Life changes, you get it all linded up just the way you like it and something beyond your control comes along and bumps you off center. How nice it would be if you could get everything just the way you want it and say okay, now say. but nothing stays the same. You grow up, make friends, lose friends, move away, lose track of people, meet new ones, and sometimes you ask yourself why. Butt all i can tell you is that every single experience you go through like this changed you in some way. every new person who comes into your life changes you. every moral dilemna or emotional experience you come up against changes you. its your job to decide how. thats how character is developed.

One day can make your life.
One day can ruin your life.
All life really is, is 4 or 5 big days that change everything.

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.

lose everything and what is real will still remain.

Friendship is the comfort that comes from knowing that when you feel all alone, you aren't.

so just live life, make mistakes and have wonderful times but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been and most importantly where it is that you are going.

Goodbyes hurt more than anything, especially when deep down you know you might not say hello again.
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why is it that we dont realize what we had til its gone.
why is it that we stay in something only for the good times.
the good times are amazing, but the horrible times truely are horrible.


i miss it...

GOING TO WICHITA NEXT FRIDAY!

things are going crazy, def tired of the bullshit, drama and girls.

You can't blame me.
The boy is gorgeous.

havent wrote in a long while. things have been amazing. Formals coming up, in a week. im excited.
I finally changed to a Tulsa number. Each day i keep getting a little more comfortable living here, but one person inpeticular has made things amazing and so easy for me, and i love him for that. Butt im gonna go. <33

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Formal pics are on my facebook. Go there.

I miss you very much too, and i can't wait to see you, your still the closest friend i have, and no one will ever replace you, i love you to death, and i wish you could come back home, because when i drive by your house, and its real quiet, and theres no welcome lights on outside, i guess it makes mee sad, i love you more than enough =]