The old, the new, and the unfamiliar

oh jeez.

feb....wow...

let's just say Anthony's well gone. I hate reading all this stuff and i was so happy and so enthusiastic about stuff so...naive. I guess you can say i've always been naive,believeing best friends never went away and that all mistakes true honest mistakes could be forgiven. But i guess they can't. I lost my bestfriend also...in the past months. My best friend the one i could tell anything too and just knew they understood. What torse us appart was truthfully and honestly a mistakes. I learn from my past time and knew something like that would never happen again. But there i go being careless and not paying attention make a horribal mistake that ruined a lot of things for me. She wont trust me and think im the worst person on the planet. I just miss my best friend the one who would beat me up the second she saw me and we would just laugh. Not the laughs where your fakeing the laughs where your actually laughing because your actually happy. Well now about the boy that i have now. Me and Jeremy i guess found our way to eachother. We celebrated our 1 year and he gave me my favorite flowers and a promise ring. I ecepted the promise ring with my right hand ring finger open. Things have been going pretty good. Dispite all the mishap at the end of may. I need to get money so i can take driveing school so i can get my permit. oh Jeremy moved. First he moved to yuciapa which is like 50 miles from me but then he moved upland which is mangable 20 to 30 miles. Thank god. other then that im just sad because i miss my boyfriend and my bestfriend. The 2 people who kept my world turning. oh well i guess.....

i love him and need him more then i need oxygen

hoes

 wow.. lol

its been a long long time.

wellllll. haha

im still in hesperia. yes yes. i guess im more used to it now then i was when i first got here.ummm lets see

on the home part...its been very bumpy...lots of drama with my sister.lots... but other then that its pretty good.

on the friends font.. me and jessica arent friends anymore. anddddd i have friends over here so im good i guess.

on the love part...lol well

i met this one kid named

Randy and we were together for like a month.but i broke up with him because i was still in love with Anthony yes Anthony Rosenberg.and Randy was all tellin me he loved me and stuff and i was like "fuck that" and broke up with him.

thennnnn

i had this one kid in my band class pretty much stalk me lol. he fallowed me to class been joined at the hip ever since.his name is Jeremy. I swear this boy is one amazing person.Hes stuck by me threw everything.I broke his hear like 3 times and push him away and push him away and he still stays.we are not together now though. we broke up awhile ago because of the same reason i broke up with Randy. i love anthony still.Me and Jeremy are still friends though. hes my bestfriend. hes acually asleep on the floor in my room right now lol.

and now for the one.

Anthony Rosenberg. oh boy what to say. Well you know while ago how my heart was all broken cause i thought he was over me bleh bleh bleh. well i found out that he still loves me.Its been over a year since everything and he still loves me. and i still love him. I guess you can say me and him are trying to get things back on track right now with shit. Were not together because of how far i live. we kinda decided thatttttttt when he gets his car(when he graduates this year) and when i get my shiot all this year. we will get back together. well he said "as of right now" i dont get what that ment... like as of right now how we both feel yes? so if he stay the way he still do right now then yes? i dont know it was kind of confuseing.hes the most confuseing person ever. but i love him. lol anyways

as on the how i am part with taking everything on. well i guess im doin okay.Im being strong and dealing whats comming at me. Schools a sore subject right now.....i dont even want to talk about it.

well ima go

see ya kids on the flip sideeeeee.

CHRISTCHEX! YOUR MOVE HOLLY MAN! <3

p.s. MY BIRTHDAYS IS ON TUESDAY!!!!!!

andddd

my dad started talking to me again o.O

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^^Anthony <33

^^me and my sisterrr

^^me and Jeremyyyy

^^

randy ASSFACE LOSER DICK

holyy crapppp i read things i wrote like a long time ago and i used to be such a loser! hahah  im in hesperia right now in class.and im bored. life kinda sucks at the moment. and i dont even use this anymore so why am i writting? haha

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chels

well i havent written for like 3 months? lol well i did end up beeing with that anthony guy. and falling head over heels in love with him and he loved me just the same. but all good things must come to an end i guess and we broke up a couple of weeks ago.cause im moveing or at least thats what he says i still love him and supossevly he loves me too. but know knows. boy sucks.  and yep im moveing AGAIN to hesperia this time. wich is gonna suck way more then this shit hole. anyways ima go ill write again when i have time or whatever. i love you all and just go on myspace thats what i have a where you can get ahold of me all the time sorta  

www.myspace.com/signmytitty       long story about the link name. ahah  (thanks jess)

<333 chels