Happy Birthday to me!!! Here are a bunch of pictures from that awesome day. I'll write an entry later...kinda lazy right now. Shoot!

Currently Watching Sin City By Jessica Alba, Devon Aoki, Alexis Bledel, Powers Boothe, Rosario Dawson, Benicio Del Toro, Michael Clarke Duncan, Carla Gugino, Josh Hartnett, Rutger Hauer, Jaime King, Michael Madsen, Brittany Murphy, Clive Owen, Mickey Rourke, Nick Stahl, Bruce Willis see related

Whoa...

It's been almost a month since my last entry. What the hell have I been doing since then? Haha, you tell me, cuz I don't even know. I've just been so busy with school and work that I haven't really had time and.........oh who the fuck am I kidding, I've just been WAY too lazy. Work has been somewhat bearable (management "perks" haven't seriously kicked me in the ass yet) but school has been kinda stressful....especially this freakin week! Today I had 2 midterms...........I bombed them both...one due to lack of time and the other due to lack of good sense (to study prior to that test). Crap, and then tomorrow I have a stupid stats test. Yeah, I SHOULD be studying for that, but of course, I'm here. I had almost a month to post up a new entry......and I decided to do it when I have more important things to worry about. Yup, that's me......a very stupid gay man whos priorities are screwed up......

Stats...........I fucking hate that class. It's one thing for the subject to be kinda complicated to begin with.....but when the professor is some dimwitted old white fart, it just makes things so much worse. I swear, Grishin is the fucking worst professor I've ever had at UOG! He doesn't speak clearly, his writing looks like ugly chicken-scratch, he doesn't explain things well, and when you ask him to go over something one more time because your confused, he does one of 2 things.......1) He explains in a way that just makes it seem even more confusing....or 2) He gets all irritated as if we're not supposed to ask questions! What the fuck is that? I seriously try to pay attention, but I spend half the time trying to figure out what he just said and the other half of the time deciphering the crap that he writes on the board. I just get so irritated sometimes (haha, Tina will tell you!) Crap, and now I have a test tomorrow that I'm not even remotely ready for. I've read the chapters and I'm glad to say that I actually understand some of it by doing so. For future reference........don't go to class, just read the book and do the homework and I should be fine. No need to waste my time and energy just to end up all irritated.

In other news....

Tina's gone...........from Cold Stone that is. I'm really sad, but I guess it was for the best. We'll always have those memories to look back on and laugh about how freakin retarded we were....and still are. With all the highs and lows, I can definitely say that Tina is one of the best friends I've ever had. She was one of the first Cold Stoners that I got really close to (haha, remember the bible study meeting Tee?)........one of the first that I went strolling around Guam after work with (oh if that civic could talk).......and yes, she's the first person at Cold Stone that I came out to (big shocker huh?). From those late-night dinners at Denny's/Kings/Fuji to that freakin early morning biology class where we spent most of the time getting extra sleep......From those priceless kickback deep conversational moments at Outrigger to checking out guys as they walked through the science building lobby/HSS hallway/FA lobby/library/parking lot/etc.....From going through the hardships of being a shiftleader together to taking that extra gay step and minoring in theater together. From ditching work to go watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory to ditching class to go watch Brokeback Mountain.........Laughing, crying, arguing, bitching, venting, comforting.........we've been through it all and I'm happy to say that it's not even close to coming to an end. I love this crazy little freak and even though she doesn't work with me anymore, she will always be one of my bestest friends ever. I LOVE YOU TINA! GO TO CLASS!!!

I miss Patti too!!!

And those crazy Montague girls...

