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| Wow... I almost forgot I had this thing until I saw someone else's. So, I figured it was about time to update myself. Anyways.. things are going really good right now. I'm looking forward to spring break, prom, gradnite, and GRADUATION!!! Att: c/o 06I can't believe it's almost here. We're all finally seniors about to be let out into the real world. I'm interested to see what happens to everyone. What I don't want to see is friends losing touch, but I know it's inevitable. Over the past four years I can't even begin to think back on the way things were and the way they are now. There's been a lot of change over time thats for sure. I guess that just the process of growing up. It can definately take a toll on you. I don't know anyone who breezed right through high school. Everyone has their problems, big or little. What we should do is forget about all the bs and have some fun. I'm so tired of hearing drama about this or that. It's our senior year, this is supposed to be the best times of our life. It's up to us to make it that. All I know is that it's been one hell of a journey to get to this point and I would hate to see it go to waste. We all have so much coming up, we should all be excited. These are the last months we are going to be together for the rest of our life and I hope they will be the best. I just hope and pray nothing bad happens to anyone between now and then. I have faith in our class, but I've also seen a few worst case senarios. Hopefully, we will all be there to walk across the stage. I know I will! Wouldn't miss it for the world. I do believe this is a time we should all be there for each other. If you know someone who isn't getting along too well please do try to help them anyway you can. As far as that goes, if there's anything I could do, just let me know. I'm not sure how much help I could be, but I do know most of us have stuck together most of our lives and I know we can stick together now. We should all be there for each other, no matter what. People need each other. We are the class of 2006, all of us. We all graduate.. together as one. And that my friend, will be a HAPPY DAY! May 11, 2006 ... DONE!
& you just might think I'm overly excited but by god it took a lot to get me there and I'm sure it wasn't easy for anyone esle. This is what we've been going to school our whole lives for!
As far as the rest of my life goes..
Everythings doing good. I've worked out a lot of things that bothered me. Me & Mom are trying to get along better. The rest of the family is good. My grandmothers really sick and it worries me but I pray she'll be fine. Me & Logan are better than ever. We're going to the Keys for Spring Break & it's going to be amazing. I've loved the Keys all of my life & now I'm going with the love of my life. Doesn't get much better than that. I hate were not going to be able to see our friends, but PC + SB = TROUBLE. At least in my category it does. Good luck for you. Be careful is all I have to say. I can't handle the drama, just can't even do it anymore. Just about like how I can't do this anymore. I have a severly bad habbit of doing this once in a blue moon and rambling for days. So I'm gone. Maybe I'll come back soon. Leave me some loven if you've got some to give.
See ya when I see ya!
xoxo-Christian-xoxo
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| Wow so this weekend completely blew my mind. Every year we've managed to have some hell of a party. This year was different. The party wasn't the problem. It was great. The aftermath however.. well wasn't. My best friend was involved in a wreck. The car flipped. She could have died. Fortunately, everyone was ok. Just the fact of knowing it was after they left my house blows my mind. I don't know how many times people have left and made it home without a scratch. I thank God for that. One day someone might not be so lucky. It's really a chance I've taken too many times. I just don't know how I would feel if anything serious happened. I pray it never does. People just take so many chances, forgetting what could happen. Me, being one. I'm tired of taking chances. This weekend was supposed to be one of the best this year, like it always has been. It was living hell. When I finally made it back home, I can't even explain what a disaster the house was. I'm not going to complain because that is what comes with the party. It just seems like some people would have at least a little respect. That is not the case. At least not at this household. Then after strenuous clean-up, the one person who I would think might make things better- BREAKS UP WITH ME. That's right.. my boyfriend breaks up with me on my damn Birthday. Can't quite explain how fun it is to start your day off with that. I didn't let it drag me down. It obviously wasn't working anyways. There's no point in being with someone if you can't be together without fighting all the damn time. I'm so over that. It was fun while it lasted, but I'm not going to be treated like that. It's just not going to happen. Life is too short. So after all that drama, I managed to get myself ready for the beach. Daddy got a condo for the weekend so I stayed out there the rest of the time. It