The EndMy roommate Julie and I for Lent have given up all beverages except for water. It played out like this... Tuesday: broke up with my girlfriend Wednesday: drank my usual four to five diet cokes, cried a lot, agreed to give up non-water bevs. Thursday: Crying only worsened and magnified by ten hour caffeine withdrawal headache Yesterday I was so hungering for a coke zero I half-jokingly asked Julie if I could mix two coke zeros with ice, blend it, and eat it with a spoon. I miss things that are both sweet and cold at the same time. No ice cream in the house either. And that, xanga world, is the last thought I will share on this blog. After attempting to maintain both this site and my fledgingly myspace for two months, I'm finally switching over completely. My last ten blog entries have all gone up over there instead and most people who read my xanga have myspaces anyway except perhaps Peter and Luke. Okay one last thought: if I had written this at any point in the last 36 hours and you had asked me what song I was listening to, I would have said the same thing: Paperweight by Joshua Radin featuring Schuyler Fisk. First heard it Sunday evening and played it probably 20 times in a row, till my roommates asked me to stop cause they knew it was only reinforcing my sadness (I was very sad). Then I played it on the bus to work the next day, on the bus ride home from work, and while running it was 6 of the 11 tracks I listened to. At least ten more plays this morning at which point it had become soothing and happy. Finally I allowed myself to listen to other songs from my Valentine's Day mix CD. Seriously though, the next time I synch my ipod it will probably show almost 50 listens. This places it with Goodnight and Go by Imogen Heap and Fidelity by Regina Spektor as the songs I have most obssessed over in the last four months. That's it. Much love. Come visit me on myspace anytime. Newjerseyrefugee out. | 
