hey

idk how many ppl look at this so comment, its a lil.lol.u dont even need to respond to my pot just say hior w/e!

so yeah.i got to see nicole this weekend!its was good.idk how much she knos how much i injoy seeing her.i injoy so much wen i get to see her ,wen she smiles,wen im sitting rite next to her n holding her.n i look at her just for no reason n she doesnt notice but thats good.b/c just for that slite moment i can just look at her for no reason wat so ever w/o her having to wonder wat is he looking at me for.and ther is no reason at all.i try to get to c her as much as i can.i try my hardest to make her happy.i no i do alot b/c she tells me.i kno iv made som mistakes som wer harder than others to say .i want to see her evey sec.. of the day,i mite b crazy but i do!it is the greatist moments wen i c her even if its for just a few min..som ppl mite say thats crazy but others dont n they understand .ther is no 1 els id rather b with than her.she mean so much to me n i care about her so much.she is the only person i can talk to n not be a lil frekin out of wat she mite say b/c she always says the rite thing n give the greatist advice wen i need it.yeah thers other ppl i kno i can talk to n im great friends w/ but shes way more differant in many ways.she the 1 person that i feel colse to enough to b able to talk to n anyting els.she is so amazing.

hey

i dono y i did som things i did.but it may concern my relationship w/ nicole.b/c i didnt puposly do the things i did to concern w/ our relationship ,and i wasnt even thinking right at the time to think of ne thing.im scared and afreaid that b/c of my few actions i had done yester day, that it is in her desition to do wat she needs to do.but i dont want to lose her.i no i made many promises to her.but yesterday was horable.i luv her so much idk if she understands that or wat but i do.i makes me sick to do somthing lik this and i dont no wat shes going to say.but i do no that she had said som simple words such as ill brek up w/ u if u did it agen.i didnt cheat on her or do ne thing lik that yesterday.but i made her a promise n i blew it.i hate myself so bad right now.i dont no wat to do now.im so messed up, n depressed.nicole if ur reading this im so fucking srry.i was so shakin up yesterday that my neck was shaking wen i tryed to talk to som 1.its abolutly horable,n im just 1 big fuck up.

hey!

i miss nicole!

wednesday was fucking amazing,nicols amazing.so is so butiful.i want her babies!lol!

hey

im so srry hony i didnt hav my phone on me today, if u see this b 4 i call i im so srry.

hey every 1 gess wat.im goin to another incampment in april!im so happy but im going to miss nicole so much.i hav to bring a pic of her so i can think about her every night!so yeah cya later

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it is so hard to show som 1 how much they mean to u.nicole means so much to me it seems lik she means the world to me all the time.but it is so hard to show her how much , that i cant even begin to even think how to show her.she is so amazing and som times she says that she looks horable i can care less if she has makup on or not.i luv her so much its incredable ,but i dont kno how to show her how much it means to even talk to her. i wana spen every sec.. of the day w/ her but i cant n so much shit has to happen so fare as my parents say that i cant see her the times that i want to.b/c i wana see her every day.she means the world to me.i uno if she understands how much i care about her, i care about her so much that i worry if shes ok.if she not upset or anything.