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Monday, March 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 21:43:52 GMT

hey

idk how many ppl look at this so comment, its a lil.lol.u dont even need to respond to my pot just say hior w/e!

so yeah.i got to see nicole this weekend!its was good.idk how much she knos how much i injoy seeing her.i injoy so much wen i get to see her ,wen she smiles,wen im sitting rite next to her n holding her.n i look at her just for no reason n she doesnt notice but thats good.b/c just for that slite moment i can just look at her for no reason wat so ever w/o her having to wonder wat is he looking at me for.and ther is no reason at all.i try to get to c her as much as i can.i try my hardest to make her happy.i no i do alot b/c she tells me.i kno iv made som mistakes som wer harder than others to say .i want to see her evey sec.. of the day,i mite b crazy but i do!it is the greatist moments wen i c her even if its for just a few min..som ppl mite say thats crazy but others dont n they understand .ther is no 1 els id rather b with than her.she mean so much to me n i care about her so much.she is the only person i can talk to n not be a lil frekin out of wat she mite say b/c she always says the rite thing n give the greatist advice wen i need it.yeah thers other ppl i kno i can talk to n im great friends w/ but shes way more differant in many ways.she the 1 person that i feel colse to enough to b able to talk to n anyting els.she is so amazing.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:46:43 GMT

hey

i dono y i did som things i did.but it may concern my relationship w/ nicole.b/c i didnt puposly do the things i did to concern w/ our relationship ,and i wasnt even thinking right at the time to think of ne thing.im scared and afreaid that b/c of my few actions i had done yester day, that it is in her desition to do wat she needs to do.but i dont want to lose her.i no i made many promises to her.but yesterday was horable.i luv her so much idk if she understands that or wat but i do.i makes me sick to do somthing lik this and i dont no wat shes going to say.but i do no that she had said som simple words such as ill brek up w/ u if u did it agen.i didnt cheat on her or do ne thing lik that yesterday.but i made her a promise n i blew it.i hate myself so bad right now.i dont no wat to do now.im so messed up, n depressed.nicole if ur reading this im so fucking srry.i was so shakin up yesterday that my neck was shaking wen i tryed to talk to som 1.its abolutly horable,n im just 1 big fuck up.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 19:53:04 GMT

hey!

i miss nicole!

wednesday was fucking amazing,nicols amazing.so is so butiful.i want her babies!lol!

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 00:53:26 GMT

hey

im so srry hony i didnt hav my phone on me today, if u see this b 4 i call i im so srry.

hey every 1 gess wat.im goin to another incampment in april!im so happy but im going to miss nicole so much.i hav to bring a pic of her so i can think about her every night!so yeah cya later

Friday, February 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 23:48:07 GMT

omg

it is so hard to show som 1 how much they mean to u.nicole means so much to me it seems lik she means the world to me all the time.but it is so hard to show her how much , that i cant even begin to even think how to show her.she is so amazing and som times she says that she looks horable i can care less if she has makup on or not.i luv her so much its incredable ,but i dont kno how to show her how much it means to even talk to her. i wana spen every sec.. of the day w/ her but i cant n so much shit has to happen so fare as my parents say that i cant see her the times that i want to.b/c i wana see her every day.she means the world to me.i uno if she understands how much i care about her, i care about her so much that i worry if shes ok.if she not upset or anything.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:36:23 GMT

hey ppl who ever reads this stuff,

im goin out w/ this girl nicole!

she is so fucking amazing.i luv that girl, this is the happyest iv been in long time!!!!

so yeah cya!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 20:22:27 GMT

happy volintines day every1!

bye

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 02:49:00 GMT

hi!

who ever reads this leav a comment?

bye

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 21:59:09 GMT

just updating, the usual

i went paintballing for the first time got hit.hit som ppl. n had a good time.well cya!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 21:41:01 GMT

i hav a mixture of fellings right now b/c of my dad( som ppl kno wat im talking about)mayb it was better that he or ne 1 noing wat i do but the truth had to com out sooner or later.but i just had to do wat was needed to do.but he found out the hard way.so i was fuckedup last night b/c of it.but it has gotin a lil bite better not a hole lot.well i think thats it.

cya