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| running the radio by myself is HARD!!!
I'm sucking it up RIGHT NOW...
I need Luna.
Kate, you did awesome!
congratulations....BJ's? I've got 2 weeks then I'll be caught up on homework.
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| Blake, more of BlakeSo I have issues with worrying about the future:
Positive- I always have a plan, a successful one, a promising one, a house and a fellowship one.
Negative- I can't seem to be happy with the present, I'm always worrying about the future, I'm ready to throw away everything I have, I have no commitment, and I'm usually dissapointed with what comes, cause it's not the plan I made.
So I apologize, daily.
I know it gets old to hear my apologies.
I know I take blame for things I might not need to.
But how come I've never heard those 2 words from your mouth ever?? ever, ever...
Don't you realize that you have to be wrong too, in order to be human?
How come I never see the places you should say sorry, how come I only see everything as my fault?
I love my friends.
I love catching up on homework.
I love being productive.
I hate being behind.
I wish you'd see how much I'm worth, but perhaps you already do?
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| Lord, I hear your voice, but I don't know how to do your will. Lord, your will, not mine. Please help me get unstuck from the hole I dig for myself. I know you're here with me. Please help me do your will. I can't do it on my own.
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| Blake.
I like him. I know I know this is common, this is not new, this is something that happens often.
I like him.
I hope I never stop.
And isn't that what happened with Tyler?
Yeah, but it's different.
How?
I don't think Blake is emotionally abusive.
Why am I even questioning this.
I like Blake.
I'm learning a lot of cool things about relationships.
I'm on my way to Ohio on Sunday! Sunday, Sunday, Sunday.
Thank you Lord, for your amazing love that fills me and covers me like the wind. I don't see where it comes from or where it goes, but man, I love when it blows over me.
I long for you so desperately. Sometimes I don't even realize it's you that I'm craving. But you are all that can fill this crater. You make me relax. You give me peace. You calm my fears. And you protect me from every storm. I love you. I will always belong to you. Thank you for the way you made me, and the way that your plan is so individual to me. I am having so much fun learning things. Thank you for this amazing opportunity you have given me. I know it sounds too good to be true, but...$30,000!!! on top of free tuition, a laptop, health insurance, and 2 chemistry conferences a year. I don't deserve any of it. But you are so just. You are so good to me. Every second I have spent in this library will pay off. Thank you for amazing friends, caramel machiotos at 10 p.m., people who understand me, people who don't understand but try, and people who don't try or understand, but love me just the way I am anyway! I could not be more blessed. Don't even get me started on how awesome my family is. You are the king of all blessings, all my praise, all my worship, all my hope, prayers, and happiness is for you. You are everything I will ever need. And I love you. Please, hold me so close to you!
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| me and Cinderella we put it on together, we can drive it home with one headlight.
I'm going to make it. Whether I want to or not.
And this day, I was dragging my feet, but tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Valentines day.
What's with that, but mostly, what's with me caring.
I'd rather not care about you today. I'd rather not care any day.
But remember, remember that tomorrow is coming.
Remember that it is so soon. And that someway, somehow, I'll make it through.
love. what the hell is love. I know, I love my pradda backpack. :) right?
I'm kidding.
I don't even know what pradda is. but you are still on my mind.
on and off
and on and off
my mind. But I'd rather you'd leave now.
Or come.
But you are doing neither.
So I'll wait patiently for tomorrow. yeah, in a way that's not patient at all
But we'll get there anyway.
POETRY...we are learning about poetry in my class. I got into grad school in Ohio.
obviously for chemistry and not literature.
but reading will always be one of the best things ever. :)
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