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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

 

 

 

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It started waaaaay back when we were in our second apartment. We had no kids at the time. We lived in a one bedroom tiny apartment $325 a month rent (that tells you how small it was) with a pull-out sofa that was used when Mom and Dad came to visit.  They would come for a week or two weeks at a time so that Dad could take intensive classes to get his Master's, and then he started working on his Doctorate. One apartment, three kids, and now this house later, he graduated.

The cool part is that during the weeks of his classes, he would come home and over dinner would talk about what he learned in class that day.

During his graduation (this past weekend)  I kept thinking how nice it would have been to have Jeff there witnessing it.  So that he could see how valuable education is.

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I did not know until I saw the program that Dad was graduating Summa Cum Laude (4.0 grade point average)

 

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Steve's parents.  I think Coco gets her pretty little face from Steve's Mom.

 

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I also enjoyed hearing my uncle speak at the graduation.  Jotted down a few notes..

"Don't spend your whole life looking at circumstances... looking around at what is predictable"

"At what point do you say to God 'No further will I go'?  What are you willing to sacrifice for Christ?  To live for Christ? To lead for Christ?"

At our small group that meets at our house once a week, we had a couple come and speak.  They just came back from cultural training before they head to Peru as missionaries.  They talked about selling their home that was not even a year old yet, selling all of their furniture.  They have to go through every single thing they own and ask "Do I really need this, can I let this go?"  I asked them what was one of the most important things they learned in the cultural training and one of the things they said was this question "What are you willing to let go of in order to minister" and that is not only physical belongings but also cultural barriers. the second was this.

"Just love the people, that is more important than being task-oriented"

 


Monday, May 12, 2008

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

 

Selfish

Main Entry:
Pronunciation:
\ˈsel-fish\
Function:
adjective
Date:
1640
1: concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
 
2: arising from concern with one's own welfare or advantage in disregard of others

 


On the day when I should have  been thinking about my own mother, I was thinking about myself.

 

I woke up already disappointed.

We taught 4's and 5's for Sunday school

4's and 5's for Church

2's and 3's in the evening.

 


Most of the day was spent wondering what it is about Mothers day that I feel I have a right to wake up and expect something.  That I should have a day off from any kind of work.


I think I can blame it on all the television commercials.


It is not at all that Steve disappointed me, it was that I was aware of my own expectations.


 
I am not even going to tell you how great Steve was on Sunday..like how he stationed a boy with a lightsaber in each doorway to keep me out of the kitchen while he made dinner, or anything else like that b/c you would want to smack me upside the head for being so selfish. I was given every traditional thing all women everywhere are given.


Steve was great, he is usually great, the problem is me. I wonder if other women can relate, at church most of the  moms that I asked how their day was,  looked down and mumbled something; one of them cried.  Other groups of moms stood in circles talking about their day like newly engaged women stand around and compare the size of their rings.

I think I resent this holiday because it heightens my awareness of what I think I am due, when on any other given day I am happy and content.  Culture is saying "Wake up, today is the day you are going to be noticed and thanked!"  And in return I feel insatiable and very ugly.

So most of the day passed with me being alarmed at my own selfishness.


But there was a wonderful moment where I thought with clarity how very happy I am to be a Mother and to have a Mother and to be a parent with Steve.


Sprinkled through the day were little acts of kindness,  the "Happy Mother's day" wishes I got that meant the world to me.

The stack of homemade and hallmark cards.


And then...the boys and Coco between them all smiling with their chests puffed out in the proudest fashion telling me that they know what they are going to do for me.  They said "We are not going to burp or fart all day, and if it does have to happen we will do it quietly and not giggle over it."


 Here is the part you know I really am a mother... I teared up. The sentiment got to me.

Steve was behind them with his hands up mouthing to me "It was all them."


And when we were done with the day Steve turned to me and said "I enjoyed working with you, we compliment each other in the classroom it was a lot of fun" and it was so much fun for me as well.

In the end I came back to this..

"There is no middle way.  We must refer everything back to God or to ourselves."

and this..

"It is not by painful reflection, and by continual struggle that we renounce ourselves.  It is only in refraining from introspection and from wanting to control ourselves in our own way, that we become lost in God."

---Fenelon


 


Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Imaginary worlds

 

 

"There are no boring subjects, only disinterested minds."  

                                                                                               --Chesterton

I remember the joy of being delightfully bored when I was young and by that I mean, the time and freedom away from electronics and scheduled events where we stretched our minds and followed our imaginations to fill up the afternoon.

It was an enormous gift of simplicity.

My siblings and I  (there were six of us) can talk for hours about the fun we invented, the world's we created. 

We knew how to daydream.

We knew how to take blankets and throw them over tables and chairs to make tents.

Sometimes it feels impossible to educate my children in the art of gratitude and an afternoon well spent.

 

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"The test of all happiness is gratitude," Chesterton wrote.  We feel no wonder at ordinary things; it is no wonder that ordinary things disappoint us. Chesterton could be made happy by the sudden yellowness of a dandelion, but we do not find dandelions delightful if we are constantly comparing them to orchids. "It is not familiarity but comparison that breeds contempt. And all such captious comparisons are ultimately based on the strange and staggering heresy that a human being has a right to dandelions; that in some extraordinary fashion we can demand the very pick of all the dandelions in the garden of Paradise; that we owe no thanks for them at all and need feel no wonder at them at all." The twin brother of this presumptive attitude is despair, and the two make us sick and tired. "Pessimism is not in being tired of evil but in being tired of good. Despair does not lie in being weary of suffering, but in being weary of joy. It is when for some reason or other the good things in a society no longer work that the society begins to decline; when its food does not feed, when its cures do not cure, when its blessings refuse to bless."

---David W. Fagerberg


Friday, May 02, 2008

Spring Rain

 

 

I stood under it's branches and the wind blew it's blossoms down.  A magical, fairy tale sort of rain.

 

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The soft petals landed in my hair and on my shoulders and covered the ground all around my feet.  I thought maybe I should apologize for stepping on them, or at least stop and pray before walking there like how we teach our children to pray before they eat.

 

 


Monday, April 28, 2008

And here she sits

 

 

 

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 As if it is the most normal thing in the world to walk to the bus stop like this. 

She knows her own mind very well.  When the kind neighbor lady and her husband (who sit on their porch and wait for us to pass) ask her why she is wearing a life jacket.  She looks at them waving into the air in front of her and says in her squeaky voice "Because I wanted to go swimming"  and then she heads off down the sidewalk swimming.



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