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Sun, 29 Jun 2008 12:28:48 GMT

So many times I've decided to give up, but somehow you just give me a damn reason to carry on.

I know I haven't updated in a while but I'm just too busy stuffing myself.
School's a mess, and I'm pretty much damned but that's okay.

Why do people bother reading blogs anyway? I have absolutely nothing to say.
I only update about twice a month or less so that explains... everything.

OKAY ANYWAY!!!
Here's a very brief summary of what I did during the second half of the holiday (first half in previous entry)
11th (as you can see above) 2 tuitions
12th went to Down Town East Escape theme park with abi shi phoebe charlene and shermin.
13th went to shu's house with abi. we wanted to catch prince caspian again but there were some..problems. if you remember, abi! camwhored with the mac A LOT (shu i need the peeeeeeeeekz!) and wii-ed the rest of the time, THE SUPER GAYLY GAY MONKEY GAME and Wii sports. Abi and I owned shu's ass at tennis XP But i suck at golf. Hahhha yes no lifers
14-16th three day ground
17-18th morning ame's sleepover! we went to the hist museum (-.-!!!!) for the history assignment and went to funan to get new ear pieces! oh yeah and while we were at funan, we went to times to check out a couple of mags and left. I didn't notice I was holding onto a mag I forgot to put back until we went a few levels up. We went back to put the mag back. It was so gay cuz the sensors went on but we didn't notice and nobody came to like, arrest us or whatever. So anyway, had lunch/dinner at mos burger at raffles city and got a ride from ame's sister adeline and her boyfriend. Her family is so friendly! Watched cheaper by the dozen.
18th afternoon went to cine to meet abi and shu to watch narnia prince caspian again :) Shuying's love for brunettes and my love for blondes! Haaaaaaaaha and abi's love for.... everyone? ;) But IT DOESNT MATTER who the hell we l0oOooOv cuz EVERY FUGGEN ONE IN SCHOOL LOVES EM TOO. And they can't stop talking about narnia. ITS DRIVING ME NUTS. I don't know if that's a good thing though :) I keep digressing...
19th went to shu's house with abi! (we go to shu's house a lot, just the three of us!) watched the covenant. :) It was KIND OF scary okay! SHU I'M NOT A LOSER B) Hahaha.
20th cant remember
21st rockclimbing! with naomi jerusha elanor and tze shien. Mixed feelings :S But i'm official! haha. Shan't elaborate.
22nd HOMEWORK. Went nuts.
23rd School...
Yeah that pretty much sums up my whole holiday.
I owe every teacher so much homework.

Temporarily (or permanently) misplaced my camera cable so with the few that's with me, abi, you just have to wait:)

A cheap copy/paste from somewhere so yipee yahhhhh

Friday wasssssssss.. I don't know. But I can't say anything about it. I didn't go for lovemg...
yesterday (okay techinically two days ago since its past midnight) was mad.
I was literally going insane because there was so much to do.
I woke up at friggin 7am because I had a geeb meeting to attend.
I was supposed to have lunch with sabs neigh and rach khoo but my dad came so I didn't, then sabs went to nicole's house or something... So that's that
Went home, rested , went for cat class with mervelle (bitchingpartner!) then went back to mg for the aloud concert.
I went with Liaun abigail gabbie and nerine. Met naomi and friends and sat down. Wasted $24 on three extra tickets, rip offfff. If it wasn't for prez challenge i'd totally rip off my chest hair (okay fine i don't have that but you get the idea). Okay anyway they had the soloists up first then a break, the bands/duets next then redeeming the riots. Almost everyone was amazing. Some amazing in other fields (e.g comedy *ahem*) but it was still really entertaining. Gabbie was acting like a total moron but it was a night of fun alright. Okay anyway the reason I went was to support rachel lim. And btw she was 0ff dA h00k oggay. Me rachel'z #1 Fangurl!!!!11 Liaun and I forgot to buy flowers for her, sorry for making you wait for our flowers, hahahaha. You ego maniac. So anyway she (obviously) got into the finals which was AWESOME! Saw some unexpected faces on stage too! CHANTAL YOU WERE AWESOME ;) (if you get to read this) Okay I just love to digress! Anyway (I use this word too much) after that liaun went home (WITHOUT ME.) so I had to get a ride from someone else or I'd have to walk home :/ In the end rachel's mom offered abi and me a ride. But my mom came in the end? 0.o So yeap.

