life is good

what more can i ask for?

hope ya'll are doin well

most of you are on the brasil trip, very cool

brasil was fun last year, wow, seems like so long ago

be sure to tell me all about it when u guys come back!

hope it went awesome!

~Rach~

Wow, its amazing how u can all of the sudden just miss someone SO BADLY!!!

As i told u guys i have been through a lot this year, but ive definitely changed for the better yay! Lately, this one verse keep comin up all over the place, its something that has REALLY helped me, its 1 Corinthians 10:13, " No temptation has seized you except what is common to man; And God is faithful, He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear, but when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. "  I dont know about you, but there are SO many times when i think i cant withstand temptation, and then i think of this verse and it gives me strength and hope, i have memorized it, u should too! lol

As for today, its raining so that means HAIR DYE DAY!!!! lol no im just bored of my black hair, i really wish i could get it like i did the first time i dyed it...like when i went to brasil, THAT COLOR!! oh well...im gonna try and hope for the best to get some form of cool lookin color..lol... anyways, LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALL!!!

~Rachie-poo~ (lol havent signed myself as that in YEARS!)~

thank you all SO much for your comments they meant a lot to me...

and as to what i want to say...

ITS SOOOO HOT AND HUMID OUT!!! AND OUR AC DOESNT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLUS I WORK OUTSIDE!!!!! ....EWW!!

there...now i feel much better haha

simply, me

*sigh* here goes...

I don't know how much or how little you all know about me.. but this past year i have been really distant from most of you, and i apologize for that, although it was probably for your own good sicne i havent been making the greatest choices....

This past year i have really been trying to find myself, to see if what I believe in is true, if its what i would die for, I have lost a lot of friends in this process...friends who were great for me, but i took them for granted, rejected the advice they had for me, and did my own thing... it kills me to say this.. i wish i could have stayed the way you all knew me, the way i thought i was.. a godly christian... but we all fall sometimes right?

I wont get into my sinful life that i was living, but i will tell you that i am trying to fix what i broke.... ive not only hurt the ones closest to me, but i have hurt myself SO deeply, i often cry bc it hurts so much and i dont think it can ever be fixed... im getting help,(aka counselor) and he is an amazing person... im dion this new Bible study, very in-depth and it is really helping me to see what i have become, why i do the things i do, and how i can change. I guess ive been stripped of my personality by all the things that have happened this year.... so its relaly hard to just not want to stay in bed all day, and not go anywhere or talk to anyone...which is not like the old me, u all know that lol.. i have gone through depression which im getting out of, i was suicidal for awhile..   but thank god i never did anything to myself...

but yeah the whole reason im telling you all this is because i need ur prayers, and i know i havent been a good friend to u guys but i NEED you to pray, to pray that god would give me strength bc i dont think i can get through this without ur support and prayers, u have no idea how BROKEN i am, and how desperately i need help... So please pray for me, i would appreciate it..

Again, i apologize for letting a lot of you down...:'( You are all such wonderful people with such amazing gifts and talents. God has really blessed you all.

I hope i made some kind of sense...

I'm very sorry for hurting or letting down any of you..

Please pray...

Thank you...    ~Rach~