mood: >>>i bite... grrr. but to my friends I bare no ill will.

hello everyone... gosh i was happy today but i dont know it seems people love to push my buttons when i'm doing fine. You know i really dont ask for to much and i love to smile from time to time to show how i feel but pardon my language if you want me to go back to the fucking stone age and snarle at you then so be it.  I'm actulaly very passive and gentile but if showing that i'm happy automaticly makes me sick then i hope you can deal with a robot with no feelings what so ever because if that is what you want then i'll let you have it. i've been in several small spats this week and i dont like to be like this but sometimes it's to much.... i just want to hear something crash under my foot or scream at the top of my lungs. just let out a blood curdling battle cry. " why cant you smile more?, why are you mad?, why are you so cold?, why cant you act more like a girl??, why cant you feel emotions the right way?,why cant you?, i want, i need, you cant....."  just shut the hell up.... this is why i'm a blaze... i cant handle this. i only want to be able to be free just like anyone else but if i have to fight for it like everything else..... then ok. I will be ok soon..... i just need to wash this anger and rage out. i'm going to go pray..... dont worry. i'm going to go heal........

~the moni-chan

sorry for no poem i'll make one soon and thankies for the props

i just need to say that sorry if i freaked anyone out