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| new journal just in case everyone hasn't figured it out yet you can find me here-----> http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=x__keepwishing | | |
| [[i've been waitnig for you for along time, filling up on heartaches & cheap wine]]
god you think i'd learn? but no, not me, not Danielle Burd. why must i fall so hard. especially for the same person over and over again. it doesnt matter what i get put through my heart always says I Love You even when my minds knows its wrong. im just liven my life in a slow, slow hell...and i put myself there. | | |
| here's my heart you can have it i don't need it no more!
im done trippen over stupid shit im ready to live it up for what i have left of the summer! so this past weekend has been alright, the usual working extra early hours but that leaves fun for the summer nights! friday i worked 5-9 n i didnt do anything but argue with alex on the computer till god knows when in the morning n then i didnt sleep and had to go to work at 7 so i had to get outa bed at 6 and i had noooo sleep so i worked 7-3 and then came home chilled for awhile and then late late later on steve-o called and wanted to kno if i wanted to go with them to allens so of course i did! snuck out very quietly i usually dont take my car people usually pick me up so i was a lil scared but it was all gravy. so i chilled over there till like 2 and then i came home and got online some n then tried to sleep again which i didnt and i had to go to work at 9 so got there it was pretty fun cuz i was between austin and jeremy and there both crazy so i got to get off early at 3 so i came home got a shower and went back to work and picked up austin and we went to his sisters house so we could go get some alcohol and it was 5 and the liquor store was suppose to be open till 6 it said it in big letters on the front of the door but they werent open! so we just got mad six packs of shit n went to blockbuster and then back to his house and was talking to his mom for alittle bit and then we went upstairs n started are night off early then his cousin nate came and we started watching the seed of chucky let me tell u was it freakin retarded it might have been cuz i was drinking but i dunno i wasnt really paying attention and then his mom started making fun of me cuz i was suckin them smirnoffs down like there was no tomorrow n his mom said ima fish not a burd lol so then we pissed his cousin off some way some how  which was fun as fuck if u get my drift lol so then i kinda was about to pass out from lack of sleep and to much alcohol so we went to bed on his little tiny air matress shit n we both couldnt get comfortable so its like 5 in the morning and i made his ass get my some apple juice cuz my mouth was all dry lol and to pop in a movie and see if that would help us sleep and believe me it did i conked the fuck out lol so then he had to get up all early to go to work so i had to get up as well and so i took him to work and he's gonna call me when he gets off and we're prolly gonna chill again. i feel bad for making his cousin mad he was just jealous he wasnt gettin none! haha oh well im outie time to go out to eat wit my moma cita! | | |
| i can't sleep. sometimes i wonder why i let these kind of things get me down so bad. maybe its cuz i have half a heart still so that means i care..for some odd reason? you dont deserve to have me care, you did me so wrong. i hate fake people. which means sometimes i hate myself but oh well there is other people out there that i hate them for being fake more then i hate myself for it. i can live with myself, i basically have to, but you were so fake and i guess i dont have to deal with you any more. hates a strong word, but i can say i hate you. i hate you for all the things your putting me through. it makes me mad that your making me this upset because i shouldnt be. in a way a barely even knew you but yet you were such in impact on my life because you taught me how to be my own person and that it was time for change but now im back to that shitty life and of course i run back to him, even tho i dont need him because i dont have you its the only thing to do. so yeah thanks for hurting me its the least thing i needed right now. enjoy your life cuz i kno i cant enjoy mine. | | |
| i hate you.
i hate you for what you've done to me.
you took my heart and ran with it.
you told me lie after lie.
i didnt deserve none of the things you've done.
i was always there for you.
i did anything and everything for you.
i thought you could be the one.
i thought wrong, but whats knew?
yet again there's a new pice of my heart missing.
because of you im back to my horrible life.
thanks alot you bastard.
i hope your happy with your stupid slut.
you dont deserve to be happy.
i hate you.
i hate you for what you've done to me. | | |
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