I got bored! LOL! Blame Morgan!
68 things about me.
1. Initials: RMJ
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: Can’t think of anyone right off hand
3. Favorite food: mac and cheese…the ultimate comfort food!
4. For or against same sex marriage? Against…."Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve!"
5. Are you homophobic? no
6. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? If I ever had a Saturday morning to myself I might…
7. Do you believe in God? YES!
8. How many U.S states have you been to? Umm…where to start, Texas!, Louisiana, Arkansas, Mississippi, Florida, Oklahoma, Missouri, Oregon, Washington, California, Georgia, Tennessee, North Carolina, Alabama, New Mexico and have driven through every state between almost…
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? Texas, Georgia, Oregon, Tennessee
10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? Umm YEAH! Panama and Germany! Oh how I love Germany!
11. Name something you like physically about yourself: My eyes and my hair color!
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: I listen and am the one that most of my friends come to when they have problems.
13. What is your dads name? Umm…God…don’t have a dad…well not one that I would call dad.
14. What is your dream car? Any car…I don’t know if I’m ever going to have one!
15. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? Germany!
16. Favorite type of food? German! I also love Italian!
17. Favorite holiday? Probably Christmas…
18. Do you download music? No…I do burn CDs…
19. How many illegal things have you done? Umm…burning CDs…
20. Where was your first date? Well…went on a double date to the movies in Humble…I think we saw Remember the Titans…
21. Would you date the person who posted this before you? Umm…if I were a guy! LOL!
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you? Yeah…but goofing off…
23. Have you ever cried for no reason? I don’t think so…I might have though…
24. Do you like President Bush? Umm…I don’t keep up enough to comment…
25. Have you ever bungee jumped? Would like to…
26. Have you ever white-water rafted? Am definitely going to!!!
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? OH Yeah…in Germany there was a guy at a bar that tried to offer me beer…
28. Who was the last person you hugged? Veronica…I’m so proud of her accomplishments at the UIL meet today! 1st place Chemistry and 5th overall…4th overall in Math!
29. Have you met a real redneck? In Livingston?!?!? OF COURSE!
30. How is the weather right now? Muggy…would be a good temperature if it weren’t so stuffy!
31. What song are you listening to right now? I’m watching Sybil
32. What is your current favorite song? I don’t think I have one…wait…right now it’s probably "Praise You in this Storm" by CastingCrowns…those of you who know what’s going on in my life right now will know why…
33. What was the last movie you watched? I’m watching Sybil
34. Do you wear contacts? Yeah…wish I had money to keep buying them…
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? Willis High School for the District 4A UIL meet…I didn’t place…I’m at Steph’s house, but it is my house!
36. What are you afraid of the most? Spiders!!! And…not having someone to lean on…
37. Have you ever hit on someone of the opposite sex? Umm…flirted yes, I wouldn’t say ‘hit on’ though…
38. Any pets? 11 dogs (7 puppies about to be given away!) and 5 cats…all outdoor trust me…
39. Have you ever loved someone? I don’t think it was love….no it wasn’t! LOL!
40. What really turns you on? That…no comment!
41. What do you usually order from starbucks? Decaf Mocha Latte…haven’t been in a while though…
42. Have you ever fired a gun? Yeah…a shotgun and a BB gun
43. How old are you? 18
44. Say something totally random about yourself: My mouth is really dry!
45. Do you have an iPod? nope
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? No…I’m kind of glad…my brother once said that a child actor kind of looked like pictures of me when I was younger!
47. Whats your mom's name? Debbie…
48. Who would you like to see right now? I’m at Stephanie’s house…what more could I want?!?!? LOL!
49. Are you comfortable with your height? yes
50. Dogs or cats? Dogs! Cats are so annoying!
51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supossed to be doing? Yeah…hasn’t everyone!?
52. Favorite flower? Birds of Paradise…purple and orange, my two favorite colors!
53. Butter, plain, kettle,or salted popcorn? CHEESE!!!!!! Pour-over cheese that is!
54. What books are you reading? Star Wars Revenge of the Sith and the Bible
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo? NO
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? Not REALLY close…a friend in 6th grade…that was years ago though
57. Do you watch MTV? No…don’t watch much TV at all… 
58. What's something that really annoys you? Smacking…most of the time…HYPOCRITES!!!! OH MY GOSH!!!
59. What are some things you really like? Sleeping, MUSIC!!!!!, my precious few WONDERFUL friends!
60. Do you like Michael Jackson? Not particularly!
61. can you dance? No and I don’t!
62. Favorite football team? I don’t watch football!
63. Favorite breakfast food? Bacon!!!!!
65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out? 3 AM I think…but I was with someone my mom didn’t care that I was with and it wasn’t of the opposite sex…LOL!
66. When was the last time you went bowling? A year ago or more…
67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? No, praise God…although I have been to the ER before a few times…
68. Whats your favorite state to live in? Texas…it’s just TEXAS! And the choir programs here are just so much better than everywhere else!
My grandma and I talked about it today...but we know that it wouldn't work. We don't want to start WWIII in our family...and it would. It seems like nothing will work out anymore. I get so discouraged because of all the prayer that I know is being sent up every day by many different people...and nothing seems to be happening. It just doesn't seem fair and as often as I remind myself that God is in control and that things will happen in His time...I can't seem to make myself believe that...at least not 100% of the time...and most of you will say that that is natural. Well...it makes me feel like crap all the time...what if I said that I only believed that 40% of the time or less...that's less than half of the time. What is a girl to do when that feeling takes over. Curling up to die is not an option because it just doesn't work that way...and no...I'm not suicidal...and haven't moved down that path in years...it's just feelings...I don't know. I get so angry 
and hurt 
and it seems like I have nowhere to turn even though I have tons of friends...even though I have God. It doesn't feel like it all the time. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at a loss. Some of you will say that all I have to do is lean on God...let Him take everything from my back. Does anyone besides me realize how hard that is to do OVER AND OVER again? Does anyone else know how I feel right now? NO...people can say that they have been through similar situations...or maybe near identical...but no one besides God knows my mind and how I deal with things...and I know that that should make all the difference in the world when it comes to relying on Him but for some reason...it doesn't. Am I a horrible person? What's it going to take to get me back on the right track? What's it going to take to get my mother back on the right track? What is it going to take to heal our family...more than anyone here can do...and sometimes I think it's more than God can handle even though I know that that is not true...is that a normal feeling? I want to give up...but I have to "be a man." 
