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| I am uninspired, I have no motivation, I am failing all my classes, I quit my job, I am at the end of my rope.
These are the darkest of days for me.
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| The absolute worst thing in my whole life occured yesterday, janurary
the second, two thousand eight. It's so bad, That I can't do very
much at all, laughing is a challenge, smiling too, and even eating has
it's pluses and minuses ( I mean on one hand i'm fed, but in the other
i'm in pain! ). the cause of this murder to my life? I have
chapped lips. Never in my life have ever expiranced any thing so
horridendous. The confusion and agony for the day that I had
them, and I still do have, I just didn't know what to do. At the
end of the day, I had a friend come to up me and say. " Man looks like
you've got some pretty bad chapped lips, looks like it hurts."
Then I put this puzzle together. I was blown away, I didn't think
I out of all people could be
chapped lips. It stricks with no warning, ruthless and cold to my
virgin lips. Now at the end of day two of this war, They still
hurt, but I figure tomorrow i'm going to pull out the big gun -
Chapstick. Oh my chapped lips better be afraid, because they
brought the pain and i'm bring this pistol full of asprin.
Hopefull I will have my victory tomorrow.
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| So today, I slept in till about 3 pm. I was pretty
discusted. I wanted to get things done today, or atleast work on
them, as in my college applications. About that, it's part of a
list! My new years resolution list.
RESOLUTIONS:
Get all college things settled before the end of March and applications done before the end of january
Do every thing in moderation
Stay organized
Set my proities to what the should be
Put more time into school than I have in the past
Learn how to cool well
Move into CVS's Pharmacy as a pharmacy technition
Learn how to manage my time better
Keep to all my words that I make
Try to find her
I guess that may look like tons to do, but I know that if I really want to get it done and DO IT, then i'll be fine.
I probably have to quit wrestling, i'm not so sure. The team does
stuff over the holiday break, and what did I do? None of
it. So, i'm not sure if they want me on the team any more.
Which would be understandable, just means I have to start to work out
on my own and such as that. What I'd really like though, is a
work out partner. It's always better to have someone to measure
myself too and strive to be better, to push and be pushed.
Anywho~ I hope this year is a good one for all.
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| So I've come to the conclusion that I love work. I love working,
and everything else that I do there. Keeps my mind some what
busy, but I can day dream as I work, plus all in the mean time, I'm
getting paid; how convient. I never ever feel like i'm
working there, but when I get home, it's such a drag. Why
be at home, doing nothing ( Generally ) and NOT get paid for it?!
It just dosn't make any since to me. When I got off at 2 today, I
wanted to ask if I could just stay on for a while longer, for the money
and something to do ( I don't do a whole lot at home if you can't tell
=D ). However instead, I went back home and did nothing. I
felt compelled to do something, straighten the house, go for a jog,
walk the dog, well none of that happened. 'tis a shame. One
day it will though.
I really need to get on top of my College applications. Maybe
writing about it will encourage me to finish them. I've got
really nice offers and such, It's just a matter of grabing the candy
out of the basket. Right now metaphorically, i'm just too lazy to
pick up my hand, move it about hmm 2.5 cm and then eat the candy.
I'd say i'm at about raising my hand, havn't really moved it much, but
it's up atleast. I'll get to it.. It's on my to-do list.
So sometime in January, i'll be switching over from CVS's Front center
or whatever it's called, to the back with the Pharmacy and what they
do. I'll be a pharmacy technician, loving ever minute of
it. See, the only problem with that is, when I go to college this
next fall, I'll have to quit. which isn't really a problem cause
that's when i'll start up my Cisco career and build my "experiance"
needed. In other words run help lines for a certain
company. They call that having the proper experiance to run a
network. Fantastic, I'm so excited, I can't wait, seriously.
I'm still feeling pretty good, Woohoo!
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