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Name: neO
Gender: Male
Interests: Smiling, laughing, being silly, coffee, music, nursing, volunteering, spending time with my niece, Kelsey, and nephew, Grady, love spending time with my sweet hot girlfriend that is going to marry me in the future, mm mm mmm, yeah yeah yeah, running around like a chicken with his head cut off, playingmusic, traveling, thailand, arizona, st. louis, hanging with friends and family, and the lsit goes on.....
Expertise: im a flavor juicy filled cup filled with love, with all the right juices yo....hehehe.. :)
I'm a nurse, a musician, a certified world traveler that can be the host for any country, well maybe not pakistan or chili, since the beans that i had eaten there made me a lil upset....:0 As well as having my expertise in making my sweet girl Carrie ever so happy... hehehe... ;) damn that girl makes me super damn happy... i wish she would stop... :)
Occupation: Medical
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
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AIM:  bibbelme
MSN: chuckmarten@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  nineil
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Member Since:
1/20/2006
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| things that make ya go, hmmmm.. So life has been going fairly well! Traveled and worked all over the world it seems like lately! Back for a short time and stuff for about a month and that's it! Back to Europe to finish up, then either off to Thailand, or back to Bali! yeah yeah yeah..
So the thing that bothers me, along with a concern, is that my Xgirlfriend Carrie is getting married! Wow! Fucking crazy! I spent a whole 3 years with her, and she is up and getting married to someone she hardly even fucking knows! Mmm, yeah, thats really fucking smart and mature! Fuck her! I spent 3 fucking years with her, got the ring that she wanted... And you know why? Because i fucking believe in her, as well as us! I trusted her more than anything, i loved her more than anything, and what do i get? I get shit on more than anything or anyone ever fucking has!
Fuck her, shes gonna end up in divorce before you know it! seriously! Wish i just jumped into some shit like that, not~!@#?@% She fucking pisses me off... But i guess I'm glad that I'm so not with a type of person that is or can so be that way! She fooled me more than anyone ever has!
And to have spent well over 3 fucking years with her! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............................
I bet mommy and daddy are proud of her skank ass and upon jumping into a marriage that isn't or doesn't even have a solid foundation of time, love, and all the stuff that so goes with that!
Grow the fuck up Carrie Michele Andrews!
And to think i wasted well over 3 fucking years and to have truly thought that you wanted to marry me, have kids, travel the world, and the whole nine yards! You just so pretended to connect with me?
I so believed in you, and so loved you in every possible way, and was so in love with you... I would have done anything for you.. but i guess you can't do that for others... You're beyond egocentric and selfish! Actually your fucking picture is right in between them! It's called a cunt/slut/fake person/childish/and doesnt think things through, and jsut walks away type of person! Look it up!
sincerely, neO :")
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| karma is such a bitch...this is freaking great...and then some....... tehehe.. :)Ok, this is a monumental evening and then some..... Found out alot of information out tonight.. Too much actually.... But karma has and is finally working... I never knew it could, or that i would find out stuff..... I so love karma!!!! tehehehe..... I so love my friends in life... Score!!!! You are the greatest and then some... You know what? It's very good to know who your true friends are in life, and who sticks by your side, and who so doesn't.... I know who you are!!! And you know who you are...  First thing i would like to state, is that whatever sexual preference you are and upon your sexuality is alright with me...That's just a part of you and is a great thing! And it's your choice and right to be who and what you are in life.... But the thing is, my X-Carrie just didn't have the heart to be honest or talk about anything, because she is now, bi...  Which is fine and dandy..... But instead of putting the blame upon me, and saying you didn't make me happy Neil, then a list of 25 things i don't like about you Neil, lying about me, and to me in every way, and then breaking up with me and making me really sad and depressed, and making out like everything was my fault... Should have just told me the truth straight up and from the get go... Instead of all the Bullshit that she so gave me and made up about me, and said a bunch of shit which was never true.... And to think I was so going to marry this girl? Ohh my fucking god.... Wow, can you say holy shit batman...this wasn't about me, or me being selfish, nor our love, or how much we truly loved eachother... This had nothing to do with me at all....It's just about how fucked in the head she really is in life....There are so many other things that i found out as well tonight... And how she really treats her friends in life, other than me...Goes to REALLY show you what type of person she truly is in life!!!! And now people notice this... Finally!!!! 100 points for karma.... But yeah, how she is way, way too selfish and egocentric.. And how she could never truly be honest with me... And do I want that? A person that is so dishonest even as a friend in life? Hell no, I won't go.... It's all, Carrie, Carrie, Carrie.....It's called an egocentric lying fucked up ho, that doesn't flow.... :) I just don't see how people can treat others so shitty in life... And for my X to also treat her friends like shit... Wow!!!!! Now people are finally realizing the true self and her lies... This is beautiful..... FIN | | |
| things that make ya go, hmmmmm.... So another restless day... On vacation and stuff and traveling some here and there through the Midwest.. Yippy! I don't really miss the Midwest all that much... But yeah.....