Will edit post when I get the pictures all right? I just posted cuz I couldn't sleep and people have been saying I should update and shit. So there you go:) This is such a pointless entry. Sorry I sound so dead okay:o

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This little girl traded her life for misery.
Have you ever felt like going back to when you were a lil kid and you'd run around them empty fields or parks, catch worms and throw sand at strangers and then run off saying 'she did it she did it!' repeatedly? Nothing lasts forever and for all the times I had wished to be 'all growed up' and be able to make my own decisions for my own life, did things the way I wanted to, I now take back all of that cuz it just seems so incredibly stupid. So now as everyone moves on in life, they change into unimaginables in a materialistic world, where exactly can you find happiness? Everything comes with a price. A little birdie once told me that all children are pure at heart and so simple minded that they do things for people because they want to, and not because they want something out of it. And when you grow up, things start changing because you grow smarter. You're nice to somebody because he's of use to you somehow, be it as simple as earning a friendship or the particular candy you've been eyeing that's currently in his hand. There's somehow always a motive behind everything you do, somehow. I don't know what my motives are for doing stupid things I know I shouldn't have done but there's definitely one. All I wanna do is to go back to those simple minded innocent days where happiness is present even when you're fighting with your little sibling or crying for some attention. It's been a very long time since I've felt even a tinge of how I felt like when I was... you know, rolling around in flowery meadows, catching butterflies, (okay... description of childhood a little exaggerated but that isn't the point) without thinking 'hey he's gonna judge me if I don't roll down this hill right'. Cuz honestly, we were too naive to give a shit about what others had to say about us. There was no such thing as needing to be number one and being accepted because you lived for yourself. Ignorance is bliss.

I just wished someone'd be there for Jenny. She needs someone so badly.

Just say it again and mean it,

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 13:37:49 GMT

HAPPY 14th BDAY MUSHDARLING!
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I've posted this picture up before but I really wanna do it again so...

HAHAHAHAHA!
FUNNY SHIT:) I LOVE YOU!
Stop singing tattoo like this! :O

You are soirresistable and luvable and such a coolio toadstool okayB)
Yes toads shit.
ANYWAYS... Though we've only metthis year (okay here's where the mush starts:) it feels like we'veknown each other for many many many (x1) years. I can talk to you aboutanything and not worry if you'd judge me or anything. I can be myselfwith you and you've just been a totally awesome friend. Thanks foralways listening to my probz and all the time spent with you shallremain in my heart 4EVAXxZzxZ. I love you. Oh P/S: PLEASE LA, USE YOURFRIGGEN ROLL ON DEO IN PRIVATE.PLEASE.

OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY...

Sobasicallyyyyyyyy
basically. basically.
Basically I'veforgotten everything that's happened a month agoso...

Alright alright regionals (20-23/06)! Iremember. Oohhhh Yeaaah. ;)
ROCs basically (i've been using basically alot)sucked ballzz like srsly like omg like huh?
So the msia trip everyone'sbeen looking forward to is like.. blehhh. :/
I know like if any teacherreads this they'd go like oh its just cuz you didn't GENERATE POSITIVEENERGY (wtf.) or... you didn't have the heart to learn or somethingalong that line. Ok I'm not gonna complain or anything but seriouslyUGHH what do teachers expect? Our moods were totally ruined by XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX bcuz she was juz being.... UGHH (high pitched)! So much for learning, everything that was going thru our minds during thewhole "learning journey experience" shit was I WANNA GO BACK TO THE HOTEL. Even though we couldn't even step out of our rooms despite having someone you wanna be with vvvv badly being like 10cm away from you. Which, anyway, we did, and got into trouble for. Like every other day. Yes I do pity the teachers but... They could've made the trip a little less torturous. Well I don't want to say anymore so that's all I have to say about rocs.
OMGZ! IT SO COMPLETELY ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY RAAAWKEDDD! WE LEARNT SO MUCH ABOUT REALITY OUTSIDE CLASSROOMZ! I TOTALLY WANNA GO BACK THERE TO LEARN MORE ABOUT SHIT WE DON'T CARE ABOUT!

So anyway...
Corporals Camp (24-26/05) after, yeah like the next morning at effing 7AM, it was... I dunno. 3 days 2 nights, trying to speak in chinese so the rest canunderstand us, having inhumane time limits to piss, waking up at crazyhours... YAY! But at least the beds were comfy! (YES, there were beds!! LYK OMGZ!!!) and the food wasn't that bad (yeah after rocs i totally apprieciate everything I get to eat in sg) Friends made.. Learnt how to responsibilitize (ehhhhh, hahahahahaha). OKAY IN MY DEFENCE I'VE BECOMEA REALLY REALLY RESPONSIBLE YOUNG LADY. :) Oh yeah. Sorry, I'm feelingreally weird now. Oh yeah, missed hillsongs.

Week 1(26/05-01/06)
M: Came back on Monday, had dentalappt.
T: 2 tuitions :/
W: Marnia Square with Ame onwednesday
T: Tea w Ame to discuss our alteregos (ha. haha.)and went to pick up pet supplies. WOW AND PET SUPPLIES ARE VVVVV VV EX.
F: Liaun came over for Rocs proj &went to school to prac. flag raising (we got lost walking to school...HAHA and we both live in the area. Except liaun only lives theresometimes... Yeah.) Of course we didn't exactly do anything. We playedblob wars though, totally addictive. We'd love toshare our... happiness watching boogers conquer each other.Okay, don't click it. It's really boring alone. You have to learn toentertain yourself...
S: Went out with Vionna. Yeah I took thewrong bus so I decided to cab there in the end. Or she'd have to sitoutside subway chewing her tongue/looking at herself in her compactmirror repeatedly until i come or something. I DONT KNOW WHAT SHE DOES (but it's a pretty safebet it's gross and weird).
S: The Click Five Concert! Missed it. Mom -not pleased cuz of a... mishap. So eunice had to give my ticket away(She got five free, I DON'T KNOW HOW.)

