Where i'm at in my mind is another place that i'm at in reality. It's always a hard reality to step my feet onto the ground after a nap and day dreaming on my big bed and security of locked doors in my room. I trip over my disaster on the floor and open the doors.

Today I worked on my photography lesson and I only have one more left to send in. Then I just have the projects to complete and send in and i'll be finished and done with that. I looked through beddings and such for my apartment and think that I found the one that I want, what do you think? I'm spending my own money on my apartment and school for the rest of my life so I might as well get what I want now, shouldn't I?

I'll probably order it sometime this week. I like the whole set. and I was thinking about ordering this for my bathroom set.

Both of them.

It's a shame, but they're officially far from accurate.

Today was my last real day of class for Summer I. The finals are on monday and I already know I have no help in the world of passing algebra, but if I pass eco test i'll be set in that class. Then i'll just retake algebra in summer II, and have two things behind me; at least.

I didn't think i'd be sleepy tonight cause I slept all afternoon, but I am pretty tired right now, it's only midnight. I remember when I used to stay up real late and go hard at all hours in the morning... I am an old woman! lol

I am scared to move to Huntsville... I am looking forward to having my own place and all, but the fact that I don't really know anyone is lerking in my mind and making me paranoid. Well, I know Matt, but he's not exactly going to be my best friend to say the least, but I hope I find someone I can hang out with or party it up with sometimes. I know i'll have kristy in college station... So at least I have that. I'll be studying alot anyways I won't need alot of friends and stuff.. Everyone says that's all there is to do there is drink and party, but I don't really want that to be my scene. I wanna pass and move on from that stage of my life as fast as I possibly can. So far the handful of people (guys) i've met there haven't impressed me a single bit, and I always thought i'd meet my soulmate in college. lol. But, I guess I need to quit pre-judging my notions of the place before I even get there and just take it day by day. I can always come home on the weekends. And sarah will come visit and kristy is in college station.... I haven't been hanging out with much anyone lately so why I think i'll need someone up there boggles me a little. I'll be fine. I just can't wait to be done and get a real job and start living life... I hope I find somewhere to share it with... No one I have met yet has felt right, or has felt right forever and not just for a moment or two.

I did have fun with a male tonight, shocker there. It has been awhile since I went out with a guy (as friends or anything for that matter) when I wasn't disgusted or annoyed or felt like he only wanted one thing. I had a good time... and it was fun.... and there was its nice romantic moments and I definitely didn't mind be next to him, my back pressed against him and leaning my head back with the wind blowing and being high above the ground. It was nice and relaxing and for the first time in awhile, I was genuienly turned on, lol.

I keep hearing phones ringing. Ever since we got that call that said memaw passed away, I've been hearing phones ringing all the time when i'm at home, almost like my brain is expecting more bad news. Although it was good news that she passed on to a better place and time and new experience and journey, gosh I bet she's having an absolute ball. I wonder if she can see down here, I sure hope not, or I am in BIG trouble!

My tongue is red, I had a cherry apple slush before I went out then finished it off just now (it was just the flavoring, it had melted) now my tongue is red again :) haha, little bit of useless information no one really needed to know :)

G'night! <3