nerdy_emo's Xanga

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 21:02:52 GMT

Xanga is over. Livejournal is here. IM me if you know it. Holler. Goodbye sweet lovers...

xXx-sam

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Sun, 21 Dec 2003 22:33:53 GMT

::swoon::

xXx-sam

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 21:14:04 GMT

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"I love you too. My heart..."

I'm sore. I'm tired. But Danielle makes it all better. ::swoon:: Too tired to make a long entry. The vehicle is a goner. She's fucking dead as a doornail (actually, the passenger side is completely dead). So, insurance covers it all. It's just a material thing; that's my outlook. Just as long as no one was seriously hurt, it's all good. Better the car busted than me. I'm out. I love you all. Thanks for everyone being happy that I survived. <3. All right xanga sluts (I am one, too), call the cell if you need me. <3.

xXx-sam

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Wed, 17 Dec 2003 21:01:15 GMT

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I used to hate cell phones, now I hate car accidents. Literally. Today was supposed to be great. Amazing even. But no, the cards couldn't fall like that:

The new "Lord Of The Rings" film came out today and of course, seeing that my friends and I have to be the hottest people ever, we got tickets for opening night of it. I leave classes early to go pick up the tickets then to return to school, pick up Cary, and go to the movies. On the way home, some fucktard pulls out of his driveway, which is in a blind spot on a curve, doesn't stop before he pulls out, and is going nearly 45. So, knowing my luck, of course he hits me. And me and car bounce across to the opposite side of the road, into the ditch. So, now nearly the entire passenger side of my vehicle has been destroyed. I am fine: my left side hurts, my leg got cut, my wrist is a little swollen, but all in all, I am in one piece. The police officers said that if it had happened to the opposite side of the car I might not have lived. I never got to see LOTR.

I'm really too tired to even be writing this right now. I just got home a little bit ago from the doctor, called Danielle to tell her where I was and how I was doing.

You know what is weird? The thoughts that run through your mind rapidly just as something awful and dangerous happens. Strange things. I guess the things that mean the most come to mind. I am off. I need some rest. Only two more days of classes and then it's some much needed time off. <3.

xXx-sam

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 22:15:31 GMT

"They will see us waiting from such great heights. 'Come down now', they'll say. But everything looks perfect from far away, come down now, but we'll stay."

Danielle like whoa <3. Melissa mad at me like whoa. Wind ensemble ruling like whoa. eBay. School. Winter break. Working in the ER. Everything is suddenly coming to a head at once, so to speak. I'm drowning in everything. Someone please come and teach me how to swim...

xXx-sam

Monday, December 15, 2003

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 21:26:19 GMT

"I break in two over you."

Today In A Nutshell:

-Melissa crying/pining away for me at Will's apartment: We spent a lot of the afternoon trying to figure things out. I'm not sure where to go from here. Thing is, I am with Danielle and incredibly happy. Confusing situation to say the least. She cried. Ran over to Will's stereo, put on "Autumn's Monologue", cried some more, told me the song was like her and me, and ran out of the apartment, trying to take a walk and get away from it all. I haven't seen her since. ::sigh::

-Stupid cunts in band (wow, I hope a certain stupid one reads this)

-Flood in history

-Realizing that people who talk about drinking a lot are losers (and I am not talking about laura; someone else, who I hope reads this)

<3. I'm going to run. Enjoy the evening sweet lovers. More Later, Much Love...

xXx-sam

"But you don't see me, you don't."

Sunday, December 14, 2003

Sun, 14 Dec 2003 20:57:07 GMT

<3. That's it.

xXx-sam

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 20:44:49 GMT

"From such great heights we tumble down..."

Long awaited update. I've been way too busy and things have been way too hectic for me to update. So, here I am. School is going well. Classes are going just fine and the winter break is coming quite soon, so that will provide a much needed respite from the drudgery of the normal routine. I've been spending a lot of time with the crew recently, especially Will, trying to figure some things out about life and relationships. Melissa and I talked again. I'm not exactly sure how that solved. We spent 7 hours talking and the conversation seemed to go nowhere. So she and I are just kind of stuck in this state of "suspended animation", so to speak, and we don't know where to go from here. So yes, let's see what else is up:

~I have the flu (sorta).

~Fashion Show downtown

~Uncontrolable spending, on my part, on eBay

Oh, and before I leave to try and get some much needed rest and to take some sort of flu medicine, I will leave you with a heartless, shameless, spineless plug for a great, truthful article written by a great person (read it please; what she says, although you may not want to hear it, is quite true):

Exerts from "Setting The Pace" by Pace

"All right, there comes a time when one is presented with a juicy opportunity unleash fury on a topic close to home. This is my opportunity: relationships are ridiculous, and I recommend having them and experiencing horrible pain from them, because it's by far the most refreshing slap in the face you'll ever experience... One can learn a lot from mistakes and one can really experience some serious emotion, serious love, serious physical connections, and yet it all comes down to one thing: we're in high school, therefore no matter what relationship it is, it's generally a sad joke and doomed to end miserably...relationships, at this age and perhaps any age, are a cruel practical joke on our feeble minds and delicate hearts...eliminate disappointment from your life by accepting the inevitable and never forgetting that in ten years, none of this will even matter."

Couldn't have put it better myself. Good job. I am off. Tonight, I think I'll be as mindlessly cliched as possible and listen to the old standby Dashboard Confessional. How trite. More Later, Much Love, "For You To Notice Me"...

Monday, December 08, 2003

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 21:21:41 GMT

~Diesel Jeans like whoa.

~Danielle like whoa.

~Hott stuff from eBay like whoa.

Damn, my life is hott. Leave me some hott eprops and comments. I'll restart with the gigantic entries, as usual, tomorrow. I am too busy/tired/happy to write anything long as of right now. <3. More Later, Much Love, "Thy Horror Cosmic"...

Saturday, December 06, 2003

Sat, 06 Dec 2003 22:54:05 GMT

"She said that she could explain..."

Madrigal Dinner tonight, like whoa. What are the odds: A jewish boy going to a Christmas event. Craziness. Haven't gotten any sleep recently. Confirmation last night. Then Maeve's. Was on call at the hospital by 4 AM. Shooting victim. And now I am tired. And, I sat down with Melissa and she and I talked. Didn't solve anything. Just complicated things more. Please help me. Tell me what to do. Damn, I need to be at that cast party with Danielle.

Short entry tonight. I am too tired to worry about writing all kinds of stuff. So, leave me lots of sexy eprops and comments. Good night sweet lovers. <3. More Later, Much Love...

"Put on whatever makes you attractive. If it's not you then do it for the sake of fashion."