Week 2(02/06-08/06)
[You're probably wondering how I remember allthis, ME TOO! Well, actually I put it all down in my calendar. Toldyou, RESPONSIBLE (to blog). Oh yeah. >:) Orsomewhat.]

M: Woke up at four. Wanted to meet J formovie but ohwell.
T: Went to taka/cine to eat + watch movie wShu Abi and Pheebz. It was funfunfun! Watched NARNIA! I just luvluvluvtheir accent soso much :P My heart melted on e spot. :) Came home late.My curfew is too early :/
W: Went to school in the afternoon,met up with abi, shi and gabz. :) Miss em so. It was kindascary.
T: Went to queensway to meet abi and shu. Bought abi'sdancin shuz and lotsa lotsa socks!! We bought like 9. Anyways we leftfor bugis and we bought lots of stuff. Abi and I bought matchingwatches and we were betting on how fast it'd spoil. I bet 2 months, Abibet 2and a half and Shu bet 3. So we'll see. 3 of us bought matchingshirts! Haha gay:) Uh what else... Shu and I bought (sorta) matchingtees... Hmm... Other than that, I bought a necklace, pair of shorts,new wallet, and i can't remember what else (if there's anything else).I left early and they watched iron man.
F: 2tuitions
S: Sleepin day :P
S: Homework day!!YAYNESS!!!!!

Today,
M: Ash and Rach - Whathappens in Vegas. FINALLY. Yes I'm vvvv slow :)
Tomorrow, 2TUITIONS AGAIN! :@:@

Okay I'm done.
GG isnot coming back until Sept. And the finale sucked. But i guess it wasfor the best.
N+S=Totally keeyoote, D+V=Suhweedtt,B+C=AWESOMENESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Pictures are taking a helluva long time to upload. You oweme a cookie :(
4giVe m3 2DaE i'M fiLin a W3edL3 b1tW0oZi3...
Some photos not with me, they're like on facebook and shit, and I dont have fb. So when I get them somehow, yeah you'll see. Most of em are regionals, I have no time to upload all. :/

Totally hard at work.

Pearlyn you ass. She invaded my cam to... camwhore.

Checking out our bloody keeeewl rooms

Hannah and I have barbie combs.

Haha gen...

i forgot what pose this is :\

HAHA GAY! @_@

WHATS THIS?! BABI AND I WERE TOTALLY OBLIVIOUS, THE CAM JUST LOVES US B)

LOL. ACKK KEEYOUTE :P

who's this? O.o LOL

OMG NERINE... YOU FREAK! ;)

Taking picture with me so torturous meh... :|

Ting hui enjoys it ;)

Who?

Ew hannah :\ that's gum. In her teeth. Wheeeee

This is scary.

Okay. this is scarier.

Nerine and liaun were stuffing twisties in each others ears -.-

Ignore facez this is the only pic of gabbie I have!!

Was I constipating?!

My paparazzi B)

YEAH WE ARE TOADALLY KEWL!
Luv u abi!

THIS SCARES ME. AND ABIGAIL LEE PUT IT AS MY PHONE WALLPAPER.

LOL @ PEARLYN.

SOME RANDOM STUFF.

Couldn't resist.

COOL!! Look @ the sky. :D Rainbow eclipse, SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES.... HAHA. Yeah. B)

"Okay seriously how long are you gonna keep this up? Seeingyou like this makes me wanna kick your ass, yes kick it right back ontrack. You can't stay like this forever. You know there are people outthere who love you and they say when you love someone you'll let himgo. Well... Bye for now. I know I'm contradicting myself but you justneed to be yourself again. It's too late (and early) for anythingelse. And ending it wasn't anything rash, i cried myself to sleep for many nights pondering. And thats when I came to that conclusion. It's just not right. You should stop this right now, I'm just not worth your love. Like ash said, maybe we need some time. I don't know, maybe someday our paths will meet. But not right now. Goodbye, J. SBF."

As for you, I don't know what to say. Honestly I fucking don't give a bloody damn anymore. If you don't wanna make this friendship work, then whatever. All you care about is yourself. Yeah well, tell me HONESTLY, do you care for anyfuckingone else? I look through our photos and each photo brings back memories of us, I look through the messages you sent her about me and its like a freshly-sharpened pencil, jabbing through my already-bleeding heart. But that was the past. Right now my heart is immuned to all the shit I get from you, and now it's friggen steel. Yeah so that means I don't give a shit anymore. What ever happened to "We can make this right again."? Why do you keep thinking you're in the right? Right now I don't know where the hell you are because you don't make an effort to interact now. What the fuck is that, seriously. You're supposed to be.. Ugh. Whatever. It doesn't matter. People are waiting for you. So I won't. I'll wave the white flag for the sake of you, for the sake of me cuz I wanna break free from all the misery you've put me through.

