*THIS IS A GOODBYE*

hi girls ,

its really hard for me to tell you this

but, i have to make this decision

this disease have been ruining my life

its enough!

i know i may never recover , or maybe i will

but i dont want to make  this illness the centre of my life anymore

 I NEED TO MOVE ON (being skinny and miserable , is just stupid)

and this Xanga doesnt help.

I just want to be happy

and feel Normal again.

i really hope u girlies will find Hapiness

cause thats the point in life.

i love you all , im gonna miss you.

Be Safe

<3

-sara

 sick of this.

ive been thinking a lot

im not Fat

but im not skinny either

so how can i get there?

 thats why , ive decided to Starve my self this week

im not gonna use the term (fast) , cuz its just a lie!

im going to starve and see how i will feel abt myself after 

cuz lately , i feel like i have no control anymore and i hated it

so its all going to change!

im going to update daily! to keep me motivated

*love ya girlies*

thinspo : models

i really cant understand, how i can eat after

looking at those gorgeous skinnies!

aghhh I SUCK! lol

love u girllies**

<3

yay!

just finished the 3 days fast!

we did it ;)

goal reached!

feels sO good :)

now , i have to control things cuz putting those damn pounds is so easy :s

i have a problem girls.

so yea , ppl say im skinny all the time , i rarely see it really..

but i just Hate the way i look in a bikini ! i feel sO fat!

and even if the scale says i lose weight , when im naked , all i see is fat !

how can i change this image in my head ?

and Can i change it?

love u skinnies ^^

-sara

new Plan

fast : 3 days , starting tuesday

goal : 4 lbs

check weight :  friday morning

sports : (1-2)hours a day

Still binging

my life sucks

right now .