really was fun. Besides the fact I didn't have my best friend there to share it with me- it was great. There's nothing better than sitting on a balcony over the water and then all of the sudden here comes the fireworks. It was so beautiful. For just one minute I forgot everything else that was driving me crazy. The next day was a little rough. I find it funny how people break up with you- then try and beg you back. Word of advice- don't ever break up with someone on their birthday, then think you can get back together. I tried to go shopping to make everything better. For once in my life it did not work. I managed to shatter my phone in Shipwreck Limited because some people just don't know when to stop. Well, it stopped that problem. No communication. That night was pretty good, Shay finally made it out there and we had some good talks. There's something about a best friend. Don't ever take them forgranted. I don't know what I'd do without them. So the next day was awesome. We all went fishing out on the Capt. Sandy and Michael was our deckhand. It was hilarious. Besides the fact drinking & fishing don't mix for me. I had a great time. There's a select few that always make me smile.. no matter what. I'm glad I didn't have a boyfriend, let's just put it that way ;) Overall, the weekend wasn't so bad, but a mix of the both. Definately not what I had expected or planned, but hell it doesn't ever go that way. I think everything happened for a reason. A good reason. I believe that some things are going to change, but only for the best. 16 was crazy, a year I will never forget. Seventeen, will be one I won't want to regret.
Thats all folks!
- Christian Sullivan
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| Hello Panama City! Hows everyone's Spring Break going? Hope yall are holding it down up there. I seriously hate it that mine wasn't at the same time. I'll see everyone soon enough though. I had a really good SB here. I Met this guy... mmm.. He's so sweet & treats me like a freaking princess! LOVVVEE that! DEF tired of dealing w. the major ASSholes! Then we went out to Texas for Easter weekend to go hunting again. It was great. I really do love going out there. Not exactly sure what it is about the whole hunting thing, but I'm hooked. Anywho.. The prom down here is this weekend so I've just been trying to get ready for that. I'm so excited.. It's at this bad ass like 5 star hotel in Orlando & we have a room! It is going to be some fuuUUN! However.. there's another prom I'm looking even more forward to. But we'll just have to see about all that.
Ok I really want to get this straight so I'm just gonna throw it out there. When I left Panama City, it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My friends, My family, everyone... meant the world to me. Leaving them was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. I didn't WANT to accept everything that had happened, but it did. Therefore I had to make a decision. One that I should have long time ago. It was always my friends that kept me where I was though. If it wasn't for them who knows what could have happened. They seriously kept me going. But I had to decide what was for the best. Not what I wanted, not what anyone esle wanted, But what was for the best. In my situation.. living with my Mother was not for the best. I love her to death, but I can honestly say she has a major problem that she needs help for. I've tried all I know to do & everything I can, but she's probably never going to change. She's been that way as long as I've known her. I just pray that nothing bad ever happens and I wish that she would change. I would love nothing more than to just see her happy and be happy together. However, as long as she's living like that she will never be happy. It's sad, but I'm to the point where I have no sympathy for her. She's had the last 16 years of my life to change & never once has. I just don't understand how someone could have kids and go about doing the things they do. Seriously weirds me out. Then I go back & think about all the major fuck ups I've had.. & I think.. Where was Mom when that happened? Then I remember.. I know I can't blame her for anything I've done and I take full responsibility for everything thats happened, but sometimes I wonder.. It just bothers me mostly because I had to leave everyone. Everything was going great for me. I was making good grades, actually going to school, but thats too good to be true. Something bad had to happen. But it's the bad things that happen that make you stronger. I've gone through so much unbelieveable shit in my life, but in the end.. it just makes me that much stronger. I miss all of my friends to the point in which I can't miss them anymore. I didn't want to leave like I did. But thats the way things went. It was hard enough as it was, saying Bye would have killed me. Now I just try to remember all of the good times we had together & know there will be even better ones in the future. Please don't be sad, this isn't the end. It's just a new beginning:) I'll never forget any of you. Thank You for making me who I am. I love you all & I promise.. I'll be back before you know it.
much love-
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