THANKS A, EU ARE LYKEEE DA VVVBEST.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Sat, 17 May 2008 11:18:01 GMT

I didn't go out the whole week, i know, worship me:)

Ughhh. I'm in no mood to post cause there's so much going on now, GOD I hope it'll be over soon.
Regionals in 3 days, sometimes I feel excited and sometimes I wish it was over. Coprals' Camp right after that, i'll be missing hillsongs. Sorry justz/rach/ash/can/caro i really wanted to go with you

summary of the week,
01 got midyear papers back, tuition
02 tuition
03 stayback with liaun abi and hanz
04 filming with ame hanz chris and aly
05 breakfast with abi, filming, ame's place
06 XYLS and cat class

Results? Ugh just kill me okay :(
Moz didn't do anything to me but I could tell she was really disappointed in me.
We talked and I felt really really bad. I'm sorry I was speechless but everything you said didn't fall on deaf ears.
I'll try harder for the eoys.

We'll win okay:)
Believe in yourself and we'll win the comp.
And even if we don't, the filming was worth it cause we finally got to spend time with each other ;)
thanks for your comfort ame:)
i will try my best to solve the time constraint problem between the 3 of us
the trip to your house brought back so much memories.

We found the DS after about 3-4 months so I guess I get to have it for rocs:)

Still wondering what to get you on rocs darling (so you can sleep with it:p) iloveyouuuuu:)
bie, hope you're not fretting over the _ situation anymore. at least try to cheer up yeah. always remember i'm right behind you cheering you on:) dude i love you. sorry i couldn't make it tday:)

Shittt okay we don't talk or even text anymore. It'd be nice to have a nice conversation with you once in a while you know, if you have no time for me in school maybe you could give me a call when you're at home or something. face it, our friendship is dying, or is it already dead. for the past few days things were sooo great but just yesterday i realised that i was just a substitute filling in for someone else. dont i have a place in your heart somewhere? my life started to turn around because of you, whenever i'm with you i dont feel the weight of my burdens. only when i'm with you. then just with one facial expression you turned me another 180 degrees, where i first began. and you just left me there. if this is the case wont it be much better if i had never felt happy in my life at all? i dont think bestfriendship is supposed to be this way. we spend ZERO time with each other and it's just so hard to stay silent about this cause you dont know how much i love you and how much you mean to me okay. its just different cause you'd rather be with someone else than with me when i try to initiate some interaction between the two of us. am i that hard to be with? and now all the promises, secrets, fun, laughter, pain and sorrow we shared just seem so far away. seriously i'd rather be an idiot thinking all this was real cuz i just i just dont know what it'd be like for me if it wasnt. its just soooooo fucking hard to forget all of this. it'd mean a lot to me if you'd just stop by to say hi once a while. dude i miss you so much and yes, you dont know how many times you've made me cry. and no, i'm not overreacting over something as small as a facial expression, i've always been thinking like this since the beginning of this year and i just don't know what to say or do to you to change the way we are now. you just mean too much to me and i just fucking fucking fucking cant let you go.

Pictures from my phone, i don't have cable so I used bluetooth which is slow so I didn't upload all cuz i'm lazy.

Cher's phone cam sucks more than mine:)
I have the same phone as V. Stalker.

LOOKIEEE :)

I love you abbie:)

O.o

Ohmysoprettylikeomgomgomgomgomgomg
Haven't been going for breakfasts and sunrises with abi and shi for soo long:(
But at least on friday i got to see the magnificent sky:) the clouds look painted yknw.

Will write a longer update soon, i hope
Gonna cut my hair tomorrow, haha okay?

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Thu, 08 May 2008 11:12:25 GMT

Sorry for the delay again! :D
My week has been really long so far, long but fun, and also really tiring, both mentally and physically.

The midterms were over on the 2nd, and before that was (obviously the first) labour day. Which meant, last-minute cramming for everybody. Since, you know, there was only two papers altogether. We went through the paper just today (8/5), and we're getting them back on monday, the 11th. OMG. Nerrrvous. Heh let's not talk about that.

After the two papers on friday, went out with liaun abbielee hannah and rach. We had lunch at NYDC which frickin burnt a hole in my wallet, haha I was broke k. Rachael left early. Abigail and Hannah were super ahma and bought like so many ipod covers cause they were on sale. WTF?! But yeah. Fiddled with the imacs, which was really fun, especially abigail's box head :) heh umm.. hannah, after a while, it's not that funny anymore. STOP SCREAMING IN THE CHAPEL! ;DD After that, met sabina at wheelock and cabbed back to school. Classroom (and stealing! i still remember, wahahaha) with hannah, then she left. I found liaun and sabina at the squash courts! Training under the both of them, and now I have two blisters (that bled then!) that still aren't off. We ordered dinner but cancelled it cause sabina's parents could bring the food over instead. But the poor guy still came with the food... And left, disappointed. But anyway, sabina left at 8.30+ and liaun sent me home at 9+ :) IT WAS SO... AMAZING, that night. When I came home I got a lecture, when I already told her I was staying back.

