So 4th of July is over.. Mannah had a party and got one of those Jumping thingy magigers again..we had barbq, pinata, and other games..we even lit fireworks/firecrackers which was pretty fun..but yea, was at the airport earlier to drop off the Vidals to go back to Virginia Beach..erghh i hate the airport! its sooo sad..i reallie think there's something wrong with me..i get separation anxiety hecka easily and start to get depressed.. maybe its from when we were separated from my parents when i was younger..i get that feeling all over again and it sux! i hate this feeling..had a blast when they were here tho, even if it were just for a short while..Ice skating, GA and just tour around the city, but just hangin out with them was the most worthwhile..especially when Jing-jing slept over hehe n got to reminisce..good times..but yeah, its past four and still got class in the mornin so imma try n get some sleep..

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As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving

Chorus:
So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday
Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

Repeat Chorus

I must pack my bags and say goodbye, goodbye

"Nothing has turned out as we expected. It never does. Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect. We take what we get and are thankful it's no worse than it is." 

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So another weekend and another party at the crowne plaza...two weekends in a row hehe and now im startin to reallie get sick of that place..Valeries party was hella coo tho, hehe we actually did alright with the whole cotillion thing..and me and aileen didnt mess up! woohoo!! =D all in all the party was coo..least it got me to get away from everything..but yeah, some things u just can't escape tho..haha gosh im freakin oold!

..........   Here are some pics from the wedding..     The Family Pic     watch out now..haha "best man coming".. =D     Saying the Vows..     Tada..and there you go..     at the reception..     'giving the toast'     with my tita melba..     posing for the camera..     another pose..     with my nephew..     dance w/ ateh kiang     in the room...     Just chilln in the room..     oh my god..its another racoon pic! =D

ahh these couple days have been filled with ups and downs!..don't you ever get that feeling where one day you're so filled with joy and happiness and the next day feel the complete opposite and emptiness?.. maybe the next time i'm having such a good time to stop myself from feeling that way to easen the strife that'll soon follow.. why does the world have to be so cruel? well i guess thats just how the world revolves...ur up one minute the next your down.. as you all know my parents got re-married and renewed their vows on 25th wedding anniversary this past weekend and everything was going great that day... we had visitors over from everywhere, party was great and everything was a blast..too bad it didn't last thought, cause as soon as the weekend was over and everyone has left..it felt as if i'm back to reality...i dun even know why i'm feeling this down..i just feel lost for some reason and i have no sense of direction..i feel as if i cant turn to anyone and my only way of escape is to isolate myself from everyone... i guess im just lonely... i mean im greatful for lots of things, especially my family and friends but theres just something missing...an emptiness inside me which at times causes me to feel as if im on my own and noone, not even friends nor family can ease the pain...arghh why am i so weird? at these times my only escape is my notepad and my good ol' slow jams..seems like the only way to clear my mind is through writing while  listening to sappy love songs and so far it hasn't let me down...