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Name: Edwin
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Orange County
Birthday: 4/1/1980
Gender: Male
Interests: Worshipping. See me up there at top left? That's me dancing away... Worship God in all that I do!
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Doing Mission Work in 1st, 2nd and 3rd World Countries - all throughout the world!
All for His Glory. Coram Deo ;
Sola Fide
Sola Gratia
Sola Christos
Sola Scriptura
Soli Deo Gloria
Expertise: Building relationships, computers, HELPING...
Sinning and being Forgiven.
Praying and studying the word of God (and teaching it)
Friendster = edwin oak
AIM sn, ask me.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
12/30/2002
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| Doxy not done till Monday! NO!
In Mexico Until Friday!
Need Shirts Printed by Sunday AT LEAST!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
cant wait for the end of August....
when i actually have a schedule to get a freaking job....
i found a cool way to save gas :
250R Ninja -
50 - 75 MPG - and it rocks like a 600.
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| God Speaks
So others can listen....
It was funny how yesterday God used the previous day to talk to a friend...
In the midst of my crazy schedule, I rendezvoused with a friend of mine at a nearby coffee joint (near to cmc where i was at the entire week). In between going to the Loft and paying for Banquet food as well as going to the bank to cash a check, I met up with a long time friend.
We talked about God and about church and about salvation... and about grace and satisfaction and joy....
Man it was such a blessed talk.... and it was crazy how God used the previous day's reflection that day.
I was invited to go for dinner 2 days ago after KCM STSM Training, yet i declined because it was way out of my way. Besides, it was a 'team' thing along with other 'teams' from the past. I'd probably go if there was anyone from Uganda 2K3 there - but course not. I was hoping that i would get a call from a friend to go eat.
As I packed up and began to drive home, the urge to call up those two Parks (aka Kim)I know so well was there, but I decided not to be a bother. Along the drive home, some traffic on the 91, I reflected... I reflected how bummer it is not having that 'crew' you get to go eat with and hang out with after training.
There are the 'helpers' but they're students and in their own world. I'd totally love to hang out with them, but hey, it's awkward or can get very awkward at times having the 'pastor' hang out all the time with the students when they just want to have fun, especially if i'm not a 'team leader' or on a training team together.
So on my drive I thought about the emotions that would come with knowing that all 44 people were out and about together as well as thinking about how out and about 'students' in general were.
'Dang I'm old.' i thought to myself.
In lieu of all the other responsibilities that lay ahead of me, I knew that I really should get some down time... it was going to be - still is - a LOOOONG Week/end.
As I went through the emotions and the thought of 'oh boo hoo, i'm so lonely' ~ i heard the voice of God (not in an audible way - but more of a thought/feeling way) say to me - you're not alone, you have Me.
As I was passing Chapman Avenue on the 57, I was humbled... as i drove nearer to home, i realized how true that was....
By the time i got off the free way i was thinking to myself.... yeah... i have God... that's all i need.... and then as i got 2 blocks from my house, i thought to myself... dang...
I can't wait to play with Chan Cho and wrestle him and play fetch with him in the yard!
As i parked my car, I ran into the house and then called for my dog. Thinking he was asleep i walked to the backyard and began calling his name....
This gave me flash backs of when I came home from school one day and my parents got rid of my dog at the pound...
I remember that time i felt like i was so alone... and how i just really needed Fuzzy.... and then he was gone... the only one i could go talk to late at night outside under the stars and cry and 'snatch' at about life.... and poof just like that in a week, he was gone.
I thought to myself - and reasoned my parents love ChanCho and would never have done something like this... i began cooking dinner alone and was going to eat, again, with flash backs of 'teams' and friends and hords of people hanging out together and 'fellowshiping' in some sense, with one another.
I was almost about to get sad.... then i get a phone call - i get invited to go eat dinner... a few blocks from CMC.... i was like 'crap, i'm already home - dude if you called 20 minutes earlier, i would hella have gone...'
oh well missed opportunity....
Then the thought of "Dang i wish i was married or I wish I had a Girl Friend' thought crossed my mind.
i continued to thaw out the frozen salmon from costco and vegetables.
Strange to come home expecting to see your kid/dog and not having him lick your hand and wag his tail for you.
I sat down to eat and prayed... and thought.... wow... what a moment.... God really shows me that I'm really not alone in even these times... you can be surrounded with so many people and be so alone, but when you're finally alone, you realize that you're never alone, you have God there - and always there.
I had God. I was never and never will be alone. What a pleasant thought. I felt satisfied and turned on the t.v. as i ate (after praying and thanking God for that epiphany).
I began to think about the evolution of T.V. and anti-socialism and how distance and travel plays such a role in relationships and why t.v. is so popular now... then the garage door opens and my parents come in with ChanCho.... i play with him....
The next day i meet with the friend and he asked me 'have you ever felt like you had a need in your life and the only need can be filled with God?"
