heres an emotional entry u gotta have them when u cant bottle up the pain anymore

i call this one envy

I envy tate for wat he has wich is a love wich he never has to have the feeling to be alone and how he has jenny to love him trully  id give up my whole life thats the only thing i want out of life is to be loved by a special someone   cherish that tate cuz thats the only thing that matter out of anything  never let anything go u 2 were meant for eachother and im glad u had found that on such a young age   i know im only 18 but in reality i really dont think ill find the one i really dont i know im gonna die alone and i think that is meant to be

Joey i envy u cuz everyone likes u  ur a  attractive guy  and alot of ppl think so  i never felt or even be told by anyone really that i was good looking i feel looks dont matter and they dont but everyone goes by looks even i do sometimes most girls do go by looks i feel like when  u and cante always talk about that shit cuz u 2 r the highlight of the party or the group and i feel like i dont exist when everyone approaches u like girl wise and shit im not jealous  i just want to know when that will be for me the time of being  when u and cante and tate joke around saying shit about virgin wise  sometims i feel like all u think im ugly im starting to understand that idk if u guys trully do think im ugly  

i been thinking about suicide alot lately cuz im tired of myself i do hate myself i hate everything about myself im tired of hiding all this pain away from all of u and act like nothing is wrong but it goes through my mind all the time i just hate being alone and thats y i mourn to pot or alchohol so i at least feel happy but deep down im a sad person nothing has ever changed when i was growing up i have alot better friends now or actual true friends i should say  but when it comes to being loved  or even liked for that matter that hasnt changed  i feel like im 16 all over again but yea everyone knows life is unfair but has to have some good points come out of it to make up for the bad ones and that hasnt happend i feel like im dying on the inside

another cover song but in my lyrics  hope there good cuz it just kinda poped in my head so enjoy

Heart-shaped box (by Kurt  Cobain  but in my lyrics

"she eyes me  down to pieces when i am knee deep"

"I been locked inside ur so called heart-shaped box for weeks"

"I been drawn into ur nice attractive personal   pit trap"

"I wish i can serve my pain then watch urs relapse

chorus:

"Hey, wait, why must u make me feel this way?"

"for ever in a deadly alliance  y must u pretend to be nice?"

"Hey, wait,  why must u make me feel this way?"

"For ever in a deadly alliance  y must u pretend to be nice?"

"Hey, wait, why must u make me feel this way?"

"For ever in a deadly alliance, why must u pretend to be nice?"

2nd verse:

"were meeting in old skool u know? or did u just forget?"

"put myself down on the greatest day, wit soco breath."

"Broken feelings wich i thought and always knew, stay grey"

"Throw down ur unreliable oh trustworthy so i can climb rite back"

(repeat chorus)

(repeat 1st verse)

(repeat chorus)

(repeat again 4x's )

Something in the way (nirvana) but in my lyrics

"underneath my skin"

"the needle sprung a leak, and i'm all the emotions i kept"

"and there all coming as my slaves"

"and im living off of simple life of emense"

"and  the tears that r coming from my emotions"

"its ok were all fake, cause its a better feeling."

chorus>

"Something in the way" mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm"

"something caused the pain, yea "  mmmmmmmmmm"

"nothing is the same" mmmmmmmmmmmmmm"

"something in the way" "mmmmmmmmmmm"

(repeat 1st verse then chorus,)

WITHOUT YOU  by: Motley Crue

Without you, there's no change
My nights and days are grey
If I reached out and touched the rain
It just wouldn't feel the same

Without you, I'd be lost
I'd slip down from the top
I'd slide down so low
Girl you'd never, never know...

Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, woman The world comes down on me

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

Without you, my hope is small
Let me be me all along
You let the fires rage inside
Knowing someday I'd grow strong Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, woman
The world comes down on me

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

I could face a mountain
But I could never climb alone
I could start another day
But how many, just don't know
You're the reason the sun shines down
And the nights, they don't grow cold
Only you that I'll hold when I'm young
Only you...as we grow old

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive

You’re my drug

“Going past the day of my addiction”

“Passing through your wild suspicions”

“Look what I brought home a drug that no one or I can afford”

“Look into my grazing eyes of intermission”

“Oh my god I cant help this addiction”

Chorus:

“You’re my drug you’re the only one

“You’re my drug that can be detected

“Not hurting or killing my intentions

“You’re my drug (repeat 4 times)

“Look what I am tripping”

“Not doing anything just only thinking”

“Sniffing the sent of what your picking”

“Injecting myself wit words that on what you’re feeling”

“You’re my drug you’re the only one”

“You’re my drug that can’t go wrong”

“You’re my drug that can work and all”

“You’re my drug” (repeat 4 times)

(this song gos out to someone out there)