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| hey whats up every one not o much here, well i wish i could say that,
there is way to much going on right know, oh where to start. well first
off i realized that i am really in love with someone i mean i really
care for this person and i am falling for her so hard and she knows who
she is. its just that i hurt her real bad and i realize how bad i did,
but in hurting her i hurt myself even more, i miss her so much and want
her back so bad, but any trust that she had for me is gone and i am
trying to show her that she should trust me and that i will never do
what i did to her again, i mean so completely understand why she is so
scared, but i just want to hug her and tell her not to be all i want
todo is love her, i never ment todo what i did and i am paying for it
right know i mean it is like 1
:30 at night and i am wide awake thinking about this person and it is
killing me i miss her so much. i am pryaing to god that everything
works out, cause i honestly dont know what i am going todo if i cant
have her back i think that i would die for real. she is the most
amazing person and i dont want to loose her. "Im so sorry" well i am
really getting shot down for this one it seems like every other gilr in
carlisle high hates me, they think that i am a player and all i do is
hurt girls, yes i may have bad past but damn im sorry, the right
girl doesnt come around that easy and i deff found th right one so all
u girls out there that think i am a player and all that other shit need
to SHUT THE FUCK UP, and u all need to quit makeing shit up about me
please it is really getting old, what is it gonna do but make my life a
liveing hell, the worst thing about it is that the girl that i am in
love with hears all this made up shit and well it makes her think twice
about me and she doesnt need that right know, look we all make misteaks
no one is perfect and if u think u are sorry to break it to u, ur not,
so look please just stay out of my personal life. well my mother is
pretty pissed at me haha that is nuthing new lol. i guess i drank a
little to much last week, i mean i think i even did but i was so
depressed and that is what i thought would make everything better but
anyways, my mom cuaght on and know she thinks i am an alcholic and she
is being gay about everything i wish she would just lay the helll off
it is really starting to get on my nerves but i know hse is a mother an
that is what they are there for. well muhaha shcool is almost over god
i cant believe i am going to be a senior next year that is so crazy,
but it is going to be so much fun i cant wait, this summer should be so
much fukking fun, in hopes that me and emily get back together i think
that will make it so much funn i mean i get my liecense like 2 weeks
after school gets out WOW i cant believe that it is only like a
month away. well haha that is enough balbing for know i just want to
leave with this, I love u E.C.N and always will i hope stuff works out
so
bad.
oh yeah check out copeland they are so good is u are feeling emo
haha <Peace
Derek>
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| hey whats up everyone, not to much here. i havent been up to much just chilling with the boys and doing what guys do. i have been wokring tons also wich blows thonly thing that is good about that is the money i make so much money. well i need to rant a little, ya know i am fukking tired of people talking shit, haha and the biggest shit ever lies lies lies that is all they are ya know, damn what the fuck, i am sitting three seats away from a kid that is a bout to get his face pushed in cause he talkd to much shit y akneo i dont really mind but when he starts fukking the relationship that me and my girl have, yo i loose it, i will not have that. i am going to warm him that he better wtch the fuck out cause he will get knocked the fuck out. my girl doesnt want me to tell this person that i know his littel lies sso i might not beat him down know but when the time come my god. it will be the last time he talks shit on some one agian damn. so, if i loose emily cause of this fuck asss a swaer to you this kid will die i am honestly tired of this shit in every way shape and form so fuck all this.well i am out just to let u know "u better watch the fuck out" love ya emily and sup to all the friends im out mutherfuckers
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hey whats up every one not to much here i am sitting int he library in last period study hall bored as hell so i thought that i would update. i havent bn up to much lately working mostly ringing in the buck that s the only good thing about my job. i havent gotten up to the mountian lately the last time was friday with curtis shit that was a blast hahah brad stoll a case out of some dudes truck we got wasted and went boarding hahah it was narley. i havent relly gotten to hang out with my beauty lol aka emily fir a while know it is killing me but we will chill for sure this weekend im pretty sure we are going boarding sunday so i cnt wait for that well i ma tired of typing so i am going togo back to being bored later everyone leave me some comments | | |
| hey whats up everyone not too much here i am sitting in club bored as hell, god this club is so lame but ohwell i get to chill for a pieriod. well i havent updated in a while nuthing has really happend i went snowboarding a few times over the break other then that i didnt do a damn thing oh and i got to spend time with my baby that is always fun. i am waiting for it to snow they said it is suppose to snow today 4-6 inches but like all the othr storms that were suppose to come and never did i am very doubtful that is even going todo anything . well i am out i am so bored hope we get out early . later | | |
| whats up everyone,
i am so bored right know so i thought i would up date my journal. so nuthing really has happend lately well nuthing out of the ordinary. this weekend sucked hard core. firday i had to work but that was alright i guess i did make a ton of money it was sorta nice but it was busy as hell. saturday i i went to the mall will kyle and his girl and got new shoe's then saturday night me brad and taylor shilled here cause my mom was gone we didnt do anything but we still had funn just being guys haha. sunday my mom came home and found out they had stayed the night and i had to listen to her bitch all day. OH YEAH MY NEW BOARD FINALLY CAME haha it is so freaking cool and i cant wait to use it i am. but what made this weekend extremely bad was the fact i didnt get to hang out with miss emily at all and that fukking sucked i got to see her today but i mean that is not long enough i miss the girl she is so freaking great and i think i found hte right girl and it kicks ass. today was valentines day haha nuthing speacial but happy valentines day baby. now i am sitting here bored as hell i am not tired at all because i came homw and slept today god as much as i sleep u would never think i was tired but i came today and passed out i mean there really isnt anything better todo well there is a five day weekend comeing up i have no major plans other then to spend alot of time with my baby do a little snowboarding haha and relax i think i have to work one day but that is all...... well i am out i gotta go find sumthing productive todo other than sitting on my ass i just cleaned my room and i am going to find sumthing else to clean or sumthing like that haha i am out later | | |
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