| somehow i cannot get rid of xanga, even though i never update anymore. it reminds me of a simpler time...
and a person who helped change my life that i met on here.
sometimes i still wonder about what might have happened or even what could...
and then i wonder if i'm foolish for wondering.
but i can't shake the feeling
ah life
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| It's so neat how God can change things in such a short amount of time. Looking back a year ago it's hard to believe I am the person I am today. At that time I was going through a serious season of depression.... I was cutting myself and had thoughts of suicide every day. I remember that every time I got in my car to drive somewhere, all I wanted to do was drive into a tree or building and be done with life. I was tired of the pain and wanted to go home to Jesus. I hid it pretty well from everybody, only a few knew about how I really felt inside, and those people along with the merciful love of God brought me out of my dark oppression and back into the light of the Lord. I am now happier than I have been in a long time, and have much more joy! Things still are a little rough and there are days I definitely still break down and don't want to face the world. But I no longer have that feeling of despair and hopelessness. God has been so kind to me and His arms are there to catch me every single time I feel I can't stand on my own.
Just something I thought I'd share 
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| This article here ---> Click Here gets my blood boiling. This is one of few issues going on in the world that truly brings out my fire and I will really get going about it.... I can get ugly about it too. That "church" owes WAY more than 11 million dollars. No amount of money can undo the emotional damage those selfish ignorant pigs have inflicted on servicemembers' family and friends. do they not UNDERSTAND anything?? those men and women who's funerals they are protesting are the same men and women that are keeping those people safe! GRRRR I just want to punch them all in the face. How would they feel if they lost someone they loved and people celebrated and mocked their deaths? Maybe if that happened they would shut the frick up for a little while. I need to stop talking about this or I will get really livid. This blog entry is harsh, but I'm not apologizing. Those people need to just all disappear and stop wasting their lives on such idiocy and ungratefulness. |
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| i have decided that i officially don't like the tower guard night shift that auston has to work all this week. because of the time difference between here and there, with the switch in his working hours he doesn't have much time to talk to me. of course it's not his fault, but i miss him so much and i want to talk to my boy!!! ah well. i almost applied for another job today, but i think i'm gonna hold off. it was for a catering business and i want to stay away from food service at my next job, so i'm holding out for something better. we'll see!! i have a TON of homework this weekend. at least 60 math problems and 2 papers are due next week, so most of my weekend is going to be spent typing and calculating. yippie for me! please be praying for me. i have an important math test next week that my teacher said will either make or break our grades. i haven't had very good success with the previous test, and i cannot fail this one!!! ok peeps, that's all for now. peace! |
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| i had a wonderful 2 weeks with my boy... out of the 16 days he was home we spent 15 of them together. now he is back in afghanistan and i miss him soooo much. not much else to report other than that.... i'm just trying to make it to january when he'll be home from deployment. if he's reading this, i want him to know that i love him very very very much!!!! muah! |
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