| | Self-help SeminarSince we've established that life never seems to work out the way you think it will, or the way you hope it will, I've decided to take a somewhat broader look at what has happened to me in the last, oh, say 2 months. And despite the unusually dramatic (traumatic?) goings on in my personal life, overall, it's been nothing, if not interesting.
I'm still in the process of trying to patch-up a relationship that was really great, then really weird, then really sad. I've fianlly figured out (though in practice it's a lot harder to achieve) that following my natural tendancy to try to make everyone else feels better leaves me a sort of emotional mess. I don't think that's something I'll ever stop doing, because that's part of what makes me who I am and caring and compassion are things the world needs more of, not less. I have, however, realized that people make their own decisions for their own reasons. Whether those reasons are ever made clear to anyone, even to themselves, is up to them alone. So as far as patching goes, it's up to her and I think she's coming around. That makes me feel good.
And in the meantime, I've put my friend making hat on and discovered some very fun people. A couple are people I've known for a while but for whatever reason didn't spend time with until now (thanks Heather) and some are brand-spanking new! I guess one of my shortcomings, if you can call it that, is that I'm very picky about who are my friends. I mean my close friends. Maybe that's why I refuse to let this particular girl just bail, because, if nothing else, we were best friends for a while there and despite her goofiness, she's a friend worth fighting for. All of my close friends are worth fighting for, and that's why I have to be selective.
So super big thanks to Heather for putting up with me, Stacy for being there when I needed her (as well as curling my toes when I need it), Brando for being my boy, Cecelia for being my new Rascal Flatts buddy, and Samara, Kate, and Katie for being three gorgeous, NOT self-absorbed girls to hang out with. And Em for reminding me how good being in love can feel, even if it didn't work out. 
Lata, nerds! |
There was effort and good intentions... but it just came across allllll wrong.