And yeah, everyone else who has left Cold Stone. It's hard to believe that almost 2 years later, 8 of the 25 original crew members remain. In a way, it's kinda sad, but in a way, it's rather impressive. Who in their right mind would actually work at an ice cream shop for that long?.....haha, I can name 8 people. I don't know, there's just something about this place that keeps us coming back. Despite all the stupid crap we go through with customers and Jun and everything else.....few of us won't admit it, but I'm not afraid to say that I honestly love working there. It's not the money (it is sooooo not the money), it's not the experience (we serve ice cream and sing for God's sake!), and it's not for the joy of making people happy (customers can kiss my ass!).......it's for the amazing people I work with. It's for all the friends I've made along the way. How many people can honestly say that they consider almost all of their co-workers their friends? How many people go to work on their days off just to hang out and say hi? How many people actually have 2 volumes of photo albums just for work pictures alone? I'm not saying that we should all work at Cold Stone forever (screw that!), but that this place has brought us (stoners old and new) together......a group of wonderful, beautiful, outgoing, intelligent, talented, fucked up, retarded young people. And now, our family just continues to grow. Not only have we welcomed 6 newbies to the stone (Becca, Jesi, Nyki, Shanei, Shaun, and Angie-not pictured),

but it's official........we're opening a new store at the mall toward the end of this year. It's kind of exciting and it's kinda scary. We'll just see what's in store. Till then, enjoy some of these pictures (don't mind the dates....I've been too lazy to adjust the date on my camera). If you wanna see more (and I have a SHITLOAD more), just ask me and I'll show you my 2 big volumes of Cold Stone Memoirs. Have fun, be good, and remember.........WE RUN ON HAPPINESS!!! SHOOT!!

Holy Shit!!!!

Today...........oh today was something else. It still hasn't really sunken in yet, but yeah.......I got promoted to Cold Stone Creamery Store Manager. Dang, that's kinda trippy. That means I'm gonna actually have to start caring more. Well for now, it seems pretty cool. I get a pretty decent raise and playing around with this new title isn't all that bad either...

"No, I'm not a Shift Leader anymore. Please don't call me manager.............it's god now!!!"

It's fun fooling around about it, but don't worry............I'm not seriously gonna let it go to my head. If anything, all the stress and other crazy shit that I'm gonna have to go through will quicky, but surely, pull me back down to reality.

But you know what....I'm not alone.................Kimmy got promoted to Store Manager too!! Now we can go psycho together! Also, buddy boy Cory got promoted to Senior Shift Leader (aka Assistant Manager......there dude, I said it!) and, after weeks of training, Rosie got her official coronation as the newest Shift Leader at Cold Stone. I'm so proud of you Rosie.............I know you'll do an awesome job! Congrats to Kimmy and Paco also. This calls for a celebration.......hopefully another big party complements of Jun. But you guys know what this means though................we're not going anywhere anytime soon.......dammit Jun......

Well, aside from that......a bunch of people got prizes today at the crew meeting. I got money (thank God), but dammit................I was just 1 or 2 points away from getting a freakin I Pod Shuffle! Oh well, you win some, you lose some. It's all good. Also, as I did last Valentine's Day, I play Romeo and presented all my lovely single ladies (including Tina) with a few small gifts from the heart. I know it's practically NOTHING compared to an I pod, but you know...........maybe next year. Rosie, Tina, Kimmy, Gemma, Mary, Mur............Happy Freakin Valentine's Day........even though you are girls.........I still love you all!

Mur got me this Cowboy Spongebob action figure from Burger King because she knows how big of Brokeback Mountain fan I am. Now it sits at work and acts as my mood booster for everytime I'm having a shitty day. Thanks Mur! Don't worry, I'll pay you back......I'll make sure our kid (whatever the fuck it's name is gonna be) get's all the free ice cream and Cold Stone clothes he wants...........

Dammit........Tina's last day at Cold Stone is in like 2 weeks. I still can't believe it, but I guess it's for the best. I COULD type out this long, emo-drenched entry about my lovely, big-breasted, sex-loving, artsy, crazy girl Tina..........but a bunch of people might start crying and shit (just like today after I gave everyone their Valentines gift......geez) and I think it's too soon for that. No need for anyone to start feeling all sad right now. But yeah Tee, I love you and I don't want you to go.........but if it'll make you happier......

