i think God wants to remind me of this word: Cherish. there are many things in my life that i've taken for granted. important stuff that i seemed to neglect, until they grow bigger, and then fade away as if nothing had happened at all, but the truth is, something DID happened, and left imprinted in my heart, mind and soul. sometimes i ask myself whether i'm just feigning ignorance, thinking the 'stuff' will just disappear the moment i stop thinking about them. but they never did in the end. all along im been fooling myself, and further circumstances don't seem to help much. people in my life, incidents that are so much more than they seem, stuff that i lost and never seem to recover. even this family, this family that 'm losing bit by bit every single day. everyone has so little time for each other, everyone fails to regard each other respectfully, everyone seems to lose it so easily. i guess that's why God wants to remind me to hold on tightly to this family, this family i've been in for sixteen years, and this new family of God i've found two years ago. family is such a sensitive issue, but they are the ones that keep you going, the very reason why we are living, and not just living for the sake of living. from the bottom of my heart, i really declare that i love my families. and one day, i strongly believe, they will become ONE BIG FAMILY. (: speaking of which, ne camp and oasis camp are coming whoohoo! arowa ohana, even the theme sounds so nice, so heartwarming, so family. ne is like my second family, won't forsake it for anything else in the world.! ahaha. and that's why, regarding to some issues, i need to reclarify that it's not that i'm not willing to pay in more effort, it's not that i'm not interested or lazy, but in life, there are priorities. and church is my no.1 priority, it's not easy trying to juggle everything,and pleasing everyone at the same time, but i sincerely hope that you guys can understand that i will try my best in everything i do. | 
