my paper now. Leave some love for me.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 02:14:58 GMT

So Spring Break was pretty great. I hearted it.

After taking my lovely Katie Maloney to the airport on Friday afternoon, Korey and I left for his house. On Saturday we went to Ft Wayne and did some shopping and saw Wild Hogs (which was pretty funny). The other days we just kind of hung out. We saw some of Korey's friends, drank lots of coffee, and got lots of sleep. On Wednesday we went to Chicago. Well, we were supposed to go on Tuesday - but we missed the train. And then on Wednesday, the train was late. If the train would have been late on Tuesday, we so would have made it. But we had a wonderful time in Chicago on Wednesday, even though it was quite a bit colder than Tuesday would have been. We did some shopping on Michigan Ave, ate the best pizza I've ever had in my life, got some delicious chocolates at the Hershey's store, went for a carriage ride along the lake, visited Navy Pier, Millenium Park, and the House of Blues, and went up to the Skydeck in the Sears Tower. It was a great trip. I took lots of pictures and spent too much money. That's how Spring Break's supposed to be.

After our little trip to Chicago, I went home. A day of shopping and laughing with my mom and my sisters later, Korey joined me at my home. Saturday night we went to see Relient K, Mae, and Sherwood and that was Amazing. Emily and some of her friends came along with us and we had a really great time. A marvelous St. Patrick's Day and some incredible tunes.

Overall, Spring Break was pretty great and I so didn't want to come back to school. But now that today's over - it's not so bad. It's not that long until the end of the semester. And even fewer days until Easter. I can't even believe that my second year of college is almost done. I don't feel like I'm old enough for this. Sometimes I still get homesick. I wonder if I ever won't get homesick? I don't know.

Time to get started on some homework. Leave some love for me.