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| Tickle Me PinkI dyed the front part of my hair pink last week. I visited a friend in KY last month and I dyed her hair purple for her. I could not talk her into pink...but I did do the purple. It looked pretty cool but I still wanted it to be pink so...
I WENT PINK! I think it suits and now my head matches my mood; perky and girly.
 I painted my body in henna too and danced in the sun amongst the flowers. My field of flowers is in in full bloom now too and whenever I look out my south windows this is what I see....it makes me want to dance.  Yes, I DO realize that I AM BLESSED!
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| Kisses My Bitches!Hey Babies! Guess who is back from the Land of I WISH I WERE DEAD!? Yup. It's true and here is another clue...I AM feeling frisky, funky and full of silly fun once again. WHEEEEEEEE!!!
Now tell me, which of you angels out there is doing voodoo to make me well? I AM not lying when I say... every single time I write a whining, I'm ill and sickly blog on Xanga my troubles seem to disappear the next day. EVERY TIME! Thank you so very much for that magic, I missed myself so very much and I was seriously losing my will to live. I blame the Atripla for that. A TRIP LALALALA is more like it, only not so much LA as OMG somebody kill me please!
I AM currently not taking any HIV meds and do not plan to take any more at least until after my birthday next month. I have lofty goals and plans and peeps I want to visit in the next coming weeks and I AM not willing to suffer with any more side effects in the interim. I'm not real convinced that I will be trying any more of those horrible meds anyway. If I buckle down and get serious with my health again I AM quite convinced I can suffocate the HIV in me with goodness and prayer. I thank GOD every night for curing me of this HIV and one of these days I'm convinced he is going to tire of my nagging ways and make it so!
The rash has almost left now too although, I AM still really itchy and do feel that occasional pins and needles feeling that is a direct result of med induced neuropathy. Many of the HIV meds are notorious for causing Neuropathy and let me tell you, that shit hurts! I think death is the lesser of 2 evils when it comes to neuropathy...but that is just me.
My meningitis symptoms have almost left completely now too and I don't have to wear my sunglasses in the house anymore. LET THERE BE LIGHT! Nary a jabbing ear pain either and my sleep has returned to normal volumes now too...and I can EAT! Eat like a HOG! I should have no worries gaining the weight back I lost while medicated. Please pass that Culvers frozen custard my way! OINK!
I'm going to LIVE and more importantly... I ONCE AGAIN WANT TO! THANK YOU!!!
BE WELL.
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| BuggeredWell my dearies, I AM really having a tough time of it lately and spend most of my life sleeping. The past 2 weeks have been just rotten with medicine side effects and lingering meningitis illness. I have lost several pounds again as well.
I have not been on Xanga lately because most of my life is dealing with sickness and the like as of late. For that reason I have been updating my blog and writing on the discussion boards on dailystrength.org much more frequently. If you would like to keep up with my woes I direct you there, I just haven't the strength to do both. If you want to live happily and cheerily I recommend you skip ME completely, I'll just bring you down!
The med I was taking, Atripla fucked me up really bad and I had to quit because of it. The poem I wrote the other day was based on an experience I had while taking that med, you can read about it here. My HIV doc then gave me a script for Truvada and now the rash on my body is out of control and feels like pins and needles. I have been ordered to stop that med now too.
 I'm just a sad sack lately.
I used to be so gosh darn lively and full of happy thoughts, now it's all I can do to even take a shower. My doctor also mentioned another spinal tap too...oh no, I just cannot deal with that trauma again. PLEASE NO!!!
I appreciate your prayers it's about the only hope I have anymore.
BE WELL.
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| Atripla Blues
i'm drugged
and Buggered
So true.
sick as
dead bug
still in the sill
all winter long.
skeleton
corpse
bug spray flu
dying, crispy
nothing
shoo.
whooo now pretty
colors too blue
triangles with circles
round and round
fall on the ground
with tingles
bursting out the hands
electricity black
sweat so wet
hair stuck on head
matted wet
so confused
eyes wide
I think I died
am I still here?
Should I take it again?
Who?
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