i have to give up this xanga cuz my sisters found it and now look at it.  ergg stupid retards i hate them so much you dont even know.      okie dokiee i'll make one sooner or later again soo sont worry i'll be back.  HAHA why should anyone worry noone uses it anymore!  =D

4months,...4 long months and still going.   

 

Lets write about this story.  Where should i start?,...

Oh yes.  Rainy September,  joined a soccerteam my bestfriend wanted me to join.  First day i laid my eyes on her i had a feeling in my body.  Like i needed her.  I didn't tell anyone,..b/c it just wasnt natural.  Days, Months past. She found me on AIM and we started talking.  More months past.  We became friends...more than friends..."sisters".  Oun Srey&&Bong Srey.  Every Seattle Sounders game we went to we sat by eachother.  Tried spending the most time with eachother.  Those were the best days of my life it felt like.  But then my computer got messed up and i couldnt talk to her on AIM anymore.  We started drifting apart, and she found a new friend.  Yes, i was jealous but it didnt matter.  It seemed like she didnt care anymore.  I was hurt, and yes i'll say it.  But seeing her happy was all i wanted.  Finally she stopped going to soccer,...so i did as well.  The team was canceled.  None of the rest cared about seeing her anymore,  i did.  I got my internet back about 4months later.  I was dating someone who i thought i loved.  But it wasnt love, just very heavy infatuation.  Another 4months past and since i still had her SN i see her sign on.  I was suprised, scared, nervous, happy, and excited all at once.  I brought up my courage and IMed her.  We talked, ...she was with someone...someone i didnt know.  I was yet again jealous.  I wanted her, as selfish as it sounds.  Now she was into smoking&&drinking.  This wasnt my bongsrey.  I told her to stop and she just said who even cares about me.  I told her i did,..and she said i acted like i knew her.  I felt like crying.  Everything we been through,..and i didnt talk to her for eight long months and i was a nothing to her.  I talked about how i felt after awhile,  she said she didnt remember any of it.  I didnt feel like talking to her anymore...then she finally confessed she did remember,  she did remeber us.  So i had hope.  Middle of April, Khmer New Year,  i saw her.  Wearing different clothes but it didnt matter to me, as long as i saw her.  After we started talking more,..on the phone and internet.  She knew about the guy i was dating,  and she knew i was being hurt by him.  Near the end of June i talked to her the most...the hardest time of my life.  And she gave me enough strength to finally get up and leave him.  I felt free and happy.  The Happiest i've been in a very long time.  A few weeks before this happend she told me that she liked me more than a friend, and more than a sister.  She liked me as a companion.  Someone she could be with and call hers.  So you would probably think i confessed as well, because i did.  And now in the moment she was single.  I was single.  Finally the question came up.  She asked.  That is how it became to be JUNE 30 2005.  yup i was nervous and scared to tell anyone at first,  but when it all comes down to it i realized i loved her and thats all that mattered right?  Theres things we went through that i dont even want to talk about.  We "started over" recently from stupid fights.  But there was one time during the summer that i felt like was really special.  It was the White Center Jubilee and it was a cool summer day.  We spent part of it in the park sitting on the bench.  We sat there and talked while she leaned on me,  i thought it was the cutest thing ever.  No arguements.  I was happy,..happy that i was happily taken by her.  Now we been through basically what seems to be everything.  When i look back at it 4months together was a long time.  I love her to the fullest.  fourmonths together and she has me sprung.  I hope we last longer,..because this isnt the end of our story...not yet.

 

-i got teary last night over the phone without you knowing.  But its all good, they were tears of happinness.  B/c you reminded meh you loved meh and i felt like everything was okay.