Dear God

Thanks for walking me through all this. And not just walking me through, but holding my hand the entire way. Couldn't have done it without You.

I love You.

Amen

P.S. Thanks for the peace.

100% at Peace

When you feel pretty much at peace with a decision, when is the right time to act on it? How can you be sure that it's really the right thing?

That's really all I have to say right now. Except that I'm also remembering this:

Sometimes the hardest things and the right things are the same.

Is that really enough assurance though? I'm thinking not. I don't know. I could really use a direct answer from God right now, that's all.

Hello, old friend

I sort of miss this place. After sorting through all the annoying application invites on Facebook, it's nice to come back to this quiet place that is anything but busy. The only concern you have is your layout and color scheme. Well, next to what you write of course.

I'm not sure why I've come back so randomly. But while I'm here, I guess I could share about how much I love life right now. I owe it all to J-term. Two classes a day, every day, for a month. It is heavenly. Sadly, there is only one week left.  Still, it'll be good.

Having college applications out of the way is also a plus. And, being accepted into every school applied to is an even bigger plus. Now all that's left are those fun scholarship applications. Woo hoo.

But, the most wonderful thing in life is people, especially the ones you love. And that's why I'm so in love with life, because I'm in love with my people. One in particular. He's pretty much amazing, and for no particular reason. I mean, I've practically been head over heels these past couple of weeks even though nothing has changed at all. I mean, there are the little things, which mean a lot, but still, I can't figure out what it is. Should I really care though? Maybe not. Love will probably forever be a mystery. It keeps it interesting. Haha.

Alright, enough of my girlish ramblings. I'm finished catching up with this little knook for the time being. It's comforting to see that some things never change..

Quick Update:

I'm sorry for being so negligent with this. But it's no longer a huge priority for me. Too time consuming and thought consuming. And those are things I have very little of these days. School takes up my time. Between a full load of classes and all this college junk, I have zero time or energy for much of anything else. But when has that ever stopped me? 

This year is rough. Senior year has not been what it's always been cut out to be. I have a full load that isn't always easy to carry, college stuff being thrown at me from every direction, and on top of that I'm dealing with the loss of a classmate. Not fun at all. I had been doing ok for the past couple weeks. And then a month hit, but I was still ok. Lately though, it hasn't been easy. It must be the time of year. I keep thinking about her family and how awful tomorrow is going to be for them. How hard it's going to be.

Anyways, I'm not gonna go any further with that. Or with anything for that matter. I'm tired and need to have lots of energy for tomorrow. All the family is coming over to Momaw and Papaw's. Lauren's here too. It's been a blast so far and I can't wait for everyone to be together again. *sigh* I love this time of year.

The Beginning of the End

Summer is almost over. I cannot believe that I'm going back to school in just over a week. On top of that, I'm going back as a senior. A senior. Another thing I can't believe. Something I don't want to believe either. While being a senior is gonna be fun and exciting, it saddens me because it means the end of high school: graduation, saying good bye to people for probably forever, and then college. Oh wait, I have to decide what I'm doing with that. I know that I am going to college and I know what I'm going to do in college, I just don't know where. And now the pressure's on to make that decision. I'm not ready to. And -- I don't want to. I'd really just like to fast forward through it all.

Now, I'm sure I'll have completely changed my mind as the school year goes on. In all honesty, I'm kind of hoping for a change of mind. But right now, I'm content to be miserable about everything. Only, not miserable enough to ruin my last year of high school. It's gonna be the best yet!

Hope everyone's been having as good a summer as I have. Busy, but not too busy, filled with plenty of fun things with friends. And family too. They can be kinda fun at times. Hehe. Well, I'm out for now. Have a happy day!