Saturday was soooo idk, discovery-ish! Mervelle's my ultimate bitching partner <3 haha, found out a lot of things, and the whole 2 hours we just shared one story for storytime..

In summary,
01: Previous post? I don't know.
02: Tuition
03: Stayback with liaun shi hannah gabbie. Everyone left and shi and i stayed til 7.30 i think.
04: Labour Day, lastminute cramming
05: Midyears & refer to 2nd paragraph
06: Discoveryday :)

This week,
01: A stayback with liaun, Hannah joined. Then gabbie abbie and shi joined. Then tuition.
02: I was supposed to stay back to do zhouji, home ec and discuss the geography presentation, but it didn't happen. The geog was done wrongly cause we didn't have the paper, but whateverrr. Went to town with ame instead. But I was broke, hmmmmm. I came home just in time!
03: To hannah's to see joy, courage and -insert other name here-. Ame came too! It was cool B) TJP, TV, LAB! The mayfair gardens study room is awesome! OMG.
04: Started cooking again, hm. I had to wear a friggin trashbag cause i didn't have an apron, omg. Oh yeah, LA was just, screwed. It was the skit and our whole group went in unprepared and it was so awkward when we had nothing to say at all, while the other groups were really prepared and all. So Mrs Chew's really disappointed in our group. The sec two cohort had to stay back for the going-through of answers for the Lifescience and Chemistry til 4. What a waste of time, they didn't even mark attendance (did they?), so you could've just skipped it. Out with ame again, to the same place! Haha, okay so we were supposed to go to the apple customer service place thingy (haha, okay so my vocabulary sucks,) cause her ipod was fried. And the guy just pressed a button and it was fixed -.- Had a late lunch, then walked around. (tuition was cancelled. haha sorry rach!)

Haha.. I know I blog solely for the sake of blogging and it's just recalling one bit of some days and putting them all into an entry two weeks delayed. But oh well.

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Check these out, don't they look familiar!

I'm addicted the sunrise and sunsets.

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AWW...

OMG ABIGAIL LEE LIKES SMELLING MY SHORTS B)

I don't know too.

HAHA, WHATEVER RUTH.

Imitating Ruth B)

HMM :)

So beautiful. :)

SABBOWABBO! No edits! She's yellow!

Okay these were editted but I swear the sabina one wasn't!

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HEHE, OMG, GABBIE AND ABBIE ARE FRICKING GAY!

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Ruth is so cuuuuteeee.

HAHA OMG.Always weird expressions.

Sorry, tilt. Check out liaun's blue middle finger B)

AME HAS A COOL BAG B)

OMG LIKE TOADALLY LIKE HSM1,2,3,4 and 5 PARADISE, LIKE!!!

Who's this spastic person?!?

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HARD AT WORK :)

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PS: I accidentally deleted some of the 07/05 and 08/05 pictures

Btwww,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL SNG! (050594)
I've known you for seven years already! P2 bestfriend, and keeping me company in gb and all'at. Dear girl, stay spastic as always. Iloveyou! I owe you a present.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! (030594)
Hey :) Haven't talked to you in a vvvv long time and I really miss those p5 days yknow. Remember all the fights and all? Haha, i miss those too. Anyway, happy fab fourteen you
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRRRR-LYNNN! (100594)
"Pearlyn, please observe the safety rules of the lab, put on your safety goggles!" HAHA, YOU GAY. Lab period is fun with you and la, master of pickup lines. "You know why I'm so lame? Cause I broke my legs falling for you" OMGGGGGGenius. :)
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PSPSPSPS SORRY FOR THE SUPER SHORT BDAY DEDS, HEEH.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Thu, 01 May 2008 00:41:54 GMT

I've given up on last-minute cramming,
Let's have a cup of tea and talk about life instead.
Naw, Imma bend the block ya' know?

(LABOUR ON LABOUR DAY!!! WTF.)

Invitation only grands farewell.

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You just drive me crazy :)
Let's stand on table tops and sing everyday together again.
Now I really don't care what anyone says

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you go mad under the influence of benny lavas hahaha!
and your plasters are loved too :p

PS: HANNAH WONG STOP LAUGHING AT ABBIELEE'S BOX HEAD!!

Jealousy made me realise who I wanted and who I needed.
As corny as this may sound, today I realise - I don't care anymore, as long as you're with me, everything's good.

Midyears over (hm, one day of exams.), ponned math afterschool thing, wheelock with hannah liaun abilee rachael, met sabs to go back to school, eating with gabbie nerine ruth corinne, chillinzxz with hanzor (and stealing,haha), found sabs and liaun and attempting to act pro in squash, macs dinner, dancing on table tops with liaun, home at 9, lecture.
i loved today.

(A proper update soon)

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 04:39:11 GMT

Just a short update,
I'm relieved that things are finally working out, well sort of. Atleast now I feel a sense of security. But everything that __ does makes mepeeved, whenever I see her face I feel like gorging hereyeballs out. Why don't you just cut the act and be normal for a bit?You've always been an attention-seeking whore and though people havehave dropped hints for you to stop your desperate cries for attention,you're still making a complete fool of yourself. It's kinda painful towatch so, well, please stop.