So yeah, that's what's been going on in my crazy little life. Things just keep piling ontop of me like crazy and I'm feeling kinda bombarded with school and work........yet, for some reason, I still feel like something is missing in my life. Is it that special guy that I'm looking for.........idk maybe or maybe not, but hey......I wouldn't mind if he happened to step into my life right..........now.....

Well I had a pretty awesome couple of days. Wouldn't you if you had a 5-day weekend? Let's recap on all the craziness...

My weekend started on Wednesday............I skipped all my classes so I can be mentally and physically relaxed before opening night (yeah, that's a lame excuse..........I was just lazy). Anywho, I already went over this in my last entry...moving on...

Thursday.......I skipped my one and only class that day so I can work my odd shift from 2-6. For whatever fucking reason it seemed busy. Got the sad news that my silent buddy Trey is gonna be ditching us too. Dammit, good people keep leaving.......yet the ONE still remains. UGH!! Anyfuckingwho, after that, I went straight to school for opening night of "Guam Teens Talk Tough" where I got to show the world the wonder that is my "nice butt." Hope everyone enjoyed it and I hope it was worth the 2 hours of other people talking that you had to sit through. Thanks a bunch to those who were there to support me........Tee, Kimmy, Rosie, Paco, and Muriel......it means a lot to have my adoring fans present. Afterwards, we headed over to work to say hi (except for Tee and Mur.....we missed you!), then to Mur's house just in time for the $5 specials. After that, we headed over to Outrigger and had another nice open session. To the people who spilled their guts out that night.......

We appreciate that you care......but in the long-run, you'll understand what we're trying to say.......

You look good the way you are.....but only you can boost your self-esteem

I don't know..........your ass-crack doesn't really bother me all that much.....

Friday........went into work for a little bit to do some ice cream. I just love getting paid on my off days. I don't mind...........as long as I don't have to deal with stupid fucking retarded asshole shitfaced shitheads (customers). Second night of GTTT......crowd was kinda dead and someone fucked up on the lights in the beginning. At least I still got a good reacting from the audience when I....yeah, you know what I mean. Thanks Patti, Mary, and Gemma for checking me out that night.....hope you enjoyed it. Well, none of them could hang out with me after, so I headed to work like the loser that I am and hung out there until closing. Then I went with them to Dennys.......that was okay.....I guess.

Saturday......worked in the morning........decent shift I guess. got to work with newbies Shaun and Shanei.....they're doing pretty good. I'm glad to see that they know their shit. After that, went home to relax for like 5 minutes before I had to head over to school again for the grand finale of my show. Wow, it's actually over. After bitching night after night about having to wait until like 10 just to rehearse my 2 monologues........I guess you could say it was pretty much worth it. I got to have my time in the spotlight.....and I had the opportunity to meet and work with some amazing and talented people. I'm really gonna miss those crazy youngens. Hopefully I'll see them around, or if I'm lucky, have the opportunity to work with some of them again in the future. The cast party was freakin awesome........so much better and more fun than the Catholic School Girls cast party. All the white people food, and the camera-whoring, and the horrible, horrible singing......I loved it! Thanks Tee for being my one and only adoring fan present that night and for coming with me the party. Well, as great as that was, the fun just shifted over to Patti's house for her little karaoke night. More singing. More stupid crazy shit with some of my favorite people. A very VERY memorable night.

Sunday........I worked at night and it was freakishly light for a Sunday night. Got to work with Jesi. She's super-cool. She reminds me of Mia, Mur, Gemma, and Mary all rolled into one. Her and Gemma connected............scary thought.

And yeah, that was my 5-day weekend. Five incredible days I will never forget. Once again, thanks to everyone who watched my show. I know you guys had better things to do, and the fact that you chose to support me and watch my 10 minutes in the spotlight really means a lot to me. I love you all! Deniz........it was great working with you again! Make sure you stop by Cold Stone once in a while......you crazy little Turkish chick. And finally to Tina and Patti....................Happy Freakin Birthday!!!! I wish you both the best of happiness........wherever you find it. Love you!