Naturally I thought about the previous day and how I felt so lonely and wanted to be with a GF/ or with my dog or with friends.... yet i realized that day how even in relationships, nothing can trump the relationship you have with God.... we talked for a good hour i believe.... a little longer than what i expected my short stop to be..... I needed to get going because that night I stayed at Pilgrim Church till 11 pm decorating and spending time getting ready for the banquet that was tonight....
Something also that blew me away in our talk in the coffee shop - the talk of grace... it was so awesome...
I wish more people would call me up out of the blue and say 'let's get coffee edwin....' and then ask about God working in my life and about the person of Christ and the relationship they/i have in Him.... man....
I hella wish that.... but it probably won't happen...
I'm such a bad friend.... i also slowly realize that i'm not such a good leader....
I can really run a program or follow instructions or directions like any good soldier, but to create in somoene else that leadership type quality... man i just dont think i can do it.... i look back and feel like i really have not passed down the torch in anything i've done... they just kinda go poop.
I need to meet up with so many people that are struggling with God.... and here i am pooped from church/'kcm 9 am to 9:30 pm.... i am pooped....
And now i got super saturday tomorrow 9 am to 5pm.... an i gotta get ready for church service and mission training for church on Sunday 10:30am -2:00pm. and then i gotta get prepped for mexico at cmc... meeting at cmc at 3pmish... and leaving cmc for Mexico around evening time... an gone till friday ... every day in mexico is going to be so difficult... i really don't know ... i am going to be so just bummed... and pooped....
Here are things i thought i would never do this year -
1) Call the cops and have someone i know detained.
2) Here someone in particular going to bible study on their own.
3) having 12 hour days and then some work ontop of it throughout the week.
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i can't wait for this week to be over.. i am so blessed but yet, so drained... need strength for tomorrow and strength for today.....
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When I'm Not Evangelizing, I'm Noodling!!!!(just kidding... and just fishing...) Santa Ana River Lakes Jason and I caught 1 Catfish each... yeah we wanted it to seem like we caught two each but you can probably tell....
 Oh yeah, and it was delicious... Blackened Mesquite Grilled Catfish Yum! P.s. I think Noodling is Illegal in the State of California.... hahahaha... seriously look up Noodling Videos on Youtube and you would be AMAZED at how people catch catfish in the Midwest, etc...
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| Have you ever had moments where time seems to slow down around you and you can just about walk around everyone and everything and think for about all eternity?
And no - not on drugs. Just a simple thought.
Time is relative... it's possible to stop and really look at the world in a different perspective and realize a lot more than you've been told or taught in life.
It's possible to really grow years in a few months and months in a few weeks and days in a few hours.
Sometimes you just need that moment where everything around you stops.
And then after that, you move on.
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| WHAT THE HECK?!
I still have XaNGa....wow....
Do you guys really want an update on my life? The two comments on my last post came from Shawn and Alan - two brothers over seas...
Xanga is good for people like them, because if they don't keep up with the socializing here, they're gonna come back fobs!
hahaha... jk....
Well - Obama is the Democrats nominee ... surprise?
Colt's contract is ending soon - i'm sure you know that shawn - arent you interested who the government is going to contract next for their guns??
what else... .hmmm.....
Mission Training is in full effect.... KCM is in a financial crunch, mostly because of some decisions i made =P
But i'm going to offset em! I gotta budget smart and ghettofy some of the stuff we've done in the past....
I began filling out my app for the city of Anaheim.... Pray for me!
Also - my kids are going to Arizona this year... this may be the last year I go for the entire time... hopefully next year i'll be able to go for at least half the trip... if not the entire trip...
I'm looking for a PART TIME INTERN FOR MY CHURCH (pilgrim evangelical church)!
If you know anyone that I can work along side with, please let me know!
They don't have to perfect - but they will need to be screened by me and my head pastor along with some elders and the whole gamit of leaders we have in our sub 50 church.
And yes it is a part time internship for JDSN work that I will oversee.... and yes, it will be paid... and yes.... i will help them along the way as much as i can and yes.... sooner i can work something out, the better!
Your prayers are greatly appreciated....
I know i haven't posted many picts up lately.... mission planning is in full effect for both Arizona and KCM STSM... we need funds on both fronts as well as support physically as well as spiritually....
It's a war out there... and we're mobilizing right now to get ready to fight on some of the toughest fronts imaginable.
BAM.
I've been fishing too.... i've caught trout lately... season has started for catfish... catfish and trout both taste good....
I'm going backpacking up the San Gabriel River on Monday....
It's gona be wild... ican't wait... going with 2 other guys.... oh yeah... we're not like that. both have gf's except me.
I'd bring ChanCho, but i dont think they'll appreciate me bringing my kid along. After all, ChanCho aint the brightest and toughest cookie....
Well my kids are coming up the elevator and things are bout to start here at FNBS....
I've been in church on Friday's for the past plus 18 years of my life.... wowza... rock on.
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