Can't believe that you're gone without a trace
I can't believe you got no tears upon your face
While mine is soaking wet
Making up for your lack I guess
Thats how it is, in love, or out of love as I sit now
Without you next to me 
Wishing things that just can't be

It's all that I can do 
Just sit back and watch it all fall through, yeah

It should've so good, it could've been so right
That was before the day forever died
I'm wishing on what-ifs and taking my chances 
That was before the day forever died

Theres nothing left to be said 
Its all been spoken
In spite of words you couldn't find for me
I guess you came out ahead
Now I'm broken into a man ashamed to show his face
Walkin away seemed so easy for you
So why's it gotta be so hard for me
To see that its over when for so long love was just you and me

Its all that I can do 
Just sit back and watch it all go through

It should've been so good, It could've been so right 
That was before the day forever died
I'm wishin on what-ifs, I'm taking my chances
That was before the day forever died.

Should've been so good, could've been so right
That was before the day forever died
I'm wishin on what-ifs, I'm taking my chances
That was before the day forever, the day forever died

matt wertz speaks so well for me.

i can't think straight anymore, because all i do is think, think back a few months ago just how good it was, and i think further back, and realize how amazing it was.  its hard not to think about someone when no matter what, something is always reminding you of them, that special person, and everytime i think of them, i end up at the same place i started, without that one.  These are the thoughts that cross through my head every minute of every day, and i hide them all, all inside, all behind a smile, and im tired of hiding it.  I know that its some what of an "odd couple", but you can;t spend 19 months of your life with someone and not feel this strong about them.  well you can, but that means its not real, but this is.  This is real, and yeah i am 17, and i have so much time left to find another, but right now i know the one i want, and everyone knows who that is,  but i don't care, shes a piece of me, and sge still holds my heart.

The last time i wrote in this thing was the day me and Ann started talking again, and ever since that day I only fall more and more in love with her every second. Almost a year, its been so amazing. I Love you so much Ann!

You Don't blink do you..staring contest righ tnow me and you.  You win..you always do.



I'm Rick James Bitch!

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH ANNIE JOHNSON!!!!!