site "permanently" moved to

www.xanga.com/exoticbirdbingo

so i guess it was my own fault this site got deleted.  not that of a haxxor.  sry about that.

 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
       When can I go and meet with God?

 My tears have been my food
       day and night,
       while men say to me all day long,
       "Where is your God?"

 These things I remember
       as I pour out my soul:
       how I used to go with the multitude,
       leading the procession to the house of God,
       with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
       among the festive throng.

 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
       Why so disturbed within me?
       Put your hope in God,
       for I will yet praise him,
       my Savior and my God.
       My soul is downcast within me;
       therefore I will remember you
       from the land of the Jordan,
       the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.

 Deep calls to deep
       in the roar of your waterfalls;
       all your waves and breakers
       have swept over me.

 By day the LORD directs his love,
       at night his song is with me—
       a prayer to the God of my life.

 I say to God my Rock,
       "Why have you forgotten me?
       Why must I go about mourning,
       oppressed by the enemy?"

 My bones suffer mortal agony
       as my foes taunt me,
       saying to me all day long,
       "Where is your God?"

 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
       Why so disturbed within me?
       Put your hope in God,
       for I will yet praise him,
       my Savior and my God.

Psalm 42

I'M GETTING BAPTIZED ON SUNDAY!

and i can't believe i waited this long to get on xanga and tell you guys but

right as i was about to do so, a couple of mormon missionaries came to my door, and i was talking with them for about 10 minutes, and i'm going to their church tomorrow to talk a bit more with them (it's between 10 and 2, and if you'd like to come with me, call me at 531-7977)

oh wow...nervousness.  i forgot what i learned about 2-3 years ago!  i wish georgie tsai were hereeeeeee!  i miss him:).

:D

to experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth
experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth

cause i struggle with forward motion
i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion
cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
it's harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
Relient K, Forward Motion

i always seem to be humbled...and then i turn around and show more pride to myself.  infront of others.

we're not perfect.  i know that.  but sometime soon i hope God will teach me where to draw the line between trying to be a living testament and using a mask to pretend i don't have flaws.  and i hope He'll bring me to a point where people don't have to worry about my mental health anymore.  again, hopefully soon.

IVCF

InterVarsity Christian Fellowship

is awesome, praise GOD!

yes, Harvest has a good sense of community, and i know a whole lot of people in AACF (Asian American Christian Fellowship), though that really doesnt mean a thing, but...

IV is culturally diverse (very important for someone who comes from an asian church), and not only that!  it may be the largest fellowship on campus, but it has a great sense of community.  AACF has attributed some of its lack of community to its great size, but according to this, that certainly can't be the only reason.  though i'm not saying they claim it is.  buut wait there's something else, something that may encourage a sense of community.  IV has an environment that encourages one to be bold in his love for God, unashamed.  i think that's something we people-pleasers desperately need, we who are afraid to stand up for God out of fear for persecution.  so stand up and say Hallelujah to God, and don't be afraid that others will degrade you, whether it be that they would see you as dorky or that they would see you as fake and prideful.  we know how you feel.  don't let it get the best of you.

on another note, i have a lot of hw.  and my ethernet doesn't work probably at least 50% of the time, so i just have to wait several more hours before i can get online (i really need to talk to those resnet people).  in addition, i have to get a mailbox and finally write to Georgie, whom i really havent talked to in a while.  and along with those important things, i also have to figure out whether i'm going to take spanish pass/no pass or just drop it all together.  how much of a chance do i have of switching into warren or marshall?  *sigh*:P

i wonder what muir's requirements are.  maybe they'll have to do with environmental science or biology, and then i'll be okay:P.

God laughs at our plans.

please pray for a friend in trouble, a friend whose relationships and perspectives on relationships are bringing him into trouble.  it really shows that we need to ask God before we make a headlong dive into something.  and not just ask Him, "Lord, these are my plans; will you approve of them?", but instead, ask, "Lord, what do You want me to do?  what are Your plans for me?"

no matter how much you want something and are sure that it's right, if God gives you reasons to doubt the decision, one needs to wait upon it, to wait upon God before making his own decision.