Being Me

"Walk with me and work with me--watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."  Matt 11:29 (The Message)

"May you believe in God. But may you come to see that God believes in you. May you have faith in Jesus. But may you come to see that Jesus has faith that you can be like him. A person of love and compassion and truth. A person of forgiveness, and peace, and grace, and joy, and hope. And may you be covered in the dust of your rabbi, Jesus." - Rob Bell

Currently Reading Boundaries By Dr. Henry Cloud, Dr. John Townsend see related

Update!

So, I've been meaning to thank you, Kimmy for like a month now for all that you commented on! You're so amazing with your words, thank you!!!!!

So, it's been a month and a day for Will and I lol. I think I might just end my 1 month and 9 days relationship curse.  I'm enjoying the summer. My stats class will be over on Thursday and my Dad is coming in a little over a week. That should be interesting; my Dad and my step mom in my territory.... I pray it's productive and that I become more at peace with it. Now's my chance to have a nice time, to show them the person I am becoming, even if they don't see it. Weds are going well, though today we have it off. I miss a ton of people though! I can't believe the summer is nearly over, I don't want to believe it! Maybe I just feel that way b/c it's a bit cooler here today. There's a Josh Ritter listening party tonight but I don't want to go by myself so I guess I'm not going. I would, I just don't want to take the T by myself in the dark, it's just not a good idea. Besides, the listening party is pretty much in a bar so I doubt I'd hear much anyway. Well, I'm gonna finish my take home exam and get some reading done. Peace out.

Currently Reading The Art of Loving By Erich Fromm see related

About A Boy

So... hey. I feel like I don't do any writing anymore and I need to! I've learned so much in the past few months, but it feels like I've forgotten about some of it too. I guess specific dates are not needed, but those convos sure were important!!!  So many Weds have gone by that I did not write down; online, in a song, in my journal. Oh well, hopefully I'll recall some of it and start jotting it down, even if I don't remember specific dates.

On to Will. Yeah, he's great. Of course, this is bringing up every fear I could imagine about the whole aspect of whatever this is, but I am trying to trust God. To trust God to take care of me if nothing comes of it. To trust God if my heart gets broken. To trust God if I (a long time off I know!) marry the kid. To trust God if I marry the kid and he leaves me. It's the trusting part that is hard. But I've been praying, he's been praying so, I need to just stay calm, don't turn into a girly-girl and uh... wait I guess. Well, learn but wait for him to open up more b/c he's introverted to the core. I am a borderline extravert/introvert. Much thanks to Alison for figuring this out for me. If I was writing a paper for class I'd cite her.  I miss my friends a ton.

What else.... walking on the beach is amazing, as is green tea and uh hanging out with Will. Oh, and there is this silly little fact that I am going to see Hanson two days in a row next week. I am actually not that excited. I hope to become a bit more excited, but yeah... it's kind weird. I think Will is having an effect on me and I know God is doing some changing of my priorities so... things are going well.

I still miss you and Wednesdays, but you have to take care of you, which you are doing so you are being a good role model. "If goodbye never comes it'll be ok because I'll hold on to the memories we made." (Or something.) I am going to back and figure those out.