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Name: Jessica
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Birthday: 10/17/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Partyin...talking to my babe..chillen wit my homegurlz...basically havin a good time bein my self..not carin wat everyone else says
Expertise: Advice..everybody always askin..i'm good at that...oh and ahh my favorite job... Workin at McDonalds...With my Homies Cody, Pat, Ryan, Larry, Amanda,and soon my babi Adam..hehe.. and my home gurl Kristina!i be takin the whole damn crew to work..geesh....Everybody pile in the wagon!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  mickiedsbabe06
AIM:  ababigrl2006
AIM:  mizzeztrego06
Member Since:
10/12/2004
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| Hey hey hey! i did it! yeah my NEW xanga is iputtheFUin_fun hehehe.i really couldnt think of nething else but yeah..this will be my last post on here...so doodiely doo poo on u...lol sorry a lil hyper this morning...but well adios me amigos...forever more....hit me up on my new page
Love always
Jessica Ann LaConte | | |
| Hey guys...just wanted to let ya'll noe that i am changing my site this one will no longer be in use after today...or whenever i decide to change it...probably now though... i will put up another post with my NEW xanga site..hehe...go me its my burfday its my burfday...not really..lol not until OCTOBER 17TH...i will be 18!! go me..i can buy my own ciggerates....yeah!woop woop! well gonna go change me site...be back in a few...Love you lots!
Jessica Ann | | |
| Well i'm over my depressed mode....after dealing with adam this weekend at work it made me see that i did do the right thing n that i really do not need the stress and agravation of ADAM........I told him the other night that i there is no chance of us gettin back together b/c i dont want to be with him....to tell u ALL the truth..i kinda have feelings for someone else....dont noe if thats ever gonna go anywhere but i dunno we'll see....but i'm not mentioning any names or anything......only one person noes who that person is..hehe..it tis our little secret...some of u may noe who i am talking about ..but if u dont too bad...n adam if u reading this...dont ask me no questions..N QUIT FUCKING CALLING MY MOM...leave her the hell out of this goddamn...n scott too....neways..i've got to get off to bed...adios mis amigos..me encanta ........hehe | | |
| well work didnt distract me at all...actually made it worse..cuz court was like yeah its about time jess.....n i just sat back in the crew room n cried until i had to clock in....i only worked for an hour..i was so fuckin depressed n upset n shit....plus i'm fuckin sick...renee was nice n let me go home at 5...so i came home watched a movie n mama made me grilled cheese with ham in it...its my favorite sick food....but damn i dont if i did the right thing anymore..i keep tellin myself that i did....but theres a quote i found the other day...if you can't get somebody out of your head..maybe they're supposed to be there.....i did the right thing for my future...but not for me......its hell.....n everybody always tells you it gets easier...they promise.....i noe i've given that advice before....but honestly....when i say that i noe it isnt true...it never gets easier.....u just forget...until one day something reminds of u that thing or person that made you hurt so bad...that u just wanted to jump off a building.....then every single emotion u felt then when it actually took place...comes rushing back inside you....n its just too much to bare......I've been through a lot of shit in my time.....in my 17 years of life on this fucked up place we call earth......i have seen n dealt with more shit than 17 year old should...i've got images in my head that should not be there yet....i see these little gurls at school crying...b/c there precious b/f of what two weeks broke up with them....i'm walking passed thinking so what....at least the sunofabitch didnt beat you everyday....didnt put u down for his mistakes...at least you go home n daddy will be there to make u feel better....then i have this girl that complains about her siblings every fuckin day...i noe brothers n sisters can be SOOO much fun ....but u noe wat..stop fuckin complaining damn...at least their there...at least you noe where they are and that their ok....u dont have to sit around waiting n waiting for eight more years to pass....until the day u can see them....but by that time they wont even noe who u are...all b/c of daddy's mistake.....he picked the right girl to fuck that night didnt he.....fuckin psycho bitch....and at least....at least you didnt have to sit in hospital room numerous times.....watchin your closest friends die off one by one....knowing there is nothing u can do but pray to the god u realized didnt exist....at least your closest friend..your brother...your father figure.....your WORLD...wasnt taken from you in the blink of a damn eye....all these girls crying...sayin it hurts so bad it hurts so bad...man they dont noe what fucking pain is.....wat i'm goin through right now with Adam...is just one more chunk of my heart..being ripped out...b/c of all the bullshit i've been put through....i am too goddamn scarred to let anyone else to help.........i took down my wall for adam..but all of a sudden my heart put its guard back up..i sensed something bad was goin to happen..i just didnt noe what......i still dont....but it will happen....its time for bed...even though half the time i'm too scared to go to bed b/c i hate having good dreams..n then waking up to someone who isnt there.....good nite everybody..... | | |
| damn....i dunno what to do anymore guys....i feel like the biggest piece of shit in the whole fuckin world...i really do.....i havent been able to stop cryin since i broke up with adam.....once i'm by myself in the car or at home like now...i just start bawling......i didnt go to school today...i'm sick n i need time to just be by myself i miss him so much....but i cant let myself give in...i'm tryin not too.....he needs to see that i am serious about him growing up n takin responsibility for shit....i dont want him to end up like the rest of his family but thats where he is goin right now....he thinks i dont care about him...or love him..but he is wrong.....I love him so much....i didnt want to break up with him...but i had to..i had to do it for myself...ya noe i thought i was miserable with him b/c we fight all the time..but now.....i'm just fuckin depressed....n ten times more miserable than i was when i was with him.....i'm fuckin cryin now....i cry myself to sleep..i cry when i wake up....when no one is around.....i just break down.....i have to go to work tonight...so hopefully that will take my mind off shit....everytime i look at something...i see adam...where he was....i been thinking about the good shit..tryin to anyways..but than all the bad memories come..n i get so confused...i have to go...love you everybodyn adam if u read this..i do love you.....u just need to straighten somethings out....your attitude...your life....I love you soo much...i just hope this finally gets through to you | | |
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