I'm supposed to be studyingnow but I don't have notes
I've promisedmyself that I'll study hard but I just can't seem to get my lazy assoff this chair and start studying.
Temptation is not to bemessed with, I promised you too

Guesswhat, I'm taking them off tomorrow afternoon after that i'll be thehappiest girl in the world, toats.
Oh yes, I've created a newfriendster again :)
(http://friendster.com/birdisfly)But it's still lonely, and almostcommentless.
PSPS, GG has started again, finally!
Bitching season starts again, mwaaaaah.

Happy Fourteenth Lexxehhhh
I miss you sooooo much <3<3<3
I haven't seen you since... 06! All the failed meetups, hahaha.
Luvluvluv

Recap,
01: Supposedly studytime.
02: Tuition & Dental Appt.
03: Geebz,badday.
04: Reconciliation with babi temptation &BTP withruthchoy/hannah<3
05: Afterschools with gabz, hanzar,shi, nerine, liaun, abitay. Nightschool with abi and shi

240408 Thursday

Hui meet Hua! :)

250408Friday

BEHOLDDD! HAHA, It's okay,ilyyyynerine!

You'll forget everything, swingswingswing.

The Fall Blows Down,

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 12:05:43 GMT

13/4 Happy Birthday Rach Ng
You're pretty cool for a kid :B
Naw, I'm kidding.
(I don't have a picture with you on my laptop omgomgomg)
Oh wait, I do :P

(Remember this?)

17/4 Happy Birthday Nerine Chewy
You get a big wet smooch from the man. :)

Nobody out-unglams you, not even me :)

20/4 Happy Birthday Justin Kee
Okay, you deleted the one and only picture I have of you just so I wouldn't post it?
Hmph, you party pooper :(

21/4 Happy Birthday Littlesis.
I know we fight a lot, but deep down, I love your fats to the max.

This week has been a total emotional rampage for me, and I don't know why. I'm sorry if I've neglected you, I just didn't want to face the truth of it all. Because if I told you what's going on, I'm afraid we won't be what we are now anymore. I know this is so, so wrong but...

So anyway sorry for the lack of updates lately (again), haha sorry's like the only word I use nowadays..
Um. I can't remember anything. :(

I've been going to school/kap early with shiying and abitay for breakfast a lot lately(: the sunrise is awesome and it's worth getting up early for. :) Well, as long as it doesn't frickin rain early in the morning :@ But anyway, that sums up my mornings for the past two weeks. I have a sudden urge to go cycling. I'm addicted to Marie buscuits.

Hm. Oh yes, I remember! 11/4 Friday, Expo for Planetshakers concert. Omgomgomg awesomeness(:
But before that, Abbie, hannah, shiying and i went to shu's house for a moviemarathon before the concert.
But shi and hannah didn't go in the end...
So we just spazzed with the mac and ate. Shiying and hannah left, and abi shu and i went upstairs to watch a movie.
But it couldn't work so we just talked and talked :) it was nice.
after that, we went to change. We were already late but we were still eating(:
we got ariel and rachael to reserve seats for us and we came in the nick of time. :P so yeah, the concert started and it was awesome.
The energylevel was just so high that everyone started jumping around and screaming like mad pigs. Even with the pumping music, God's presence was so overpowering everyone just lost themselves :) thanks for the tickets abbie!
The concert ended at 10.30? Mrt'ed with ariel shu and abbie.
We were damn tired so we just sat in the middle of the train and tried... to sleep. Ariel's mom took abbie and me home. I reached at about 12.45? :)

Saturday was XYLS and catclass aka Mervelle time :P HAHAHA i love my loser :)
We had this conference thingy on Sunday. Over enthusiastic parent helpers are funnily strange.

So monday.. We had this surprise thingy for Nerine's birthday :)
Hannah and Phoebe were supposed to distract Nerine for like an hour going to daiso/spotlight.
So abbie shu lizzie and i were like preparing all the other stuff like buying the cake and all.
I can't remember what we did then... But i remember i got busted for eating kfc :/ rawrrrr.
So we went to pizza hut aka phoebe's hot house to wait for them. It was so fun getting ready t surprise her. Abbie and i hid under the opposite side's table. :) and there was this mirror thing by the leg of the table and when I bent over to check, I saw myself and screamed. :( so after that they came and liz left for tuition :( but five minutes later she came back with justinmao and his friend. Haha nerine's reaction was gay! So after that, we ate. I spilt coke on myself D: after that, we left. and ate more :) then sat at macs and everyone left... Sent hannah home as we...talked :)

There was no gb on wednesday :) hahaha, oh i mean.. :(.
2.4 run. Omg, i hated it :( i was pacing with nerine but i think i slowed her down :( the first four rounds were great and all, but i started coughing by the fifth round. phlegm. rawr. but anyway, it was okay. everyone passed! :)
As usual, stayed back in school, practised napfa, i guess. Played badminton.. Why's everyone playing badminton so much these days omg.
liaun hanz shi abbie gabbie ruthlee corrine = after school badminton gang
Hannah Shiying and I stayed in school until 7. I got to watch the sunrise and sunset that day B)

