Adam and I were having a discussion the other day on contentment. He said that alot of times he has a hard time being content with what he has. He's like " I know I should be because this is what God's giving me at this point in time." And my response was "yes he wants us to be content but he also wants us to strive for more and to become more." So my question is When should we stop striving for more and just be content or should we never stop striving for more? When God tells us to be content with what we have I know we should be but does that also mean that we arent supposed to strive for more? Does that mean that we just be happy with what we  have and where we are until God in his knowledge allows us more, different, or better things/circumstances? 

In other words... Dad is doing alot better. He is walking alot more smoothly and he has therapy twice a week. I've been working about every day of the week. I usually dont work Friday's and Sunday's. I would rather have Saturday- Sunday off but that's not how they are doing it. Right now I'm happy with my job but I know that I dont want to stay there for more then a year at the most. I keep getting asked if I would want to be manager and I just dont think I want to do that. I still dont know what I want to do or if college is in my future but with my family, God, and Adam's help I'm trying not to worry about it. I've started a few subjects in school again. Just trying to keep up on some of my harder subjects so that I'm a lil more prepared for when I go get my GED in the spring. Hopefully if all goes as planned I will be going to IN for 4 days over Thanksgiving. My mom's family all gets together for a big family thing then and hopefully we, along with Adam, will be heading down there. Ok well I think I'm done rambling and boring you all to death lol. Love you guys

My thoughts have been racing to and fro today. I've had some highs and some lows. My sweet friend Josh met up with me before work today and hung out with me for an hour before work. Then he just happened to show up right before I went off my lunch break and so I got to see him again. So that was one of my highs. I had some lows but I've tried not to focus on them and the ppl that brought them and to not let them affect me to much.

 I asked a question on my pulse " How long can one survive on dreams?" And I've gotten some mixed feedback. I realize one can not base their life on dreams alone. We have to live in reality and not have our heads in the clouds but we also, in my opinion, have to have dreams, goals.. ect. With out them life becomes bleak, meaningless, a day to day routine that we get tired of. Dreams give us something to strive for. Give us something to look forward to and dream about. Without dreams we are not, once again my opinion, living up to the potential that God gave us. He gaves a mind and imagination and wants and wishes and dreams and goals. If we dont have them we arent using everything God gave to us. Made us with. We are made in his image so that means that even God has goals if He would put in us the ability to have dreams and to reach those dreams. Once we've reached one dream we have another. It is a continous cycle. And that's the way it should be.. Atleast that's the way it needs to be with me. Without goals I feel meaningless. I get tired of my life when it becomes the same old same old. Dreams and goals keep me going.

Dad is doing good. He walked a ways with out his walker which was a big step for him. His pain isnt agonizing anymore but he's pretty much in continuos pain. Keep him and our family in your prayers. Love ya