I'm still feeling very down to some degree about certain things in life... I am very happy in my life, doing the things i want to do, traveling lots, working lots, pushing myself, learning new things, meeting new peeps, and making new friends and stuff like that... However, my X-Carrie is one of those that really and truly brings me down still...
I really thought that she would want to do something when she went back to Indiana, and thought that she might just start to miss me again or something.... I have given her many chances to possibly work something out, or whatever...... I still do miss her so, and truly love her from within... I shouldn't miss someone like her or even care.... Although she treated me horrible as a friend, beyond anyone ever has done so... She walked on me, took advantage of me, my emotions, my feelings, my inner self and lied to me beyond anyone.. Took advantage of our love, the respect i had, the unconditional love, our future, and the list continues....
Then to take the noticeable fact that she cheated on me many times and so lied to me... The one person that truly believed in her and gave her everything from within for 3 freaking years.. I get what? Zilch.... Well i guess a broken heart and left feeling like shit.. And she doesn't care one bit.... What in the blank........
I know I am stupid/an idiot for still wanting someone like this back in my life.. I am torn, b/c part of me wants her back, and the other part so does not period... How could someone seriously be like this???????
nei nei
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| part deux...
so i get several responses back from my X-Carrie in response upon
emailing her yesterday about things, feelings, and blah blah blah....
what should i do????? Because i still feel for the girl even after she
strung me along, cheated on me, treated me like shit, and the list goes
on.... and yes, i still feel for the freaking girl! So now what???? part
of me thinks that this will so help me, and the other part is thinking
that this will so make me very sad or something like that... so
hmmmm.......
neil,
the only reason i would be willing to see you is to get my things. if you will agree to that then i will see you.
carrie neil,
if you agree to let me have all of my things then i will agree to sit and talk to you for a bit
i think it's an even trade
so you get what you want and i get what i want carrie
Can you say that is not a fair trade period! Or can you say that she is being a bitch???? things that make ya go, hmmmmmm..................
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| mmm yeah...Hmmmm... So my X wrote moi back and stuff today~!?! 
And she calls her plan a fair trade! Mmm yeah not... Her fair trade
crap sounds like a George Bush scandal a brewing or in the works huh?
haha...
Yeah, I feel like she is still fucking around with my
emotions to some degree, b/c she uses the, neil if you still love me
shit, you will then do what i ask.... What in the fuck? She's not
only still trying to take fucking advantage of me, but walking all over
me in every way, with the upmost disrespect..
I so couldn't do
this to anyone.. Hence thats why we are all different in this world,
and some people just do not get it and are very mean.....
This what she wrote :
Neil sorry i have plans for new years and unless we can arrange a time
for me to get my things then i won't come see you....remember it was
supposed to be a fair trade...
Mmm yeah, so her fair trade
was leaving to S. Carolina, saying our love is so strong my nei nei, we
will experience everything together, get married someday, have kids
someday, i got the freaking ring sheso so wanted, and then she pretty
much ups and leaves when everything was fine to great between us... So
where is her fucking fair trade agreement bullshit at?
Should I
trust her at all? She has already betrayed trust and broke it beyond
anything, totally shit on me, walked away, and i'm honestly still in
the love with the fucking girl! I should be kicked in the shins or
something... or what?
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