| fucked up dreams
this is the second night of fucked up dreams. it started off when i got into a car accident. i thought everything was fine. time passed and my dream moved to me walking around trying to grasp shit. funny thing was. i couldnt hold onto nothing. i couldnt feel nothing. i couldnt touch nothing. then when i took off running i learned to fly. that shit was intense. i pulled a loop and i could almost feel the sensation of the g forces pushing on my legs as i flew. i got down and saw rosie. i went to give her a hug and for some reason i could feel. i could touch her. i tried running in front of her to fly but i couldn't. it just look like i jumped. then when she left my dream i couldnt touch shit again. thats when i realized i had died in the car accident. i went to tell my dad and he was surprised to see me. for some reason i told him that the accident was worse then i had thought and that i had died in it. he then replied by saying " thats why i havent seen you around as much, " and started to cry. i woke up hysterical. i dont understand this shit. this shit stopped when i decided to stop callin rosie for a bit. i dont fucking understand. i cant sleep. insomnia is to my condition is as cough is to pneumonia. fuck it i guess. ill have to see what happens tonight. |
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| november 2 / 3, 2004
having you lay there next to me last night
having had you in my arms
having me hold you
having that first kiss
having you ready to be my girlfriend
having you as my girlfriend
its all been a dream
and then i got out of bed
its was a dream
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| Happy Halloween Errbody!!!
Have fun but stay safe. |
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| realizations
the more and more time i spend with you the more and more i realize how beautiful you really are. seeing you yesterday in your homecoming dress has made me think about you nonstop. its been nearly twenty four hours and i still cant get my mind off of your grace and elegance. damn rosie. sometimes i really wonder if i'm sprung on you or not. |
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| mon.oct.18
i just woke up when i started writing this. i dont know why but for the past couple of days i have been having massive trippy ass dreams. just right now i had a few. i can only remember the last two so i wanted to write them down so i can keep track of what my unconscious mind ponders:
dream one // snoops training
im walking down the street and i happen to stop at a stop light. the corner of the building starts to have smoke come out and snoop doggs "drop it like its hot" starts to reverberate through my ears. out of no where snoop dog comes out and starts crip walking towards me. he tells me to stop simpin and start pimpin. i ask him how and he says "follow me young pup. i must learn you the art of pimpin." i follow him into the smoke and bam im sliding down a gihugic slide. when i get to the bottom of the slide i look up to see snoop dogg transform into half snoop half cat in the hat. then he lights up a blunt and passes it to me. when i took a hit i woke up.
a few minutes pass then i go into my last dream before waking up for good
dream two // ftf
im walking to my tues and thurs class with the homie diane as usual. we're walking through campus and the idea of me and her having sex is brought up. we end up passing through the hallways for the library / learning center and she tells me she doesnt think she could ever see me and her ever doing it. i told her i disagreed and bent her over while walking in the hallway and got her from the back. we looked to the side and there was a big ass mirror that reflected back what i could see us doing. it started to get more serious but classes got out and they were passing through the hallways. we decided to find a better spot so we put it on hold and walked around campus to find a place to handle it. we ended up finishing it off in the back of a photo class and decided to get some food. we were in one of the quads when we saw four cholo mexicans walking around grabbing their dicks and talking shit to everyone that passed. we had a brief discussion about it and how i thought they were stupid. one of them overheard and said something to the point of " hey vato do you wanna die homes? " i started to laugh and pulled out my "ring of power." the four cholos there bowed down and one of them proclaimed behold the lord of the mexicans. then a burst of light surged from the ring and i woke up yet once more.
i dont know why i've been having these weird ass dreams. its funny but strange to me all in the same. ill post again later if something else comes up worth mentioning. |
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