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Name: Kristen
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 2/18/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: babysitting, bears football, being spontaneous, blue, board games, camp forest springs, church and camp ministry, coffee, clarinet, diet pop, going out to eat, green, growing in my relationship with my Savior Jesus Christ and falling even more in love with Him, hanging out with my sisters and friends, ice cream, i’m pretty much an expert at laughing, kids, lifeguarding, making jewelry, movies, music (playing/listening), olympics, orange, perfume, piano, pictures, sarcasm, shopping, skiing (water/downhill), snowboarding, stamping, summer, surprises, taco bell, theatre, the beach, the family, working out, violin, volleyball...you
Expertise: hmm.. well i hope it's going to be music. but i would like to be an expert at lot of things.... but more importantly i want to be a fully devoted follower of Christ
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  SnMBlondie
MSN: netsirk18
Yahoo:  netsirk18
Member Since:
3/22/2005
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| disappointment... againI only seem to write on here in my times that I am most depressed. I'm not really sure why, but it's somewhat of a relief to me. hmm.... Have you ever worked so hard for something, and then just fallen flat. That's exactl what happened tonight. I feel like such a failure, so worthless. All the time I commit to it and spend on perfecting things seems... all for nothing. It's too late to turn back, but am I just fooling myself? All I know is... it hurts. | | |
| Thoughts...I think I just need to get a couple of things off my chest. Am I the only one who feels like they may have bitten a little more off than they can chew?? I always find myself swimming in a sea of ensemble rehearsal, practicing, class, practicum, homework, concerts, work, recruiting, forget about a social life, and even meals. I've really just put away the idea of a relationship for right now because I don't have time to make the commitment. The desire is there, but I feel like I can't put the effort that a relationship really deserves right now. Is it wrong of me to completely put this idea out of my head and not even let the thoughts seep in? I think I'm scared of feeling venerable and maybe I'm a little afraid of commitment. I like my freedom to do whatever. Hmm... I think some people just think I'm psychotic and there are others who think I need counseling. I think I need to listen to what the Lord is telling me, so I can keep some sanity in my life. | | |
| haha.. I finally updatedWow... So, it's definitely been a while since I've updated. I would go to enter something, but I kept putting it off and putting it off. ahhh... So, here I am not putting it off anymore. hehehe I guess for an update on my life. Well... I guess if I had to put it into words it could be described as... I can't really put it inot words. I just got back from a part of the volleyball game, which makes me miss it incredibly much. I also have guilty feelings in the pit of my stomach because I haven't practiced clarinet today. hmmm... I hate skipping days, especially when I know juries are coming up next month. I guess I just have no motivation to do much of anything right now. I'm sitting here at Larsen desk, surrounded by my books because I have a research paper looming over my head, and I just can't seem to make myself open up Word and start typing. I also have to apologize to everyone. I've been a terrible friend to most everyone. I know this seems really lame, but I am sorry. I'm working on it. I guess sometimes I lose sight of the things, people, stuff in my life that should mean the most to me. Do you ever have those days were you just feel off? Like nothing you ever do is right? And no matter how hard you try, you'll never be good enough? I've been trying to committ all thses things to the Lord and give it over to Him, but it's a battle I often lose. I need a fire lit underneath me both physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Sometimes being stretched is the hardest expeinece a person can bear. Well, I don't want to drown all of you in my sea of pitying myself. hehehe I'm actually awesome most of the time, and once this semester is over, I think I'll be breathing a bit easier. OOOhhh camp people will appreciate this one. So tomorrow, when I go to my school I'm doing my experience at, I'm going to try the chocolate factory initiative game. It should be a grand time.I hope it goes over well. Maybe we'll do a little bit of black magic... who knows. hahaha Well, I should go. I will close with this. I love the smell of the air after it rains. I love Indian summers. I love my teacher Dr. Hopkins. I love the romantic period in music. I love to run outside on the track. I love the butterflies you get in your stomach when you meet someone special. And most of all, I love my Savior Jesus Christ. Verse of the day....Deuteronomy 6:5 I love you all! Peace out | | |
| well... i think it's about time i enter something
hmmm....
one birthday party
one week of summer school
2 more voice lessons (woodruff i am sad... i will miss singing hey.. hey.. hey and german and italian) just so everyone knows.. dr. neal woodruff is a fantastic voice teacher.. and i guess i had better throw in orchestra director as well
one wedding
and whatever else i feel like doing
then... CAMP
i'm excited but i have much to do before then
on another note...
i made chocolate chip cookies today... i miss my close friends from school very much...it was 92 degrees today (and i loved it)... CSO is amazing... and swimming is probably one of my favorite forms of exercise
God is good...
all the time
have a wonderful summer all... i know i will be enjoying every minute of counseling at camp
ps... verse of the day
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Proverbs 16:3 | | |
| oh xanga....
i never write on you anymore | | |
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