Interests:worshipin' The One and Only.
MUSiK! broadway. theatre. singing. dancing. guitar. piano. praise. jammin'. karaoke. volleyball. being makulit. laughing. pinas. the frias klan. my cousins. chillaxin'. Industry:Entertainment
reading back on old blogs. scrolling through time. screening past all the empty spaces that used to be pictures - stolen memories that even tinypic.com couldn't hold onto. looking back into the past... into who we used to be, my friends.
my, how times have changed. how we've changed.
how xanga has succumbed to facebook. "what the heck is an e-prop? poking's where it's at." how priorities in life have shifted. how dreams have disappeared. how responsibility has gotten a hold. how reality stings.
even eXciTeDd!!!! xanga blogs can't hide your inner turmoils anymore little one. your new tone is resonating with clarity. a contrasting melody to yesterday's tunes. no room to pretend anymore. no one to play house with. ready to grow up now? -kim
i know you're shining down on me from heaven.... all that i know is i'll wait patiently to see you in heaven... and i know eventually we'll be together... one sweet day, jul.
do we really look forward to going to heaven? yeah, i know, we want to join our Creator... have no worries... all that stuff... nice.
but, do we REALLY? do we really grasp what it means?
I used to say, "of course.. who wouldn't want to be in heaven?" but honestly, i loved it here on earth. and being the person that i am, i even loved the challenges i'd face getting to where i needed to go. being rocked a little.. being tossed.. and recovering with success. i enjoyed that. and thinking of a place, that i've heard all good things about, but with much of only the same good things... well, i wanted to go.. eventually... but not now... not while i'm still doing all THiS.
yeah.. all this.
i don't think the question is if we really want to go to heaven... if we really look forward to going.... too often i've looked forward to it like it's some great vacation i'll have one day. as if we were looking forward to some big european excursion or a trip back to the philippines. and any person (especially a christian) can ramble on and on about the glories of heaven.. but they have no idea of what they're talking about. it's just a matter of knowing, that we can't even come close to the comprehension of love in such a glorious place. and that's all. this much, i think i got... and being with God? i can't even be happy enough about that, co'z i can't understand it just yet. i just know, that i want to experience, face-to-face, that love that i often hear about.
as of heaven tho'.. i've gained a little more understanding.. a little more wisdom on it... co'z i've never truly longed to go there 'til now. it's home. it's where nothing will be lacking. it's singing the perfect song. it's where we'll finally feel complete.
it's sitting on the beach side with my cousins, catching up, laughing.
For years jul's been singing this song... over and over and over again, from before the hype 'til it was overdone, to the point where it was branded as his song, along with Harana... and this just breaks me, co'z Jul's been telling us to be happy, thankful, to celebrate, be whoever you wanna be, laugh, give, enjoy... to love for years, we just weren't listening. It's only now that i understand what he's been saying... i can't even put anything into words... Just listen to my cousin - he's such a beautiful person, and he's been inviting us to celebrate life and party with him for a while now.
"Rainbow"
Fallin' out, fallin' in Nothing's sure in this world no, no Breakin' out, breakin' in Never knowin' what lies ahead We can really never tell it all no, no, no Say goodbye, say hello To a lover or friend Sometimes we never could understand Why some things begin then just end We can really never tell it all no, no, no
But oh, can't you see That no matter what happens Life goes on and on So baby, just/please smile Coz im always around you And ill make you see how beautiful Life is for you and me
Take a little time baby See the butterflies color's Listen to the birds that were sent To sing for me and you Can you feel me This is such a wonderful place to be Even if there is pain now Everything would be all right For as long as the world still turns There will be night and day Can you hear me There's a rainbow always after the rain
Hittin' high, hittin' low Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah Getting warm, getting cold Weather could be so good or bad But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no
Coz oh, cant you see That no matter what happens Life goes on and on So baby, please smile Coz im always around you And ill make you see how beautiful Life is for you and me
Take a little time baby See the butterflies' colors Listen to the birds that were sent To sing for me and you Can you feel me This is such a wonderful place to be Even if there is pain now Everything would be all right For as long as the world still turns There will be night and day Can you hear me There's a rainbow always after the rain
Life's full of challenges Not all the time we get what we want But don't despair my dear coz I know now You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear So i'll say once again this worlds wonderful and Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful Ohhhh
Take a little time baby See the butterflies' colors Listen to the birds that were sent To sing for me and you Can you feel me This is such a wonderful place to be Even if there is pain now Everything would be all right For as long as the world still turns There will be night and day Can you hear me There's a rainbow always after the rain
Always gotta be ahead of the game, don't ya jul...? man, i miss you. i wish you were reading this, and could eprop me and mock my mushiness.. anything. i guess i, along with the rest of the world, are still writing to you on facebook, xanga, myspace, youtube, co'z we don't know where else to go... you were always accessable to ppL you loved and that loved you - now i understand that. man, i just wanna write and write and write and talk to you... i'd give anything to just talk to you jul... even to hear you scream like your mom that annoyed me so much.. jul, you can scream at me all you want, if i could only be with you man.... i'd write you a novel, but i know you're teaching the apostles the soulja boy, so i won't keep you, okie? i love you so much jul... save me and jordan a spot in heaven at every table, every party, and every ride.. co'z it's just moments now before we're inseperable again pinsan. your ate kim loves you SO much jul...