Thursday.. Napfa! It was okay i guess, after that played more badminton haha, everyone's addicted can.
Thanks for cheering me up a lotttt gabbie. You are the best gossip partner and cheeryuppy partner :) i love you! in a lesbian way hahahaha! :P

Friday friday... I hated friday.
At least I got to spend my afterschool time with my dear :) my babi :) my temptation :)
I love you temptation
2.30 - 4 @ Kap with ariel & viv, they were filming some advertisement there and we so wanted to walk past and mouth "hi mom" to the cameras, but we couldn't :(
4 - 5.30 @ 2S :) Singing hahahaha, or so it seems :)
6.30 - 8.30 @ XYLS. Vionna ditched me. Ass. :@

Cat class today.
I passed my sickness to mervelle :)

Mamamia!
Pikzxz

AFTER SCHOOL'S.

ABBIE :)

O.o

Shiying is so act cool... :P

Abbie is sleeping! ;P

Planetshakers Concert :P

totally ignore shu's and my face - look at shiying! HAHAHA! at least she is not acting cool. :P

The stripees :)

The white thing is abbie's math textbook O.o

Peace and quiet...

...OMG.

Mervelle!

PLAZA SING/Nerine's birthday thing.

Hahaha XD

hehehe :)

Shu robyn hannah

Sunrises (:

Abbie likes to dance.

Okay, look at their diets!!!

-.- GAY CAN!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Sunsets(:

Check out them magnificent skies.

Remember, J?

Hehehee, vivo!

Filming B)

I realise I always spend 2 hours on every entry.
:S and I sound so... slow and steadyish today.
Strangeeee.

Oh, it's sunday!
Happy birthday Kee :)
AGAIN.

Who Put Papaya There?!

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 11:11:06 GMT

I miss my ipod :(
Oh hannah, i was kidding about losing my ipod, it just exploded.

My laptop just suddenly crashed so I'm rewriting the entry.
I wrote a full entry okay, frickin laptop :@:@:@
Oh yes, my right foot is injured. Knife and sister's braces. Ouch.

Anyway, I hate recapping. I always forget what happened a week ago (i usually update once a week [or somewhere along those lines], in case you haven't noticed) Darn, i think I should update more. (I'm starting to be too lazy to blog on birdisfly) Okay, I'm too beat to totally rewrite everything, so here. Copied+Pasted from BIF :) Of course, some were deleted because... idk. If you've already read it, then just scroll until you see a giant ()

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Thursday, April 3, 2008 @3:59 AM

Uhm, as i was saying, school? I changed seats with liaun. I sit with shu now, and ting+gen are sitting behind us, they can't stop talking hahaha. shu didn't come today, so joie accompanied me throughout the day, she is awesome shit :)

Recess was fun, ran two rounds, played basketball at the tennis courts with gabs/ruth/corinne/lizzie/shiying(...kinda). Omg, why am i so detail-ish? OK i shall stop now, it's scary isn't it? Oh yeah, PW was awesome, liaun and her total bimboticness "like toad-telly la!","OMG like SHARDDARP?!" It's barbaric yet bimbotic :)

Okay, uh after school was fun too :P Played more basketball, badminton and trained standing broad jump (i seriously suck at sbj) it didn't work though i'm a total n00b rawr. after that gab/abi left for tennis, corinne left, ruth left so hanz and i went upstairs :) the classroom is sooooo frickin scary when the lights are off and outside is raining la! I unintentionally scared hanz (or is it intentionally :]) and she scared me and i scared her back P: When she screams, I scream. Plus the lights that hang by the thin thread thing and uh, telephone line wires were swaying like crazy and her phone kept switching off by itself even though its not out of battery :/ the light only stopped swaying when we switched on the lights O: It was crazyfun. Haha, i love you hannah bestie (hehehe i'm special in your phone)

I think I should reply my tags soon :(

OMG. MY FRICKIN IPOD CHARGER TOTALLY SCREWED MY IPOD.
WHY TODAY! :'( NOW IT'S TOTALLY FRIED.

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Wednesday, April 2, 2008 @7:02 AM

Okay anyway, i need someone to tell me any amassing places to go to with hannah. it's not going to be superficial, because it's gonna be my hannah time! hehe. go me.

I feel bad for our teachers.
I feel annoyed because I was ___. But that's just selfish, whateverrr.

Today?
Met shiying at KAP at six, ate,gossipped,shat. Went to school (and had to run because of !#$% gabbie, rawr, she wanted mr chong's cake so bad) and shat more... School was shit. It was a real bore. We celebrated Mr. Chong's birthday and everyone (as in the other classes i guess) thinks we're despo. Haha, oh well. Whatever. Why is the whole class dragged into the situation anyway, just cause a certain someone is a bit too enthusiastic about mr chong. :) hah. School has been shitty these few days, I've been saying that a little too much. I don't have much of a life do I. School, Home tuition, XYLS tuition, JTY fun. But anyway, after school was Sabs/Rach/Naomi time! Hah, damn gay. Uh, yeah. Ruth (Gan) has gay jokes! Naomi is just... gay. OMG I HAVE NEW JOKES!

