lost of shit to go around

1) my migranes are getting owrse
2) Medicine is not helping
3) I am afraid my brother wont get into collage because he has yet to apply
4) I need to get a drivers lisence
5) My friend has ben kicked out of his moms house, now staying with dad
6) I still feal lonley
7) My dad and mom dont get along so well....
8) I need to bring my grades up
9) My mom's mom, or my grandmother, has ben left cause my aunt in law does not want her and my uncle to have my grandmother live in there house any more. So they moved while she was on vacation and they are selling the house she currently resides in. She has no where to go.
10) I learned recently that my mom is not welcome very much (close to a prositute) in her family and in South Korea becasue she fell in love with and married a white man durring the korean war. She is still family because of blood, but that is about it. Her grand parents and parents didnt give her any of there fortune becuse of it. And they are extremly rich.
11) My dad and his brothers and sisters did not recive any of there grand parents money because my uncle married a black woman. they were also muti-millionairs.
12) My dads side grand mother had a rough patch in her health with the heart. My moms grand mother has heart problems and diabeties. that means i will most likely have heart problems.
13) I am starting to think that I have somthing seriously wrong with me.....
14) 2 things that can almost always cheer me up is rain and fire.
15) I am super addicted to caffine.....
16) My buisness law teacher hates me.... the feeling is beginging to become mutual.
17) I have a tendanct to push most people away  when all they want to do is help. I am starting to not trust almost any one. even some of my closest friends that i have known for a long time.
18) I notice how peopel change but how I stay the same.
19) I have ben doing illegal stuff over spring break, nothing big, but illegal non the less.
20) I become more and more paranoid as time goes by.
21) Things that once made me happy dont any more, i thing i have depression.
22) I belive in respect, yet choose not to show it recently; I realy need to work on that.
23) I have burned alot of the letters i have recived from collages.
24) I have been recently using the "asain card" alot. i realy need to stop doing that.
25) A few days ago it was raining and I started a bonfire. That was truly a great day. one of the best i have ever had.
26).... my migrane is preventing my from thinking to hard right now... be back later

Message to You Know Who ( if you are the person. if not, then it is not adressed to you so you do not know unless i tell you)

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"I placed 1st in Ecology, 2nd in Health Science, and 4th in Disease." i wish i were that good

"Next day I had beautiful pictures taken of me," extremly beautiful 

"Can't find my shoes." check under the bed

"Wednesday is Calculus and AP Psychology test day.
Thursday is AP Biology, Ch Chemistry, and Brit Lit test day." good luck

" "write a great lab report for a crappy physics lab" " you will do fine. you many wont to bring in samples of what you used though.

"Saturday is St. Patrick's Day." Dont get to drunk.

 "Except for the sting that comes with planting in a driveway after falling over a wheelbarrow filled with cast iron." Get Well Soon

"But I'm still... good... somehow." keep on keeping on...

Good Luck

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It it weird that every night for like the past week i have ben making a wish upon a star? i wonder if any will come true