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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

i started a wedding blog today. so i will be writing there:

http://talkweddings.blogspot.com/

gimme some feedback. i have many, many decisions to make!!!!

Monday, January 29, 2007

made some authentic korean chicken soup last night for the bf bc he's getting sick... and i love him. my fingers now speak garlic.. frightfully reflective of my mom's hands. it reverts me back to nights when the family would huddle at the 15'' tv for some korean drama marathon on our brown plush couch.. my head rested on mom's lap, but never before some long debate between my little sister and i. it's my turn tonight, not hers... it's her turn tonight, not mine. i'd be defeated, more than half the time, but i only recall the victorious nights; nights when mom's garlic hands would graze over my forehead, through my hair. i'd quietly protest that seventeen magazine suggest hair gets oily from finger oils, that my forehead would break-out, that she should stop if she really cared. she'd smile a simple smile and would never stop. the night would slowly approach its end and i'd fall asleep to her signature scent.

Friday, January 05, 2007

i dont get you people. i do not know you, and that's fine... i too enjoy stalking interesting blogs on xanga. i TOO visit certain strangers on the regular (oh they must think i'm nutso but who cares) but atleast i share! why do you browse through here regularly while you, yourself host an empty blog? i just find it super weird and selfish. therefore from today onward, i will be blocking everyone whom i do not know and visit here to read regularly without sharing. i am only going to share with those who are willing to share with me because i'm a jerk like that.

so here is a belated recap of my 2006. it was a year of unexpectedssssssssss..

-entered the corp world and landed a great first job (jan/feb)
-moved out of the comforts of my parents li "home" and into my own astoria "home" (march)
-got robbed in my new astoria "home" (april)
-met and fell in love with the love of my life (may/june)
-remained in loverland with the lover and breezed through summer without a care in the world (july-aug)
-got to experience the joys of having my own office with a great view (sept)
-experienced my first big corporation merger-- very big lessons learned here (oct)
-landed a handful of job choices with nice big pay increase...mmmmm. decided on my current job and couldn't be happier... (so far) haha (nov/dec)
-paid off most of my credit card debt. only about two months til i'm debt free! (dec)

most of the things that have "happened" during the past year have been career & relationship-specific as you can see. i feel like i've dumbed down significantly since 2006. sooo my new year's resolutions are going to be.. to maintain progressing well at work and love while doing well in other things as well. finding a harmonious balance among all things...

in 2007,
i will eat better and smarter
settle into a new home church and serve more faithfully there
devote more time for family
go to school
get OUT of astoria and find a reasonable apt in manhattan, near work & school
save some money
find more time to read
sleep less
work out
photograph and write more
make breakfast and lunch
make better use of saturdays
travel
keep better in touch with friends

most of these are somewhat difficult to measure... and probably everyone else's resolutions as well... but oh well!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Currently Reading
Laughable Loves
By Milan Kundera
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james bought the book for me last week. reward for trekking approx 5 aves & 20 blocks at 100+ degree weather last week. i love Kundera. who doesnt love Kundera? the content can be a bit of rawness to chew, but it all remains so softly poignant. if you loved Kundera's Unbearable Lightness of Being, you'll fall in love with him all over again in this one too!

the move date into the new office space is set for next friday. boxesboxesboxes, labelslabelslabels. just heard news that i'll be swapping offices with my director. this means the new office is bigger, although i'll be further away from the rest of my research team. HOPING that his original office is a CORNER OFFICE!!!!

going to the advanced screening for the new wtc movie tonight. reviews were okay, tactful and non-threatening but lacked any substantial praise or acclaim. i guess it is as expected. i'll let ya know how it is so you can check it out when it premieres on Fri.

doing a major reflection on my career path these days. to default back to the safe, stable medical route or to be more edgy and dangerous and stick through the media marketing route... that is the question! no doubt about it, cbs is a really awesome company to work for, so it darkens my spirit a bit to think about leaving eventually (within the next 2 years) to go back to grad school. i think i'd be happy in both occupations. both will be challenging, stimulating, fulfilling to say the least. those who care, please whisper a prayer or two for me when you think of me!

happiest birthday to my dear miriam! <3

Monday, May 22, 2006

Being in love is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling. Now no feeling can be relied on to last in its full intensity, or even to last at all. Knowledge can last, principles can last, habits can last; but feelings come and go. And in fact, whatever people say, the state called 'being in love' usually does not last. If the old fairy-tale ending 'They lived happily ever after' is taken to mean 'They felt for the next fifty years exactly as they felt the day before they were married', then it says what probably never was nor ever would be true, and would be highly undesirable if it were. Who could bear to live in that excitement for even five years? What would become of your work, your appetite, your sleep, your friendships? But, of course, ceasing to be 'in love' need not mean ceasing to love. Love in this second sense- love as distinct from 'being in love'- is not merely a feeling. It is a deep unity reinforced by the grace which both partners ask, and receive, from God. They can have this love for each other even at those moments when they do not like each other; as you love yourself even when you do not like yourself. They can retain this love even when each would easily, if they allowed themselves, be 'in love' with someone else. 'Being in love' first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it.

C.S. Lewis- Mere Christianity
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