Why do I always put the blame on others when I am obviously part of the problem? This isn't working.

What should i tell you? You are like a helpless nestling which just fell off its nest, waiting for someone to pick you up and I can't do anything about it. I apologise if I hurt you. I just can't find the right words now, the feelings then and the feelings now are different, and I don't think we can ever be what we used to be.

Why am I always getting angry with you? Is it jealousy? Or do I really secretly hate you? I don't know what I feel anymore, but I don't think it matters. I'm striking you off my list for now, for the both of us, because I can't go on like this anymore. We'll take a little break, a break that you know nothing of, and see how it goes. I hope you won't question. I know I love you, but I don't know how to love you.

PS: Two different people.

JTY FTW :D

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Okayyyy, uhum friday. Swim finals.
It was scorching hotttt. Hannah and I kept going to the toilet to cool off :) awesome.
We stayed for one and a half hours or more. And everytime we went there we'd see cheryl. And um, sherilyn and friend. No private time in the toilet. HAH. So after that we came out and i got ambushed by liaun. She spreaded green face paint like the way you'd spread kaya on your breakfast bread. After that i got rachel to draw a smiley face on my face with blue facepaint. I didn't realise I looked like a total freak until much later. So I was walking around the swimming complex looking like a total tard. Rachel is a bad face painter. After that courts & lunched with amelia and alyssa. And home to exercise. My tighs are all aching like shitttt. >:@ Plus the injury, it's double the pain.

Had XYLS today, and we finally got to spend time with claire after class :]
Cat class with Mervelle. We were late and I didn't bring my phone damnnnnn :/ So i had no frickin idea where she was, and what time it was so i kept waiting like a total retard. Dude I hope you're feeling better! Love you gayshit.
Pool madness with jty. Shan't elaborate :)

Before you get to see the pics, birthday dedications!
2/4
HAPPY FAB 14 NEIGH!

(Insert picture once I get it from you. [I don't have any of our old pictures in this computer, unless you want the super candid one of you at kap, but hm. you'll try taking your revenge again])

I've known you since.. we were like, ten, which wasn't really long ago but still, you've been garrreat! It's been real fun knowing you, really. You make me laugh at anything, even your stupid jokes. It's just the way you say it. We really click you know! Hah, thanks for always being there for me. And through all those times with... ahem, though they might be the downs in our friendships, we have our really high (as in, ups, you know?) moments to make up for all of it. Remember in p5, ms wong and her stares? haha, i remember you keep laughing at that, even now. and um, the limo with a spa and arcade inside which turned out to be some rundown old vicky? hahaa. good times right? and gossiping all the time. and in p6 we used to call each other a lot and not talk at all? like when we were watching hm, all those singapore chinese shows we'll only talk during the commercial break but we'll still be on the line? super funny. hahaaaaa. but after all this reminiscing, the bottom line is, i just want you to know that i loveeeee you tons and tons! You are a bucket of fun and don't ever change. <3 PS: Sorry your present was late. Hope you liked the postits, haha.

Happy 34th (i think) XYLS!
<3<3<3<3

Now the picsssss!

Um, super late photos from 28 feb (the celebration) haha.
Finally received them from joie -.-

Okay some swimfinals photos (send me the rest guysssss)

Who's this?!

It was supposed to be bimbotic :)

Small eyes :]

Haha I look spastic. Lee Olson Lee L.O.L.
Small eyes :]

Omg, scary huh.

Hannah meet freak. Freak meet Hannah.

XYLS

2 Blur Pictures (Faulty Camera)

There's only one unglam picture of you, V.

Wrong? Huh?

Haha, totally gay right? I dont have any more pictures because theyre all so arrglieeeee

The rest are with rach, i think.

Mhmm to end off, isn't my cat the cutest thing alive!!

I'm really tired. What a long post. Vionna has been waiting since 9. or 8. That makes it at least 2 hours of waiting. :)

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 06:00:32 GMT

(edit)
check out http://birdisfly.blogspot.com, because its amassing (say the word out loud)
it's not a replacement, i'm keeping xanga. solely for tagboard revival purposes.
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~~I guess I'm out.~~

~~I don't know what to say to you, because sometimes you're wonderful (and i mean, wonderful) and sometimes you just fucking don't care. So, guess what, I won't care either.~~

Though they conforted, it's not the same when i can't tell them what's wrong, because mainly, they're part of it. And the one thing i hate the most is to be pitied. I'm afraid of what you're gonna tell me when I tell you about it. I'm afraid of how you're gonna change just to make me feel better, especially if it's just cause of sympathy. I don't need it.

~~And robyn, you idiot, why did you breakaway so fast? You were supposed to hold them a little longer. Loser.~~

SUPPLIES!!!! CHICKEN NUT BREAD!!! HAHAHAHAHA

Hannah says I'm embarrassing to be with in public HAHAHAHAHAHA
HI TIM!!! ...(EYE)!!! HAHAHA