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Fri, 04 May 2007 00:11:32 GMT

I have come to realize that I had some serious issues. Humm. Plus, I couldn't spell worth a damn either.

Anyway, I'm no longer living with him. Good thing. I just wish that he would get the fuck out of my life.

Seriously, I do.

I know...

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 20:26:48 GMT

I know. I'm not gonna sit here an lie about it. I know what happened. And I'm not too dumb to not see what's going to happen. I am hoping for the best, I really am, but I don't forsee it. Some things can't be forgiven. Yet, I only wanted something that wasn't possible.

Alas, I am moving on. I got checked today. Now I'm just waiting on the results. I am hoping its a clean bill of health, and honestly, I don't think that there is any reason I shouldn't have a clean bill, but I just want to be on the safe side.

I should have known when you wanted me to have sex with you while you were seeing someone else. I should have known right then and there that it was probably like that with me. Hurmph.

I am going to find someone else. Someone who satisfies me emotionally, sexually, and physically. Its not you that can. Now I have a ring that I don't even know what to do with...it feels like its corrupted.

Oh well.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 01:57:02 GMT

For all of you out there listening:

I'm no longer posting here. I'm so sorry. Contact me and I'll be glad to referr you to my newest blog.

Sincerely,

MSMAN1010

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 06:05:47 GMT

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Monday, November 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 04:42:46 GMT

Friday, November 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 08:03:07 GMT

So I had an odd day yesterday. Stayed up all night. Slept too late, made it to work about two hours late. Ugh. Went to sleep around 11 and woke up at 1, startled. Can't go back to sleep. Going to see the doctor in the morning around 7 for some depression meds. I can't wait. Its going to be nice, not feeling some of this depression. At least it will make coping a little easier.

I've had great reviews on my yet-to-be-finished artwork. :D Yay! I've finnally created something that means something to myself, and people are actually enjoying it. YAY!

This is a first, adn I'm so excited!
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br> Lookin' Cute

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 08:39:31 GMT

So yesterday was a bad day. What of it? I am probably going to fail this semester due to absenses, so I need to be getting on the ball with some sort of finacial aid shit. I am going to probably pull an all nighter tonight just to get caught up on some things that I've been lagging behind on, and I probably will be dead most of the day tomorrow. Oh well so goes it.

I don't know if you've ever really had something which you never thought you could miss. I know that I never really thought that I could miss something so much. I don't know, but I know that it sucks to be alone, and I miss the friendship and companionship from the people who were constantly around me in Tupelo. It sucks.

So I guess I will get started once again on this work after one of my buds came over here and fixed some of my computer problems. Well, he won't be able to fix all of them just yet, but he has basically just done things like run updates (stuff you should do on a normal basis anyway, stuff I know about but just haven't done) and defrag my computer. Oh well. Nice time to spend with him.

Last night after I wrote some very harsh things in my journal (yes, I keep a hand-written journal too, kids) I decided to do some art. I was fed up with not being able to express myself. So I finally just did. Honestly, it didn't take me long, and I still am not finished with it, but its definatly a good start. Sadly I wasn't able to get the whole thing in the shot before my camera decided to spaz out. Ugh at piece of shit cameras. The missing part holds one important key thing: a single white star from which all colors come. So, maybe my next post will be an indepth analysis of this, but for now, I will let you all ponder its meaning. Cheers and tallie ho!

Monday, October 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 02:14:51 GMT

First of all, I figured I wouldn't have had any fun whatsoever since I really didn't think I would know anyone at the club last night. However, the night did turn out great, and I am so glad I saw my boi from back home. Look, I know we broke it off, but like I told you last night, I do miss you and you are still one of my best friends. Otherwise, I am so glad we got to talk, letting everything be known. Anyway, if you don't remember my number, let me know, I'll get it to you.

Otherwise, I did have fun last night at the club; I left around (what I thought at the time) was about 5. Turned out to be 4. Daylight savings, go figure. Anyway, I got back here around 6 and crashed for the day. I mean literally. I got up once to pee around 11 then I fell back asleep till it was dark, which always freaks me out when I wake up and its dark. I don't know why, but it does.

Anyway, other than all of that, I had a blast, and can't wait to go back! Yay!

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Saturday, October 29, 2005

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 08:23:16 GMT

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Funny shit. I promise.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:14:26 GMT

I have so much to do. I am way behind in class, and if that wasn't enough, I feel like I'm doing no good in any of them. I am only failing one, though, so thats always good. Actually, after I get some of those tests online done, I should be passing that class! Yay! That is next to do on my list, possibly this weekend. I will get at least a few of them done.

Anyway, other than, work, no more news. Well some, but I guess that I can't really share that right now. *Sigh* I need a hugg...