Wow, another long one. Haven't had that in a while. Hope you enjoyed reading it. If you didn't..............then too freakin bad. Gotta go now.........need to do some.....UGH.....homework. Shoots!!!!!!!!!

Currently Watching Brokeback Mountain see related

Wow, today was really cool. I skipped all my classes, went with Tina to meet up with Gemma and her dude friends at Shirley's, watched an unbelievebly wonderful movie (which I will talk more about later) with Tina, and went to the last rehearsal for Guam Teens Talk Tough. Oh yeah, and then after I stopped by work and me, Tina, and Jason went to eat at Fuji. Now, down to my main point of this entry...

Holy Shit! We skipped class and raced to GPO to watch the highly acclaimed and controversial BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN. All I can say after watching that movie was..........wow! I was left speechless and walked out of the theater with a warm feeling and goofy smile. FINALLY, a movie that shows homosexuals in a more positive, not-so sterrotypical light. It's not the least bit offensive, nor is it insulting. I've been waiting for a movie like this to come out and there it is and it couldn't have been done any better. No, it is not just a movie about gay cowboys. I mean yeah......they are gay cowboys, but it's so much more than that. It's a movie about two men (Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal) who form a very special friendship while herding sheep in an isolated mountain one summer. Over time, and despite the many hardships and complications, they discover their true love for each other and rekindle that love every so often by returning to their beloved mountain. Throughout the entire movie, the word "love" is only mentioned once and that's at the end. The two guys never say "I love you" to each other, nor do they ever say it to their respective female significant others. Why? Because if it's real, it doesn't have to be said. You can just tell. The two guys express their emotions and love for each other so well through the things they did for each other, which truly goes to show that "actions speak louder than words."

HOWEVER, I must forwarn many of you. As much as I freakin love this damn movie soooooooooooo much..........I know it's not for everyone. I'm not even going to say that this movie isn't for you if you are homophobic.......because I'm pretty damn sure that I don't have homophobic friends......and if I do, there's only one thing I can say to you.........GO FUCK A COW! Anywho, back to what matters........I can understand that many people who are accepting of homosexuality still feel uneasy when they see homosexual acts. Well........it's there. The two cowboys do a bit more than just kiss, so if even that makes you feel weird, you might wanna pass on this one. If that doesn't bother one bit, then I HIGHLY recommend this movie. Even if you're not gay, it's so moving and so powerful. Definitely at the very top of my list. And to think, a few days ago, I thought it was just another movie about regular cowboys living on a mountain. Go figure. Dang......I seriously fucking love this movie. It's literally "my" movie. Anyone wanna watch it, I am more than willing to watch it again with you!

Okay, aside from me going on and on about that awesome movie......Everyone seems to be doing this and I was tagged a few times, so here it is. I kinda filled out a rather detailed survey that reveals the same information (and then some). Go check it out in one of my past entries.........I did it a few months ago. Anywho, here goes.......

Rules of the Game:
1. The tagged victim must come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention gender of target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged again, there's no need to post a 2nd time.

1. He has to be a dude. I'll get right down to the point.....I'm VERY shallow (like almost all guys), so in terms of looks, he must be buff-ish with some meat. I like big guys, but big in a good way.....you know what I mean. Particularly nice arms and nice chest. Height isn't too much of an issue.......just not significantly taller or shorter than me.He MUST have short hair............I hate long hair on guys. Also, ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY NO tattoos and piercings. None.....sorry, not even on the ears! Come on......we are talking perfect........not realistic
2. He must have a good sense of humor
3. He must have the ability to be mature when it's necessary, but also act stupid when appropriate
4. He must be a big eater like me
5. He must be open-minded to other things
6. He must be goal-oriented and driven to succeed
7. He must be able to accept me for who I am
8. He must be comfortable with who (and what) he is

And there it is........now where's the guy? Still no where to be found. It's okay I guess......I'll find him eventually........hopefully. Till then.............shootz!!!!!

P.S.

Don't forget to catch me if you can this weekend at the UOG Theater!